• lol its true...i cant be selfish..i know that i could never be ..like everybody else ..i will problay never be happy..so why would i want to share that with someone ?......for lack of a better word i m cursed..to be numb to all the things you love and hate.....and for some reason i fell so at home on everybody's bad side...i fell awkward now everybody likes me .......i loved my seclusion .....i loved the hate....it was the only thing in my life that i was sure was real and wouldn't leave me..how said ..i cling to that emotion cause im scared of the true fact..that i dont want to be alone but theres nobody like me....i am ........................different ...and i love it only cause you hate it