• You guess being sweet and nice isn't working any more
    The relationships you build are vain
    To be ran over, and stepped on is insane
    when you are left hurt and broken
    all they can say is "you're so easy, dumb, we were just playing games"
    Never thought it would come to this

    Once you are gone they say
    " how did we let it get this way"
    you told them almost every day
    in the end they let it roll off and say "i was your fault any way"
    never thought it would come to this

    Temptation stares at you in the eye
    though you didn't consider, you're wrong
    how?
    never thought it would come to this

    they say you have an attitude
    you cant get irritated angry, or annoyed
    it would ruin your testimony
    you can show no expression or emotion
    till one day tears flow like an explosion
    you stop, you think, and you say
    " never thought it would come to this"

    to be the only one still half standing
    dragging but holding strong making it
    they tell you they really don't know if you're in this thing
    what more do you need to do, die and bring Jesus down from heaven and have him tell them
    never thought it would come to this

    Your lost
    you're not discipled
    if you are its form a long distance
    you have some what a direction, but not sure if that's the plan that God has for you
    Never thought it would come to this

    they say their not impressed one bit by you, Cause they think they know who you are
    how dare they say that when they have never been a young person trying to live for God
    the answer is to build a relationship and disciple
    they judge you cause of how your family turned out
    they treat you weird cause you are the only one
    no one is there to defend you, help you get back up or disciple you
    they talk about you and then tell you to your face to justify their sin of gossiping
    the others wanted to start a new life because they were so hurt by them
    you're here.. alone
    for yourself, by yourself
    Never thought it would come to this

    You realized you have failed the leaders
    you have failed the youth
    you stubbornness, ignorance, arrogance have blinded you from the truth
    never thought it would have came to this

    you find your self going on sabbaticals from childish lies
    you don't really want to be close to any one cause they will hurt you
    what happened to the friend .. you were their for through it all
    Thicker than water, blood was to thin
    they left cause they were tired then
    come to find out they hated you in the end
    never thought it would come to this

    Your greatest fear is to not fulfill the purpose that God has for you
    to die and to had let every thing that you went through , evaporate as if water turning into steam
    you fear that dying is your purpose
    you feel that your life is vain
    never thought that it would come to this


    You pray
    you fast for purpose and direction
    lol you lie down at night and start another crying session
    in the end God says
    "You know that plans that i have for you
    don't doubt me,
    Grow up! Repent, submit, obey!
    I am Preparing you to consider to take their mistakes a learn from it!
    don't judge, forgive, and be what i have called you to be.
    I knew it would come to this"

    " live and learn"

    You have direction
    submit to it
    you know what your purpose/calling is
    stop running and doubting it
    put your old life behind you
    start a new one
    God knew it was going to come to this

    "not fare" you say
    Your purpose is unfolding in front of you
    and you don't even know it
    your purpose/calling is right here in front of you
    Never thought i would see you walk in it so early

    Never thought you would be who you are today

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