• how many times can someone keep on with all this sin and trouble? when i see it i just feel like i will fall and crumble. and why the hell am i so cold, my heart inside is constantly hating...i dont believe much im told, and if i ever wanted to listen its like im taking. now if i cut myself i just bleed to long, and when it starts...this feeling is gone. sometimes one thing i think about never fails to make me cry, and it has so much to do with me in school going to make them die...but before i could i had to do my time...girls i love and friends i still like...they were the only ones i will not strike. first i started to be so kind...then i did my time...i feel this anger and hate changing me. i never wanted to believe this, but because they do, they just do stuff that gets me pissed!...it has nothing to do with education,people or life, i just had to do my time...life does not suck, its just fine, im out of luck, but i'll just do more time. everyone thinks i need help because i want spoc to bleed and crawl, i was never close and i dont need anything at all...its just mine and satans fault, and that just makes me so mad i could just break through a brick wall. but people make me feel like i dont have a single bone, and for real they actually hurt me, i just need "my time" alone.you think im crazy? well if you try drugs to calm me...maybe this wont be a dream.....or a fantasy.......Y K ?

    08/02/07 1AM-2AM thursday