I Can't Stop

• Artist: vanessaw14
• Description: Sorry this is so long. So this was Kind of my thought process when I developed my eating disorder. I was depressed and didn't even feel like eating half the time so I guess I figured why eat at all? This disorder creeps up on you. It becomes your life so quickly yet undoing it takes so much more work and time. There was a time where I couldn't stop, but I'm healthy now and I hope other people battling anorexia make it through. You're not alone. Not at all.
• Date: 02/11/2015
• Tags: cant stop anorexia disorder eating

Breakfast, lunch, dinner. I don't want it anymore.

Day 1 no breakfast. There's nothing wrong.

Day 2 take away lunch. I'm still going strong.

Day 3 no dinner. I can't seem to care.

Day 4 can't find room for food anywhere.

Day 5 I feel like I won't survive.

Day 6 im fighting just to stay alive.

Day 7 I feel weak, cold, and sick.

Day 8 my senses are starting to tick.

Day 9 I think I'm getting used to it

Day 10 I can't even stomach the s**t.

Day 11 my family is getting suspicious.

Day 12 their survalence is making me vicious

Day 13 I decide to wear baggier clothes

It's day 14 and still nobody knows.

Day whatever. It doesn't even matter.

I'm fine as long as im not getting fatter.

You think I don't know I have a problem? I know, I cry

I just can't say yes to food despite how hard I try

I'm no longer normal but it's really okay

Because I don't want food anyway.

Some may think im sick or insane

But I'll do what it takes to stop the pain

Comments

[Nemone]

Glad to hear you are better. I think I can understand your feelings a bit when I read this. I've never been great about eating properly either since sometimes when I am stressed eating makes me feel like I'll be sick and does in fact make me sick sometimes. Sometimes it hurts so bad that I just think I'm going to die. But well, if we want to live we have to eat. Luckily there is chocolate.