• My heart is filled with a thousand aches and pains, I walk through the world unnoticed, almost invisible, cradled by death. Life is hard, with death being the very essence of my soul, everyday a piece of me is torn apart and carelessly thrown away. All I know, is the constant struggle I feel as each undying wave of emotional distress pounds against my chest. The waves are merciless, just like the heavy weights that pull me down to this unforgiving planet, the rain floods my insides and drowns out all sense of life and feeling, it turns red with blood, just like my tears. I feel as if I am being dragged down to the bottom the deepest ocean, my eyes begin to close as the air slowly empties from my lungs, my body feels heavy and I grow weaker. With each passing day, the weight of the world drains me, no one pays attention and I slowly drift out of existence, I’ve been denied many chances to mend my ways. The road to my revival is long and broken, my flesh is torn and deeply scarred, healing is slow and painful. Everything I aspire to be is lost in a bottomless pit of depression, pushed into solitude, I shied away from humanity.

    Dormant and lost in darkness for several years, I hid and lost myself. The door to who I once was closed forever, a new world opened to me, it was a world of anger, hate, and sorrow. No matter how hard I tried, comfort could not be found in this new world I had created, surrounded by an endless sea of corpses and tears, it seemed that I had lost all sanity, the child I once was driven from my body and replaced by a demon. I suffered and went completely mad, everywhere I turned I found another wall until I was trapped inside a small box that grew smaller and smaller, crushing my bones to dust. Locked inside my head, I try to find the answer to my existence, I look for some clue to tell me why I’ve become such a monster. No answer was ever found, I chased after old memories and my wounds began to heal more rapidly. A new door opened for me, I found myself again, only I had changed. I grew, but at times I still fell, with few people to guide me I learned by guessing. Multiple paths opened up for me, almost too many, As I wander through each path, I learn more about myself. I search aimlessly to find my center. This world is new and exciting, but also very frightening. After three years, I feel I may of found my center. I made a new friend, this friend has become the new sun in my life. I don’t think they know how important they are to me. We’ve just met, but I have a feeling that there is a reason why I feel so strongly for them. It’s been so long since I have felt truly happy, I have smiled and laughed, but I retained a heavy weight on my chest. That weight was lifted after I came to know this person. They have no idea, but right now they are the heart of my world.