• Chapter 3

    I came home to see that my dad angry with me for something that I did that I don’t even know. I got scared. His eyes went as red as fire, I was so terrified then he goes to me calmly,
    “What happened in school today?”
    “Nothing everything as normal, why?” damn!! I shouldn’t have said that, out of all the time I try to start a conversation with him now.
    “Because I seen what you were doing in school today, and what I saw was not good,” Uh oh I think he saw me with Alan. I have to say today is not my day; I told my dad what did you saw me doing in school? He says, “You were with a boy! Something I told you not to do from the beginning! And you still did it why?! You will be sorry for what you have done!!!!!!! I want to speak to you later not know I have to go somewhere,” he was shouting at me but then again I blame him any father will shout at their child for doing something wrong I took it all in and never said anything neither did I cry, I walked off all my brothers and sisters were just staring at me I wanted to say something but I couldn’t because I knew if I did I will start to cry so I didn’t.

    I went in my mum’s room thinking about what I should do I had the idea of coming out and speaking to my brothers and sisters but just when I went after the door somebody opened the door it was Shanna she came in I said to her what does she want in a polite way she says,
    “Nothing because you’re a horrible person how could you do that to us you know we hate that, everyone knows and guess what everyone in our family know and they all hate you so much! You should not even live here anymore should get out of here live with your ‘boyfriend’” I cannot believe what she said to me but whatever she said was a bit true not all of isn’t though. She left the room by saying what she has to say and I thought about it and I plotted a idea. I wrote down a list of things that I’m going to take with me when I get out of this house; mostly things that belong to me of course. I was planning in leaving in the night when everyone is a sleep until I realized that there was no one in the house! I was shocked thinking at first they probably left me with the house, but there was this note on the kitchen table. I picked it up thinking that it was something to do with me but instead it says:
    ‘To Tanika,
    We just want to say how disappointed we are of what you did and that we haven’t left in the house all by yourself for the rest of your life. We are all going to a trip! And it’s a shame that you could not have come, because we are going to Thorpe Park and after that we will go to Alton Towers and more places. The reason why we are all going is because we made the plan from a long time ago and we obviously wanted you to come until we found out what you have done. But Tanika you have to admit that it is your fault. Don’t worry about us we are coming back at 8:00 and we will be getting something for you. And please don’t do anything silly that will get you into more trouble.
    Yours truly,
    Your family’

    And that’s how the letter ended I was shocked! I cannot believe what they have done now it gives me a better chance of running away, so I packed my stuff and phoned Alan, I told him what happened and he said he’s coming.
    I cannot believe what has happened life with a guy damn this is too much! Alan came and he goes to me,
    “Are you ready?” I said to him in quite shyness and sadness,
    “Yes” he looked at me knowing that there was something wrong he says,
    “What’s the matter?”
    “I don’t know, well I do know but I don’t know if I should do this.”
    “Why not just write a letter saying that you’re going and that they are never going to see you again”
    “Should I?” He nodded, “Ok I write them a letter.” I started writing:
    ‘Dear Family,
    Well were shall I start, firstly I would like to say that I’m sorry even though you don’t really care but I just want to say that you don’t have to worry about me anymore because I’m not going to live here anymore….and before you all go panicky I just want to say that I will be safe, and Shanna I’m taking your little ‘tip’ and I am going so now you don’t have to worry. And I guess dad you will be relieved to see me go so you will be happy!! And now all your other precious children will not let you down like I did so you should be proud of all the children you got and forget about me because I’m the only one who makes you go angry the rest make you go angry but I make you REALLY angry. So bye you won’t have deal with me anymore.
    Love from,
    Tanika Begum
    XXX’

    I left the letter in the living room where everyone is always in, and I went with Alan. Tears rolling down my eyes he looked at me feeling really concerned he told me,
    “How did everything go?” with a comforting smile, I looked up at him thinking to myself ‘this is the guy I’m going to spend the rest of my life with! Wow things can change in an instant! I thought for so long that I nearly forgot that Alan was waiting for my reply; I looked up with a weak smile,
    “It went fine....I guess.”
    “What do you mean; don’t you want to come with me?” He said this with quite a lot of confusement,
    “Yes I do but they are my family,” I looked at him then away at the pavement and without any warning I began to cry out loud, “I don’t know what to do! Should I stay or should I go, I’m so confused into what to do!”
    “Sssh, don’t cry I’m here now I’ll look after you jut come with me in the car and I’ll take you to my place, what do you say?” He gave me the most comforting hug and the cuddliest hug ever, this is the guy I love. I give a smile and then wipe my tears off and said,
    “Ok, I’ll go,” I looked at the time and saw that the time was 15 minutes till 8:00! My family will be home in 15 minutes time, they can’t see Alan here. As quickly as possible I got all my belongings together and went inside his silver porch car.