well i kinda got into a fight with my boyfriend.... and after he left, little_goober and i were talking. i finally just got up and walked out of my house without shoes, my cell phone, or my keys... ( >///< ) glad she was there to let me in... but as i walked out into the street, i watched out for the assholes that try to "hit on me" and curse me out and call me things... i was also glad that they were too into their basketball game to start s**t. i was too angry to deal with them and i didnt want to start trying to get either my a** kicked or theirs. (either way, i'd have to explain to my mom and my bf and others) after i finally got to his house, he answered the door and i told him i was sorry for getting mad at him. but as i walked away (started hurting and i was getting worried about goober being at my house alone...) i ran alittle because i heard something coming for me. after a few seconds i turned my head to see who it was, and to my surprise it was Riku (my bf) i had this look of "wtf!?" and he just had his flip-flops and t-shirt and jeans on, and he complained to me that i wasnt dressed right for the 60 degree weather. >.< and no shoes... he began to yell how stupid i was for walking to his house in just a thin shirt and jeans. i finally just stumbled and he began to use my real name and tell me to use his shoes. i had told him that it wasnt too far from my house and it really didnt bother me (both were true...my house was in view and i had done worse to my feet....stupid branch!) so he decided to say that i was acting like a dumb bitchy person. and i just told him i wasnt dumb, i was crazy. (and its true. i am crazy but thats for my loved ones. i wouldnt do anything for someone i dislike or hate) we walked back into my house to find roxas where i had left her. on the stares asleep. (wth!? i dont get them) i finally just told them both im sorry and i screw things up all the time. i walked down stares and hung out in the den. Riku followed and just grabbed me. i love you. and he started to sprout off alot of things. like its not my fault and that i should stop apologizing. i shouldnt feel bad or anything. but even as i type this, i still feel regret for being so mean to him. i didnt mean to ruin his fun, but i was getting jealous that goober got more hugs than i did and that he was more clingy to her when she was around. but there are times that i feel i am a dumb b***h.
but on a brighter note, this girl that i really dont like, i called her a b***h to her face and smiled politely. now you see, i was trying to talk to my friends about my cat/fox ears. she kept calling my name and i finally looked her in the face and she asked me how i was. so i dont know what i did or how she reacted but all i got was that i called her a b***h and that they were all confused at my actions. Joey came into the theater class room laughing and pats me on the back, saying "im so happy you told her that!!" i held my chest and felt my heart beat out of my chest. i could hardly believe i told her "hey b***h, im leaving." and just walked into class. and after all this week my nerves have finally caught up to me. singing in front of the whole biology 2 class (dumb asses!!) and acting in front of theater was starting to wear on me. so i told my group i wasnt going to be able to perform as well (like i've done so many times aparently). they looked at me strangely and one said, "you'll do great, just believe in your self. you're one of the best in this group!" so we got on our mini-stage and performed a melodramatic sence were everyone in the class laughed their asses off. and enjoyed seeing me spazz about losing a pencil, finding it, getting picked on, and beating Joey and Joe to a mess. (not really but i did hit Joe on accident D: ;-; )
so this is now over and i hope you have a nice (insert time here)
but on a brighter note, this girl that i really dont like, i called her a b***h to her face and smiled politely. now you see, i was trying to talk to my friends about my cat/fox ears. she kept calling my name and i finally looked her in the face and she asked me how i was. so i dont know what i did or how she reacted but all i got was that i called her a b***h and that they were all confused at my actions. Joey came into the theater class room laughing and pats me on the back, saying "im so happy you told her that!!" i held my chest and felt my heart beat out of my chest. i could hardly believe i told her "hey b***h, im leaving." and just walked into class. and after all this week my nerves have finally caught up to me. singing in front of the whole biology 2 class (dumb asses!!) and acting in front of theater was starting to wear on me. so i told my group i wasnt going to be able to perform as well (like i've done so many times aparently). they looked at me strangely and one said, "you'll do great, just believe in your self. you're one of the best in this group!" so we got on our mini-stage and performed a melodramatic sence were everyone in the class laughed their asses off. and enjoyed seeing me spazz about losing a pencil, finding it, getting picked on, and beating Joey and Joe to a mess. (not really but i did hit Joe on accident D: ;-; )
so this is now over and i hope you have a nice (insert time here)
