• Maybe I should just confess to Karin and get it over with... I think as I walk out of the class room and run my fingers through my thick hair. That way it would save us all some trouble. I would confess to Karin, break things off with Alexander and then move to different schools. Start over with everything. I don't care. I just can't have things this way. It's selfish, I know, but it's for the best. Especially for Karin. It would be terrible for her to have someone other then me or Alexander tell her without permission. She would be heartbroken. She might even get angery... Just the thought of Karin angery because of me made my stomach tighten and goosebumps rise in fear.
    I had never gone over to Alexanders house and had made sure that I was always a safe distance away from him for the past few days. It was now Friday and Karin would be coming over tommorow. I drew in a deep breath and decided it. I was going to tell her. I would tell her flat out. I had an affair I knew we should break up because of this. It was for the best. She would be able to find someone else that was better then me and she would be happier. Maybe someone at her school would become her knew boyfriend, that way they wouldn't have to make meet up dates everyweekend so they can spend just a few hours a week together. They could talk everyday if they wanted to.
    It made me happy to think that she would be happy, but sad she would be happy with someone other than me.
    But... She would be happy. So it's better this way. Right?
    I opened my dorm and sighed, throwing my things down on the floor and closing the door.
    What if she goes on a rampage and kills me? I think feeling a shiver go down my spine.
    What am I thinking? This is Karin we're talking about. She would never do anything to hurt someone. She's too kind hearted. Yeah... That's it...
    I swallowed and leaned back against the door. "I'm so screwed..." I say outloud.

    That night, after studying and talking on the phone with my mom for an hour, I began to get ready for bed. I know it was early, but I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. Okay?
    I was about to head into the bed room when I heard someone knocking on my door. "Eh?" I say walking to the door. "Who is it?"
    "It's me." Said Alexander.
    My insides tightened and I wanted to curl into a call and pretend I didn't hear him. "Oh... What is it?" I ask without even opening the door.
    He sighed. "Just to talk... Can I come in?" He asks sounding ashamed of something.
    "You aren't going to pull any stunts are you? I can't have that anymore. Karin is coming over tommorow and I've decided to confess to her about us." I say opening the door.
    He smiled. "Of course not. And... You are? Why?" He asks tilting his head as he stepped into the room.
    I swallowed. "Because I feel sick everytime I look at her and I feel horrible for doing this to her... A good fiance` never forgets about his bride to be like I did. I can't believe it when I tell myself it was an easy mistake to make."
    Alexander nodded and walked into the living room, looking down at the bag I had from the Market we went to a while ago. "It was really stupid of you to do that... But I'm glade you did." He smiled picking up the bag.
    I jumped. "Oi! Don't rub it in! I already feel really bad about it..." I say looking down at the floor.
    He took out the small picture of the animal the reminded me off him and squinted his eyes at it. "I'm sorry." He looked at me. "I didn't mean to offend." He put the bag and the picture down on the table again. "So... Does this mean you two are going to break up?" He says seeming to cheer up.
    I glared at him. "Yes. It's for what's best."
    He tried to hide a smile, but it failed. "So... What does that mean for me and you?"
    I put my hands on my waist. "Nothing. I'm probably changing schools." I say feeling my stomach tighten.
    He gasped. "You are?"
    I nodded. "Yes."
    He looked down at the floor. "But... Then... What am I going to do? Will we keep in touch?"
    I shrugged. "I don't know... We can try... But I don't think it'll work so well." I say easily, like this wasn't actually crushing us both.
    He covered his mouth. "Oh... So... We won't can't be together either... In the end I'm losing to Karin..."
    I looked at him. "No your not. Your losing to me. You both are losing actually, it's my fault. So be mad at me."
    He shook his head. "I won't get mad at you, Mirumi. I don't think I'll ever be able to get mad at you."
    I sighed. "But you should."
    "Why?"
    "Because that way I won't feel as bad when I leave. It'll be easier to break things off."
    He nodded. "That's true... But I still don't think I can get mad at you for something like that..."
    I smirked. "You are way to patient with me, Alexander. Do you ever get angery?"
    "Not with you." He said smirking.
    I shook my head and smiled. "You are such an idiot."
    He chuckled. "But you love me for it."
    I blushed and looked away from him. "Do not."
    "Do too."
    "Do not."
    "Then why is your face red, hm?"
    I jumped and glared at him. "That's not important. I'm leaving and that's that." I hiss.
    He nodded, smiling still. "I know. And I will still love you, Mirumi. Not you or Karin will change that. Nothing will keep me from seeing you either. I'll shoot a man down to see you."
    I rolled my eyes. "Be quiet. No one would do that for anyone, idiot."
    He chuckled. "No one, but me. I would do anything for you, Mirumi."
    "That's cheesy." I growl.
    "And?"
    I looked away from him, feeling beaten.
    He laughed. "Come on, Mirumi. Lighten up. Have fun with your last remaining time here with me. I don't want to have our last days filled with boring and anger filled times." He pleaded.
    I sighed. "Fine, fine. What do you want to do? Watch a movie again?" I say cocking an eyebrow.
    His face tinted a light pink and he nodded. "Yeah. That sounds awesome."

    I put in the American classic 'The green mile' and began watching it with Alexander. I sat down on the opposite end of the couch, far away from him. Just in case he tried something that would complicant my leaving.
    The movie was a quarter way in and already really interesting.
    Alexander glanced at me and his face went red.
    I looked at him. "What?"
    He jumped. "Huh?"
    "What did you look at me for?" I ask narrowing my eyes.
    He blushed deeper. "I was just... Think about how much I was going to miss you and how much I wanted you to stay."
    I glared at him. "You lie."
    He shook his head. "Do not."
    "Do too."
    He swallowed and looked at the floor. "Fine. I was thinking about how badly I wanted to hear you say my name like you do when we're in bed. It makes me feel like you could never live without me." He says honostly.
    I smirked. "Really? That's all?"
    He shot a shocked look. "What do you mean, that's all!? I liked thinking I had a purpose for being with you."
    I chuckled. "Okay, okay. I get it. It's an important thing to you. I can understand that. You don't have to get testy."
    He blushed again. "Sorry..."
    I nodded. "It's okay."
    He sighed and looked at the television screen. "I was thinking that... Maybe... We could... just once more?"
    I blushed. "Eh?"
    He swallowed. "I thought we could fool around just once more before you had to go?"
    I shook my head, though feeling tempted. "I... I'm sorry, Alexander... I can't..."
    He nodded and looked at the floor. "I understand... It's okay."
    I sighed. "Please don't get all teary eyed and emotional again... I don't want to feel even more worse then I already do for all this."
    He shook his head. "Don't worry, Mirumi. I won't let you see me cry anymore, I promise." He said.
    I nodded. "Thank you, Alexander."
    He nodded. "Of course."
    "So... Why did you come over here in first place?" I ask looking at the screen.
    "Oh... I just wanted to speak to you. Since you had been avoiding me, I thought I would just come after you instead of waiting for you to have an odd lustful moment again." He smiled.
    I blushed. "Oh... Makes sense."
    "Did you miss me at all while you were avoiding me?" He asks blushing.
    I chuckled. "Of course I did." I blurt.
    He smirked. "I see. Well, why didn't you just give up and come after me then?"
    "Because I couldn't do that to Karin again." I confess.
    He nodded. "Oh. It has to do with Karin again, eh?"
    I smirked. "Yep."
    He sighed. "I still won't lose to her, Mirumi. I'll keep persuing even after you leave." He swore with determination in his eyes.
    Oh s***...