• i try to make myself visible in this world where nothing stays the same
    and isn't that what i want? isn't boring what i hate?
    but i can't handle the unchanging outside, even being hypocritical
    because nothing changes there
    and everything does here
    yet it's meaningless,
    changes so small they disappear
    and i'm here,
    still here
    and i wait
    i wait for something to happen
    for someone to find
    that one safe haven
    where the changes are big
    where i stay now
    alone and afraid of all who come near
    so they flee
    yet i'm still here
    still waiting
    waiting for people who only flee
    afraid of the people i need