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    Hello ladies and gents. I'm a passing-through Kamen Rider, a relic of Gaia's history ('07), a living legend, the unpredictable, and a now occasional user of this website. Don't you forget it! I go by a lot of names for peers that know me as but I'll leave it to them to get the hint. I am a multi-cosplayer and I do the craft spectacularly well. My Gaia journey is to befriend as many like-minded cosplayers that enjoy the craft and making the best for others to see. If any try to copy my work, I better see one that will surpass my work in every single way. Other than that, you may want to grab some snacks and some drinks because you're in for a treat reading my seemingly long bio. It's not everyday you see greatness from the underground legend.<br />
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    I am a wild card where your impression will vary. I am a lone drifter, and as a drifter, how I act towards others is of my own choice. I'm either trouble for some or an unlikely ally that joined last minute. Everything's like a gambit to me where I force my luck to get the results I wanted and get a little extra for the joy I get from it. But at my core, I am some would refer to as the real one for those that care. You don't have to like the things I do nor will I abide by what others want me to be. I have to be an entertaining a*shole for the monkeys out there while being on guard. I'm no stranger to people talking down on my work, passion, and ideals but here I am; still livid. I never really cared what other's opinions are of me unless you're part of my circle. Trust in this economy is a joke but an investment is another thing entirely. I'll invest in onto others that I see fit and use them accordingly.<br />
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    I'm an anime binger, tokusatsu enthusiast, manga reader, music listener, a gamer, college graduate, and an upcoming Graphic Designer. Saying all that is a mouthful but you get the idea. I have a lot of things that I like but can't list them all in this one section. To summarize, I like a lot of things that I personally enjoy when it comes to art and the medium revolving around it. My taste is subjective, however I'm not afraid in trying out new things outside my interest from friend recommendations as long as we vibe. I'm not particularly picky but I will openly state if it isn't for me but it doesn't change my views on my friends. Most importantly, don't take my kindness for granted as I am both the gentle and most dangerous person in the room. For I am an outsider whose never lost his ways while at the same time, whose loss would move many people.<br />
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    Fair warning to all; I am a hardened individual. There's a lot of tragedies happening around the world and the online space. So much so that it makes me sick. I've dealt with small little echo chambers that amount to nothing and ruthless manipulators that pull strings around each corner like a diddy party. Then there are trash that don't like anything in general and disrupt the very things others enjoy. Excuses are like a*s holes, everybody has one. It is truly sad when good people have to deal with such an obstacle, that you must become one to fight evil with evil. Mercy to an enemy cannot come at the cost of mercy to their victims. The right path isn't always easy to find but once you do, the only question is whether you're strong enough to walk it. So, don't tell any lies about me and I won't tell truths about you. The bad sides of humanity dwarfs the good and so does my patience. Like John Wick, don't make me come for you. <br />
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    For transparency; I'm an optimists and realists with no agenda. I firmly believe in truth, fairness, and information but I don't run my mouth about it like it is gospel. I follow a personal policy; To help aid the weak while having flaws as a person. We are all adults and we decide for ourselves how to handle important information responsibly. I'm kind enough to share information for free under a person-to-person business. Nothing more. I've made a lot of enemies in my lifetime but at the end of the day, I want peace. It's a tall ask to follow but nothing is going to stop me from fulfilling my selfish creed. I respect very few people worth my time and I will be that honest blunt with common sense in the room. I'm also very punctual and organized so my expectations for a lot of individuals is to plan sh*t out while letting me know in advance. I have sh*t to do with limited time like every other person so I expect my time to be used wisely. <br />
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    In the end, I have been on this website and personal journey for many years. It's sad to say that I will inevitably retire this place someday. I've made my peace with it growing up, met amazing people, lost others along the way. But at the end of it all, I don't regret any of it. While I would like to make amends and a desire to have one last word with a certain individual, many of us have personal lives and moved on. All this is wishful thinking, but a man can dream.<br />
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    It's been a fresh of breathe air to express this much about myself but this is where I have to end it for now. Reach out to me while you still can and sayonara!<br />
    To my former beloved if they ever read this: <br />
    I am sorry. Hand over my heart, I was wrong in how I handled our last days together. I regret not being open with you more often and how it made everything one-sided. Your last words truly was heartbreaking and the hardest pill to swallow but I, for the first time, I oppose your final sentiments. As much it pains me to, I refuse to ignore and forget the entire history of you. You were my world, my everything. The flaws you brought up about yourself was the main reason I love you. If I had said this WAY sooner and shared you more into my life especially my secrets, we would still be together. I was the one who pushed you away and that's why I'm telling you that I am going to own up to it. I had so much going through to my life at the time where I was truly alone and hated every moment on things I didn't want to do. I bottled up my emotions and kept putting on a false bravado long enough to hide away my pain. I was, truly unhappy, not from our relationship but at the things I had to do, as a growing and independent adult. I wasn't ready to be an adult at the time and at worst... I wasn't ready to disappoint you. I'm far from being a perfect individual, but having to lie to myself and to take my frustration out on my family and friends over telling you, my love... was my own self destruction. With the pain I was going through, you don't deserve the trauma I'd do to you. I wouldn't forgive myself and the fear of what I'd become, which is why I had I requested we take a break towards the end. I needed the time to soul search and fix my terrible living condition, though I understand it worked to your favor to fix yours and make a tough decision. <br />
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    After finally realizing where I went wrong, I finally understood how late I was for making you wait when you needed me the most. Where my priorities were and our time had strained, I was overwhelmed to the point that I let my pride get the best of me to where I didn't want you to see me at my most vulnerable but I should have. I was wrong in trying to hide that part of me since from the start, you were always the one reaching out. Had I done my part back then as your partner, equal and lover, then our final days together wouldn't have happened. I can't express it enough how much I've missed you and for how wrong I was to handle things alone. Being an adult is hard and I've paid the price for it. It's neither your fault nor mine. We were both trying to keep the dream of our love, passion, and youth for each other alive but life happens in the ever so growing struggle. I wanted to protect and maintain our little bubble for as long as I could on my own. I'm sorry. I didn't have a plan in how I could save our relationship in the end. What was done on your end is never finished on mine. That's why, even when it's too late and that you've moved on. I want to tell you my side and where I'm coming from. To rectify mistakes and it starts here; I was wrong. There is nothing more tragic and yet so beautiful how things ended between us. I felt no hatred, not even bitterness and yet sometimes, I have to tell myself that its ok to cry and tell the people close to me that I'm not alright. This finally broke me but I was able to be convey it all to properly heal from the support of the people around me who still believe in me. I had forgotten the whole point of a relationship, the entire reason that I chose to be with you in the first place was that we were suppose to be a team. Perfectly suited, perfectly matched... perfectly perfect. In these final moments, I never felt loneliness after truly losing you. Which is why I refuse to discard you as a memory since all this time, you were my shining light during my darkest moments. <br />
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    I've never talked this much about myself before but better to say this as of late. I chose to write this letter to give both of us the closure we needed. This will be the last time I'll ever feel this way for a long time but I will always be cordial with you, if you decide to come back or just want answers. If you do, I want you to approach this not as lovers or bestfriends, but as something closer. I hope we can just be honest with each other privately about our days and support one another. That's why at this point, I don't ask for forgiveness or to linger back on old feelings. I want things to feel like where we left off... before it all ended. I don't have the right to find happiness with you but I will continue to support you like you have for me. There will never be someone like you that I refuse to ever replace. You've given me genuine love and kindness that no one can ever replicate. I'll never find a one of a kind love like yours but I've learned to reciprocate the feelings of others whom shown their support for me. This is how I want to end this letter; to show you my gratitude and that I pray for your happiness wherever it leads you to. Our love story may have come to a close, but my story is not yet set in stone. Whether our paths cross once more or not, isn't my choice. I can finally be at peace after everything has been said and look forward to the future where I, too, can find happiness. After overcoming the lowest point of my life to redemption, I alone, feel like an honored one. I guess that's what it truly means to grow up; to endure pain, hardships, and happiness. We aren't special, but we all have a purpose to pass on, to never waver, and to live life to the fullest. I'll be quietly celebrating every ten years of our first love and our break-up; to eternally remember you while raising a glass in your honor and sipping alone to myself. Que sera, sera. If you made it this far: Thank You. I have one final thing I want to say to you that I would like to convey in this poem: Wishes that should've been, my vision blurred and invisible. While we're forever distant, there was light. That love stamped into my heart, I'll remember forever. To you that's far away. I love you.
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