• You never knew, you never saw...
    The lies told so secretly.
    The truth in my heart, so thrown away...
    How could you be so blind to the heart’s distress?
    Were my eyes so glazed over?
    Had I done some greater evil?

    I know it must have killed you being with me,
    staying by my side for so long.
    Now I sit down every night wishing you away.
    I talk myself away, and cast you away in turn.
    It never really was, and truly never will be;
    Now will it?

    You see a brick wall, and ask to come to such a wasteland,
    when such a brick wall was meant to be torn down.
    I had never before asked, never before had reason enough.
    My land was something so isolated that I come to recognize it as home, and had become something well-adapted to.

    Now, child.
    Words can be placed, and replaced.
    Actions cannot be replaced from whence they were placed.
    As were ours.
    And so they are.
    Our time together–bitter sweet.
    Our words–cold as ice.
    Remove me from the equation of friendship–
    All the bitterness and winter wind gone to hide.
    It gives rise to a new light, a new warmth.

    All my forgiving has been lost, all my memory has turned sour.
    Life is just too long to keep you and I as it was in our past.
    We’ve grown too wary, and far too leery.
    We’ve drifted so far apart.
    I cannot come close to recognizing nor tolerating that once caged heart.

    I never knew it could all have been my fault.
    Now, I just glower at my own reflection in complete misgiving, and contempt.
    I know I must have killed that bird from where it sat in it’s cage with the cold compassion, and attempt of such.

    Now, I sit sullen in a corner resting my corpse like a rag doll with eyes deepening in shade, and becoming far emptier.
    My mouth sewn tightly with black thread, and silver needle.
    ‘Just cast me out, just shut me away,’ I cry in my mind,
    ‘No more, no more do I want you to come around,’ I cry some more,
    ‘My heart will only hurt you more, set free your wings, climb into tomorrow.’ My face soaked with tears, I cry out.

    Our hearts can never again meet,
    All of which has ever been done is pain of the worst.
    All that can ever be said on due part to this heart is good-bye, and farewell.
    I was far too weak and not sound enough to hold you up, and now I must cast myself away.
    Please, don’t allow me to bring more harm where there need be less!
    Love was never here, love was never here.
    You never knew, you never saw.

    Chained to life, only to rot;
    I walk with an empty glare.
    Pale skin, shadows encircling the dreary eyes.
    I try so hard to be the person beyond the facade.
    And you try to convince otherwise.
    You always said that there must have been something wrong.
    You had convinced yourself of what you had said.
    You never knew, you never saw.

    It had been so clear,
    I had tried so hard to convince myself.
    I tried to tell myself:
    I wasn’t hurting,
    I didn’t need help,
    I was just fine.
    I tried so hard to convince myself.
    You never knew, you never saw.

    I wish you had in those days spent in the shadows of the willow tree.
    The day that I walked away with the broken wings, and the sunken eyes.
    You never knew, and you never saw.
    If only I had never said those words.
    I would never feel such a heart full of regret.
    You never knew, and you never saw.

    We only hurt each other when we were together.
    Now, I’m at an indecision, my fork in the road.
    All I want is for your smile to show through.
    You never knew, and you never saw!