• I couldn't ignore the pain any longer
    Life was just too much
    I never saw my life in future times
    Or happiness and love and such

    I'd been to the edge with the intent to jump
    And had become happy with thoughts of no pain
    Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse
    I had nothing left to gain

    The sun failed to shine
    In my world overcast
    Birds no longer sang
    And the first had become the last

    All things good and whole
    Had turned and went their way
    They will never return to me
    So I felt I should just go away

    Consumption by hate, to save was too late
    Where should I turn now?
    Why do I get kicked when I'm down?
    When could I be happy? Or even better, how?

    Fallen and fatal
    I will return to the dirt
    Bittersweet battle within
    No longer would I hurt

    Smiles soon faded
    And hearts followed to break
    As I cried for help
    I cried in Heaven's sake

    Routinely I cried
    For a hand to reach me
    I look blankly at emptiness' stare
    And closed my eyes reluctantly

    But I felt one more fight, a chance in me
    To save myself from isolation
    Piercing my lies were words of deception
    And the end to my frustration

    As time's hands moved on and on
    Together, as one, we grew
    Now solitary routine you seek
    You never saw that I always knew

    Tired of times we spend together
    Tired of me you grow
    Tired of being tired in time
    No feelings will I show

    But in time as your thoughts are even
    Will I be thought only as your pawn?
    And will you be happy or sad
    When I'm finally gone?