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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 4:30 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:09 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:11 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:20 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:34 pm
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Lucky you, with your normal, external problems. stare
As long as we're emo ranting....
Well. Nothing to say on the relationship front, and that's what depresses me--and it's not even as if there isn't anybody to have one with. But nevermind.
Grades I have no problem with. (Stop glaring at meeee...) (Except for English.) But there is the constant threat of failure in my house--B=doom. C=death. And I'm not even that smart. I'm not good at school. I just like to read! crying
I'm sure you guys don't have a bubble. (One or two of you may have a shell, though.*cough*) But being in a bubble is happy and safe and carefree. Mine popped. Now the world is huge and loud and scary and I just wanna go back to bed, and I see my friends every day but I'm still so frikkin lonely. And I get online, waiting for someone to come on so I can talk, but they're busy or off or...or gone. Like they don't exist.
And I'm staring to believe that the nightmares in my head are real. They get worse and worse as time goes on. And the scariest part is, I want to lose myself in them, because the real world may be safeish, and all laid out for me, and relatively simple as of now, but everyone and everything there is just a big blur, and I'm invisible, and all alone.
I feel like I'm drowning in the fire that burns away your heart when it's broken, or like I'm the only one that's breathing, or like my face is twisted in pain and I can't scream so no one can see--and the thing is, sometimes I catch myself in a memory and it really is, and no one says anything.
And the worst part (however weird it might be,) is that the feeling is going away soon. The minute one of my friends does something nice to me, I'll be happy. But then it'll go away a few minutes later, and...it won't come back for awhile. Living on the edge is worse than drowning. It's like a yin-yang that's fighting with itself, both sides at once, then one, then the other...
I wish I could remember what being Happy Kirby felt like, but I've got an awful memory...and I know what could make me feel better, maybe for a lot longer, but it isn't gonna happen. Stuff like that never works out for me.
And I hate school, because, if not for it, I'd have at least one person to talk to.
I think I'm gonna cry. But of course, that won't happen either. evil
/emo rant of doom.
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:42 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:48 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 6:55 pm
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Posted: Wed Sep 05, 2007 2:20 pm
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Posted: Wed Sep 05, 2007 7:05 pm
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Posted: Wed Sep 05, 2007 9:07 pm
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Posted: Wed Sep 05, 2007 9:39 pm
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Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2007 5:04 pm
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Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2007 5:20 pm
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Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2007 6:23 pm
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