• At one time I saw the beauty in the stars
    Sliding through their orbits far away.
    But the whorls of time leave only scars,
    Pleasure stripped of form that would not stay,
    Hope departing on the wind like sand—
    Never could another understand.

    At one time I knew the peace of solitude,
    Never fearing friends nor love to blight.
    Now I watch, but I cannot intrude—
    Touching briefly, fading into night.
    Watching self decay, I can but wait,
    Seeing what I could have been too late.

    All I lost will not return again
    So I wrap the tatters ’round my heart;
    Nothing in the world can dull my pain.
    Begging from myself to be apart,
    Walking down a road that has no end,
    I have no one I can call my friend.

    Once more rallying the last of all my will,
    Still I keep my head above the waves;
    Dregs of hope that time has yet to kill
    Hold at bay the darkness my soul craves.
    Even now denied the right to die,
    Never knowing what it means to cry.

    Copyright: AEB 2004
    Fushigi @ Darkpoetry.com