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• Artist: tampico-chan
• Description: {Mommy RIP 5/8/09}
  
  Now that i have been suddenly orphaned, you realize just how much the rest of the world just doesn't give a s**t.
• Date: 05/09/2009
• Tags: untitled suicide mother deppressed

Mom, I hate you. You ******** lied.
I can't believe you actually died.
You weren't allowed, we both agreed,
Neither of us were ******** allowed to leave.
You needed to stay to help with my brother.
And I need you. We needed each other.
I'm so horrible you would rather die
I took everything away so you wouldn't try?
You told me I'm your blood, you would choose me over him,
Yet, in the end, I still couldn't win.
You chose me over him and death over me.
You were so ******** blind as not to see,
How much I yearned for you to care,
How dead I was because you couldn't bear
To be my mom just once in awhile
Tell me you love me and maybe even smile.
I hate your guts and want your hug,
I want in your lap and want to be snug,
I want to hit you and scream "What were you thinking!"
But I can't. And I'm eternally sinking.
I hate you. I love you. I wish you would die.
The irony in this makes me smile and cry.
It was him who actually told me you were dead
I fell to the road and grabbed my head
I screamed "No" loud and long,
In the moment I was no amount of strong.
I must've been a sight for my best friend to view
But I didn't care, I wanted you.
It's almost been 48 hours now
I've made it so far- no clue how.
I wrote because I have something to say,
Happy ******** Mother's Day.

Comments

[PetitEspoir]

it really good, 5/5. Comment on my new one?
type in petitespoir in the box and then click on the one called "damn you" x

[SweetSourLady]

oh- this is really sad and really good at the same time. im sry that u r an orphan now and well i dont no what else to say. but this really explains a lot of things clearly.

[LadyIronside]

Amazing. I cried reading this sad

[maraquia]

That is so sad! cry


Not everyone doesn't care, some ppl do.
I know the pain you must have gone through. Family is family, you can hate them of love them- but you never want them gone. cry

I have never went through things like this but I know ppl who have.


5/5