and I wish you'd stop treating treating that other person's name like it's taboo or something? Because it's not, I just would rather we be focused on each other and what we are interested in not comma on that other person that just randomly popped into your life and you decided you wanted to f*** them because it would hurt the people you were already f****** too much. I didn't even know you loved me!! I thought you were just saying that because you liked me as a friend! That you wanted me to be your other family like your friend from your childhood! I'm still angry about this! But... It hurts worse that you don't want to hurt me or burden me with your hurt that I am already aware of. It hurts more when you turn to this person, you're more willing to confide in them and that hurts the most! The only reason I don't want to hang out with them, it's because I don't want to see them cuddling with you and they don't want to see me cuddling with you so it works out! But, I don't think you understand that. Probably cuz you're in too much pain over someone dumped you because they just wanted to start college with a clean slate..
******** kids.
But here I am, with regrets that I didn't kiss you when I wanted to cuz you asked me not to. And I'm probably not going to see you again because you're moving away and you're going to fall in love with someone over there. And I know I said I would be okay, because at least you're not dead but, I don't even know if I will be. But that's something I'm going to have to live with, I'm just going to have to try to find someone else, even if I don't want to.
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