Jerred snarled. "You know why I'm worried you stupid- Stop screaming for pity! You did this to yourself! Haru didn't do anything to hurt you and you know it!" Jerred wondered if they had a pool he could drown Denaelli in. "If you want pity then you should cut it out, it won't work. If you want to talk, then I'm here, I'll help you work out what is going on in your head, but not if you're going to act like this!" He held Denaelli so again he was looking into his face and he was at eye level with Jerred, a good foot off the ground. "So, what will it be? Pity party where I'll be wanting to drown you in your own sorrow, or something constructive?"
Haru was still shaking. "... You know the answer... Don't ask the question..." Honest to god, he just wanted to walk into a bonfire. "I'm not you... I'm not like you... You live for others... I live for me... And the only things I ever want in life... You obtain with ease... You snap your fingers, you have someone's life in your hands... I snap my fingers and people wonder what music's beat has me snapping... I know control is an illusion... But for once... I'd like to have the illusion of control over my own life..." He curled his hands into fists, tightly, then let them relax again. He finally opened his eyes, tears staining his cheeks. "... You're so far out of my league it isn't even funny... How... I even managed to land on the same planet... I don't know... I'm a street rat... Common trash... You're... High class... A god... Or perhaps Demi-god is more accurate as you could die... But... That won't happen any time soon... too many worshipers willing to throw themselves in the way and kill your attackers..." He bit his lip to keep from chomping down on his tongue. "... I suppose it's the same, regardless who you are... What you want... Is never what you have..." He gave a fake smile, pretending he could feel.