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    i used to be that girl, <br />
    that wouldnt' give no one a chance. dodged guys in the hallway so they wouldn't tell me that they like me. <br />
    "No, i don't like you. No, i won't give you a chance. No, i won't think about it." that girl never played anyone, <br />
    but she played with minds, and the feelings that they gained. she used a guy once as a rebound for the guy <br />
    that she catched feeling for but still never gave it a chance. <br />
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    then i became that girl, <br />
    that was falling for someone. she kept the stuffed bear. movie tickets. letters. his shirts. and cards. "i" became <br />
    "we", and "we" became "us" all without losing me. so she learned to breathe deeper, hug tighter, kiss longer, <br />
    and dream sweeter. that girl smiled with her eyes, shined on cloudy days, and floated with no wings. <br />
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    and then i became that girl, <br />
    that tried holding on after all the crap he did. after all the times he "needed space". when he wanted time apart. when he wanted to show off he lied and to cover those lies, he lied more. he never stoped lieing. he lied to her face. he kept on lieing. In her eyes he was too good to be true and she was soo lucky to have such a perfect guy. till some people came out toghether to save the girl and show his whole life in truthful words. even though every word they said crushed the her. <br />
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    so i thought i could be that girl, <br />
    that didn't give a real ********. that washed the pain away. that was hard as a rock when really she was a gem. that <br />
    girl filled voids and threw away the big picture for momentary happiness and attention. that build up a wall between <br />
    trust. yup, i was the great pretender. <br />
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    until i became that girl, <br />
    who is finally allowing herself to live, love, and be happy. who is still learning. who refuses to settle for anything less than she deserves. who is humble and knows not to take anything for granted. that girl who still won't give anyone a chance unless she knows that he's worth her time. <br />
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    and i never ever want to be that or that or that girl again ...
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