• I stare outside and wonder,
    "Is there a place in this ******** world for me?"
    I sit here alone in my room with a blade,
    I have friends that don't even know me.
    I sit on public toilets,
    Writing things like this.
    I am in an eternity of loneliness and depression.

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "Why do people hate me?"
    I cry myself to sleep,
    But I can't get away from their crude remarks.
    I am on the verge of hanging myself.
    I am in an eternity of HELL!!!

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "Does anyone really love me?"
    I have bruises under my make-up,
    And cuts under my jewelry of when I've tried to get away.
    I have attempted suicide many times,
    But as you see, I have always failed.
    I am in an eternity of pain and suffering.

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "What does love really mean?"
    I have been kissed,
    I have been hugged.
    I've had people tell me that they 'love' me,
    Then turn around and crush me like a bug.
    I am in an eternity of misunderstanding and confusion.

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "Does love even exist?"
    What is love, really?
    Nobody will ever know,
    The meaning changed with every generation it seems.
    I am in an eternity of things unknown.

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "Why can't I get away?"
    I've attempted suicide,
    I've been alone.
    I can't seem to get away,
    Though I've tried over and over again.
    I am in an eternity of a ******** shity life.

    I stare outside and wonder,
    "What am I supposed to do now?"
    I've cut my wrists and been alone,
    I've been laughed at and ignored.
    I've seen the looks on people's faces,
    It shows disgust and I hate it.
    I am in an eternity of hatred and negativity.

    I stare outside and plan my escape,
    My escape from all the loneliness, hatred, hurt, s**t, and confusion.
    Maybe I'll run away into the fire from Hell,
    Maybe I'll run away into the seas from above.
    But either way, people should say good bye,
    Because today is the last day that I will be alive.
    I am no longer in an eternity of…