• CHAPTER 157 – HEAT

    What do you do when you have that blind moment of lust? It’s the worst time possible, but wouldn’t it be worth it?

    “Kai, I’m taking a shower,” I announced to him as I picked out my clothes from the dresser.

    Kai leaned back on the headboard of the bed, “Okay,” he mumbled.

    After standing in silence for a couple of moments, I pursed my lips and went into the bathroom without another word. Things had gotten awkward and silent between Kai and me since he confirmed the contract was taking over just a few days ago. The atmosphere was so…fragile. Was he afraid he would kill me with the smallest touch? Maybe he was afraid of hurting me again, as he did when he suffocated me? Or maybe he thought that, if he were to be near me, he would have the uncontrollable urge to take me to Minoru and Kaiba?

    Sighing, I locked the bathroom door and started the shower while undressing myself. Every passing second was making my heart wrench even more. I missed how things used to be with Kai and me. We used to think we were invincible and inseparable and look at us; we could hardly speak to each other. Maybe it was a phase that would pass by until the contract finally did its business.

    As I was in the shower, rinsing the shampoo out of my hair, I heard a poof in the room and I looked through the frosted glass of the shower door to see Kai standing nearby, “What are you doing?”

    “I’m putting your clothes in the laundry,” Kai responded, barely audible over the water.

    After lingering around for a little while, I noticed Kai’s silhouette approaching the shower door. I had expected him to make light conversation from behind the door; what I hadn’t expected was to slide open the door a little and poke his head inside timidly. I immediately turned from him, red with embarrassment. As I was about to yell at him, I took time to observe his complexion; he almost looked like he was in pain—emotional pain.

    “May I join you?” he asked politely, though he was already undressed—from what I could see.

    I stopped myself from blurting out an immediate “no” and thought to myself. Kai wasn’t trying to be perverted or funny; he was being serious. He wanted to spend as much time with me as possible. I nodded my head timidly, “Y-yes…”

    I turned away for a moment to let out all of my embarrassment. Kai and I had never faced each other naked before; that was a huge leap. That figured that Kai and I hardly communicate with each other until I’m in the shower. Soon enough, I was distracted by the feeling of Kai’s broad, bare arms wrapping around me from behind, and he held me tightly, pressing his body against mine. His face pressed against my neck and I blushed even more, closing my eyes.

    “I apologize if I’ve seemed bitter lately,” Kai mumbled. “I had expected this day to come, but it still constrains me greatly.”

    “I’m sorry…” was all I could say. There was nothing I could say or do that would take back the physical, emotional and mental pain Kai was suffering through.

    Kai turned me around and stared at me with his deep brown eyes, “You did nothing wrong. You did nothing to deserve this.”

    “Neither did you,” I started to cry a little, hoping the water from the shower would conceal my tears.

    We stared at each others eyes for another moment before we leaned in to plaster a kiss onto each others lips. The grief was knotting up my heart and flipping my stomach; I had never felt so stressed in so long. I was so distracted by my stressful thoughts that I didn’t even notice Kai’s curious hands roaming all over me.

    “I love you, Arisa,” Kai pressed his forehead against mine as his hands moved to my hips.

    “I love you too,” I responded with a squeak. I was pretty sure where everything was headed; I merely needed time to prepare myself.

    We kissed again and leaned against one of the shower walls, slightly out of the shower water. I locked my arms around Kai’s neck and he wrapped my right leg around his hips. My face was continuously a shade of red and my heart never slowed down. Kai kissed my neck and my clavicle and wrapped his arms around my waist. For another twenty dragging minutes, Kai’s lips never left my skin and I never released my grip.

    “Please don’t let me go…” I pleaded in a whisper. “Don’t let them kill me…”

    In a moment, Kai lifted me by my hips and I locked my arms and legs around him. He turned off the shower water and kissed me again. My eyes squeezed shut as soon as I could feel us teleporting. Rather than the butterflies of excitement I would feel from teleporting, I started to feel nauseous with fear and worry instead.

    Once the feeling ended, I opened my eyes to see us lying on the bed of our bedroom. The large, commodious bed that would cradle us for the rest of the night. We were still dripping wet from the water, and I would surely get sick, but I couldn’t have cared less; I was in no more business to hold back any longer. I knew I had been craving it for a long time, but I never fully admitted it to myself. I promised myself to wait until marriage but with how the contract was treating Kai, it wouldn’t be possible.

    For a long time, Kai’s hands and lips never left my skin. He kissed nearly every inch of me and hit some pressure points on my muscles with his hands, which caused me to giggle every now and then. Kai was doing all of the work; I had no clue what to do during foreplay so I limited myself. But whatever Kai was doing, it was amazing…and just the beginning. In a way, I felt scared; I didn’t know what to expect. Kai knew sex was one of my greatest fears, but maybe I would overcome it that night.

    “Arisa…” Kai mumbled to me, slightly opening his eyes, “don’t do this because you feel obligated.”

    I shook my head, “If I felt like I was being forced, I’d have chickened out as usual,” I locked one arm around Kai’s shoulders and laced my other hand in Kai’s hair. I pressed my wet lips against his ear and whispered. “Make love to me…”

    As soon as I said that, I felt a pain and I leaned my head back and groaned. Kai held me even closer, contouring my body on his. I could feel chills and goosebumps all over me; I couldn’t tell if it was from the drying water on my skin or the closeness of our bodies. I was in pain but I would make the best of it. My abstinence promise was thrown out the window and I would never take it back. I was no longer a virgin.

    “Kai, it hurts…” I groaned. “It hurts…it hurts, ow!”

    Kai stopped and kissed my forehead, unable to determine if it was wet from sweat or shower water, “You need to relax, Arisa,” he kissed my cheek. “It will hurt more if you don’t.”

    “How can I relax?” I gasped with a small smile. “Taking such a leap…that’s impossible.”

    Kai stared at me for a moment, kissed me, and continued, keeping his lips plastered to mine. His body was even colder than usual; not only because of the water, not because he was a Vampire, but because he hardly fed since we found out the contract was starting up a few days ago. Kai’s lips pressed against my neck and nibbled the skin. I squirmed around a little bit, tickled, and moaned Kai’s name. I had no clue how amazing he was; his kissing was phenomenal enough, but this was something new.

    “Arisa…” Kai whispered, tangling my hair in the fingers of his left hand and harshly pressing his lips against my neck.

    I didn’t even have time to blink before Kai’s fangs plunged into my flesh. Groaning, I tightened my arms and legs around Kai as his arms tightened around me. Heavy…his drinking was so heavy and desperate. I couldn’t have cared less if Kai would suck me dry; I would allow him to do whatever he wanted to me. If he wanted to make love to me for the next three days, I would gladly allow him to do so.

    Kai continued to drink and he flipped us over, still bidding on my blood. I gripped onto the wet pillow that Kai’s head was lying on and I gritted my teeth together. He was gradually biting harder, feeling as though he would rip out a chunk of my skin. Kai must have heard my thoughts because he stopped drinking my blood, pulling his fangs out of my neck.

    “Are you doing okay?” Kai asked me, cupping my face with his hands.

    The only reason he asked that was because I was panting desperately, but I merely nodded my head, “Yes, I’m fine…”

    “I’m not trying to hurt you,” he whispered. “I’m trying to stay sane.”

    “I know,” I smiled lightly, still out of breath. Kai was about to say something else but I pressed my index finger against his lips. “Enough talking.”

    Kai’s hands made their way down to my waist and we continued to tangle ourselves. My body was on the verge of giving out on me; how long had we been going on? My fingers tangled in his hair once more and it was difficult to kiss him with my asperous breathing. He wasn’t out of breath in the least bit, but he looked as though he were in a little bit of pain from the contract. How much was it trying to take over him?

    “It still hurts, Kai…” I gasped. “But…I don’t want to stop…”

    I moaned again and pressed my forehead against Kai’s torso. He kissed my head, released his hands from my arms, and wrapped his arms around my waist again. By that time, the water from the shower had dried off of our bodies but I was wet with sweat instead. I moaned his name, closed my eyes, and relaxed, lying limp on his body. I peeked over at the clock and nearly freaked out after seeing how long we went; nearly two-and-a-half hours, not including foreplay. I was exhausted; I wasn’t entirely sore everywhere, but I knew it would catch up with me in the morning.

    I squeezed my eyes a little tighter and I could feel a few tears trailing down my face. Kai wiped them up with his index finger and he embraced me a little tighter, “What’s wrong?”

    “It’s starting to hurt more,” I squeaked. I looked up at him, still out of breath. “But I don’t…regret it…”

    “If it hurt you, we shouldn’t have done so,” Kai’s face fell. “How much do you hurt?”

    “I’m fine,” I locked my arms around his neck and embraced him and started to cry a little more. “You proved I have nothing to be afraid of when it comes to the final stage.”

    Kai kissed my ear, “I won’t leave you,”

    “Ever,” I started to calm down but my voice was still shaky. “Don’t let anyone or anything separate us.”

    “I would be willing to endure the pain if it meant your mortality,” Kai mumbled, moving his hands to my hips and kissing my nose.

    I sobbed a little bit, "I wish the contract was just a dream...I wish it was all...a lie..."

    I hadn't noticed myself drifting into unconsciousness but I forced myself to stay awake for Kai's sake. My body was sore, but everything else about me felt amazing. I had never imagined how amazing it would feel mentally when it came to the next stage. Kai and I were now lovers and we wouldn't allow anything to separate us in the future.

    Even if I were to die tomorrow.