• Pain flowing through me

    Always on my mind

    I’m aching all over

    Why is this so normal?

    My breath is feeling short

    The feelings closing in

    I’ve held them back for so long

    When will this end?

    I can’t believe I’m lost

    Feels like I’m floating

    I can see and hear all around me

    What is this?

    I am not really feeling anything

    My body’s numb

    I’m losing my senses

    Where am I?

    I question my sanity

    I am so lonely

    I look in the mirror at the unfamiliar face

    Who am I really?

    I’m back and the weirdness is fading away

    My barrier returning to protect me from myself

    The emotions once again retreating but I’m crying

    How is this happening?

    I feel back to normal

    The aching gone

    Yet my heart is frantically beating as though asking my last question

    Is this the last time this will happen and if not will I be able to handle it next time?

    But that time is the future, this is the past and I will push on and forget

    And until next time I bid you ado.