• Dear Travis,

    It's almost summer time and I really can't wait. I'm wondering how much has changed. Im wondering if you still remember me. I can promise you I'm not the same girl who lied about her feelings one year ago. I can promise you I'm so much better. I'm just hoping you feel the same. I swear you don't understand how much you mean to me. Just thinking about the worse possible outcome of me telling you how I feel. It tears my chest apart until I cant breathe. I know I must sound completely insane for having these feelings for you. But I can't help it. I've hurt many people, including myself, just to go a couple nights without dreaming of you. I miss your body next to mine. The cool summers night looking at the stars. You sitting next to me keeping my body warm. My heart beating out of my chest everytime you look at me. Eyes of blue. My memory is slacking. I can remember the times but I can't recall your face, except your blue eyes. Did I mention my favorite colour is blue? As I'm writing this you could be with another girl. But I guess it's best to tell you how I truely feel. Travis, the last day we saw eachother, I didn't completely lie when I told you I didn't like you like that. You see, when you told me you liked Emily, I only wanted the best for you. At the moment I was confused about my feelings. You were an awsome friend and I was confused wether or not I liked you more. At the moment, the moment when you asked me that question. I had to think. Do I really want to destroy our friendship? Do I really want to make things hard on you? I didn't. So I simply said I only liked you as a friend. So when you left I thought did I make a mistake? But I shrugged it off and thought I'll get over it. But I come to realize it's not that simple. If I didn't love you, you would be in the back of my mind. I wouldn't have had to take those pills just to get some sleep. I wouldn't have had to break their hearts just to distract me from you. Do you see what you're doing to me? Is this worth it? Are my hopes to high? See, what if I tell you how I truely feel and you just walk away. The nightmare that was played through my dreams too often. Please, just give me a second chance. A second chance just to say "No Travis I don't like you. I love you."