• How life changes.
    A never ending cycle, different times and different feelings.
    Life can be wonderful it can also be a confusing painful place.
    The good and the bad things never last forever.
    Heartbreaks and tattered souls seem to repeat.
    The feeling of love brings comfort and pain.
    It can feel as if the damned are ripping your heart to pieces.
    I am there with the tattered souls wandering about in search to be healed.
    The damned pulling my heart in different directions.
    I can feel as my heart tares to pieces.
    What am I supposed to do in a situation so confusing? Why can't i figure this out?
    What is is in life I am meant to do?
    I am stuck and looking for answers and relief.
    I doubt they will ever come.
    My heavy tattered heart aches for repair.
    What do I do next?
    All I really can do is watch and wait.
    Watch as everything falls apart, and wait for things to heal.
    How I wish life could always be good that way I would never have this heavy heart.
    How I crave the love I once had, the warmth of touch, the passion of the kiss.
    How did that fade?
    What happened to that?
    Now I wander with the lost souls with little comfort.
    This loneliness is slowly killing me.
    The thoughts of death the craving for more pain.
    Puts me in a dark place.
    The pain is released with every slice of the knife with every burn of a cigarette.
    It was like healing pain with pain, and yet I stop promising someone I would.
    Knowing they care helps, but the pain grows.
    If I can't release my sorrows with a slice of my skin. What can I do?
    I wish I could figure all of this out.
    I'm scared one day I will just give up and never wake up.