• as i was siting there helplesly i watched as all my friends and family leave my life i had no choice but to keep it to my self that i was hurt badly and my friends started to die or just ignored me my family died and so did my best friend i was sad for half my life but then i noticed my dad died from cancer and my mother moved in with another man she survived i wanted to know why this was happening but it was happening to fast for me to see what was really happening but now i know why my father died and im glad he died he was to much of a drug adict i dont want to end up like him so i want to find new friends but i cant find any one no one likes me because what happend in the past i want to stay alive but i cant find any way to syoping me from killing my self i dont want to but its to harsh in my life and i want it to stop before it goes any further i want some one to help me i dont care who i just want this to stop plz help me any one