• You wanted my story so this is what you’ll get
    I’ll tell you what’s on my mind, my dirty little secret.
    I’ll let you know what My story is because there’s nothing left to do.
    The fact of the matter is I fell so deeply in love with you.

    I fell for you hard, faster than I ever thought I could
    I tried my normal routine but you didn’t react like I thought you would
    No matter what you were always there
    Smiling happily letting me know that you care

    And before I knew it I was flying high
    Reaching up and setting in part of the sky
    I never had ever seen before
    And no matter what I did I found myself wanting more

    I held myself back and told myself “no”
    Because I knew I could hurt someone, I knew how it would all go.
    I didn’t want to cause anyone pain
    So I sat back, sat on the sidelines of the game

    But after a while I got sick of watching and wanted to play
    I decided whatever happened, come what may
    I love you with everything I am and I couldn’t make it go away
    I decided that no matter what some how I would find the right words to say

    I always struggled with what to do
    And even now I struggle with what is true
    I’m jumping off the deep end, drowning in my own tears
    Because I never felt like this in all of my years

    My tears are of both fear and joy
    Because I know I’ve been fighting for you, boy
    And I didn’t want to hurt anyone but it’s already done
    I didn’t mind my tongue and I loaded the gun

    I pretty much shot myself in the foot
    Because I, for once didn’t play by the book
    And now I fear I’ve sunk my ship because I didn’t hold myself back
    I fear I’ve hurt someone I love because at the time it was control I lacked.

    I’m sorry I never spoke up but I couldn’t find the voice to speak
    Every time I found my voice I always found myself turning meek
    As soon as she walked in the room, my voice disappeared and I sat down
    I sat down on my little bench to watch the game wearing a fake smile instead of a frown

    So basically what I’m saying is I love you
    I’m sorry there is nothing I could do
    I told myself “No” and didn’t ask why
    I told my own heart to forget the feelings and lie

    But no matter what it’s not going away
    I don’t what else to tell you, I don’t know what to say.
    I’m sorry you don’t have to do anything
    You wanted my story, so this is what you’re getting.