• I really wish this would never happen. How could I be this stupid.
    The blind fold was tight around my head, and it was wet from the tears I had been crying. The gag ball made me drool and I couldn’t move my hands, the hand cuffs held them stuck over my head.
    I hated when he got like this, so abusive and harsh. I loved his sweet and romantic side, when we could sit and just snuggle and be happy.
    But again he loved to play around with me, using me like a toy. A toy that have no feelings.
    I try screaming as loud I can, but it doesn’t work. It just makes it more pain full. I try to not make a sound but the moans keep escaping my mouth. It feels so good but it hurts! Oh god it hurts!
    By the next day he’s all fine again, treating me like I’m gonna break any second. He comes with breakfast to me and kisses my cheek now and then.
    I t makes me cry, he asks me what’s wrong but I just can’t tell him. He know’s well what’s wrong.
    It’s been a year now. A year since I ran away. I changed my phone number and name.
    I tought I would be happy, but I just feel so empty inside.
    I miss him…
    I miss him so badly…
    So badly it hurts…

    As I look out of the window form the little cafè I’m sitting in. I spott a well known face. My heart starts beating and I feel dizzy. He’s looking at me. Oh my god! He’s looking straight at me.
    My eyes are wide and I look away, I know he’s entering the cafè, I know he’s sitting down by the table.
    I feel his hands on my and tears start rolling down my cheek. I’m crying both from pain and joy.
    I know he’s gonna play around with my feelings. He’s gonna tell he loves me and then play around with me like a doll again.