• Its not a pain, but a pusle.
    That starts at my heart.
    I dont like the feeling as it flows
    But I miss it when its gone
    It never lets me down
    Or lie to me
    But never before has it tortured me so badly.
    Not even with him
    But with you.. they wont leave me alone.
    I dont like feeling like this...
    Dont get me wrong I love you
    But I need to love him...
    I gave him the biggest promise of my life
    And I dont want to hurt him... ever
    But you understand me so well that Im scared...
    That if I let you in.. I wont be able to get you out.
    I hate this!!!
    Why cant I understand?
    You dont love me and he does.
    Why cant I just get you out of my head?
    Why cant my heart just lie to me for once?
    But more importantly... Why does my heart still weaver?