Tell us about your day. -cuz we love to listen-

[KirbyVictorious]

Ignore my emo.

I feel like I'm ostracized Kirby. Again. Or rather, like Kirby who Ostracizes herself. The Eternal Observer. Just like last year.

I really wanted to be this way again too. It's a lot better than depression. But not better than feeling loved.

And anyway, it isn't the same. No world to slip into; just a dulled version of reality.

I think instead of another place, I'm living in another time. I miss back porches, swings, family meals, huge breakfasts, music after dinner; I never had them anyway, I don't think. I miss the days when you called your best friend every ten minutes to squee about something random, or they came over for dinner, or you spend all afternoon doing nothing at someone's house. when people had freedom. when I could have a boy i really liked home for dinner, and there would actually be dinner, and I wouldn't have to worry about being sophisticated because if this was the SOuth fifty years ago, every girl would be sophisticated.

(I HATE THAT WORD.)

I guess i just hate being home alone. I hate that my family seems like a bunch of strangers, or friends that I don't like. ANd I hate that my friends seem like distant relatives now.

I can't wait until the summer, but I doubt things will change much.  

[BlackHawkGS]

That last part is something I've been thinking about too. I'm really looking forward to summer... but are things going to be much different? I'm still going to be super busy with two different jobs and a little running. And a lot of my friends will probably be going on trips, off to college, etc...

Meh.

I don't really feel distant from my friends... or, at least, my current friends. I do feel somewhat distant from my old friends and it's sort of depressing.

On another note, I think I'm going insane. I'll explain later.

... well, I have a test tomorrow in AP Stats that's worth 20% of my grade. And I'm probably not going to study tonight and inevitably fail.

I really wish I had some ******** idea of what I want to do in life.  

[Tak-Jak]

Combined, Matt and I paid $526.73 on just our outfits to Prom this weekend.


We still need tickets and dinner... I am going to be broke.  

[BlackHawkGS]

I really wish I wasn't going to prom this year. Our school is over 50% black, and we typically have a total of 2 slow songs throughout the entire prom. The rest is a bunch of ghetto music... it's fun for a few songs, but gets annoying fast.

Thus, the only part I really enjoy about prom is the afterparty xd  

[KirbyVictorious]

OMG Hawk our school tooo...it's because 50% of rappers come from Texas stare
'
I'm mad at like 75% of that whole effing race.  

[Reese_Roper]

Prom? You mean where you all go out for pizza then dance in the Odd Fellow's Hall before going to play paintball?  

[BlackHawkGS]

Reese_Roper

Prom? You mean where you all go out for pizza then dance in the Odd Fellow's Hall before going to play paintball?

xd Something like that.

We're actually having ours in a really nice place: the Indiana Roof Ballroom. Great old-Italian stuff theme and the ceiling looks like a pretty starry sky biggrin Something I don't see much of, living in the city.  

[Tak-Jak]

Ours is at Harbor side, right on river leading out to the gulf.


And we go get pizza after the prom, before hand tis dinner.
I think I am going out with like.. 15 people. x]  

[KirbyVictorious]

sounds pretty.

I don't know if we have many pretty places here.

'Course all the trees are very pretty.....at times....


I wonder if it was at the civic center?  

[Teen_Goddess]

We had our prom like a month ago. No clue why it was so early, but it was. And I didn't go, like always. Because I hate the music (it can burn in hell), and I hate the people, and I hate to dance. It's a great little relationship I have with prom, no?  

[NovaKing]

BlackHawkGS

That last part is something I've been thinking about too. I'm really looking forward to summer... but are things going to be much different? I'm still going to be super busy with two different jobs and a little running. And a lot of my friends will probably be going on trips, off to college, etc...

Meh.

I don't really feel distant from my friends... or, at least, my current friends. I do feel somewhat distant from my old friends and it's sort of depressing.

On another note, I think I'm going insane. I'll explain later.

... well, I have a test tomorrow in AP Stats that's worth 20% of my grade. And I'm probably not going to study tonight and inevitably fail.

I really wish I had some ******** idea of what I want to do in life.

It sounds, to me, like you never felt like giving AP statistics much attention in the first place. If so, then why did you take the course in the first place? Maybe, it would have been wiser to have done what you liked, or was willing to try at.

Maybe you can figure out what you want to do with your life, if you give a little thought towards what your willing to enjoy.  

[Tak-Jak]

Nova, be careful. Do not forget Hawk is a moderator.

Because that statement, were it directed towards me, would have pissed me off in an instant.  

[BlackHawkGS]

NovaKing

BlackHawkGS

That last part is something I've been thinking about too. I'm really looking forward to summer... but are things going to be much different? I'm still going to be super busy with two different jobs and a little running. And a lot of my friends will probably be going on trips, off to college, etc...

Meh.

I don't really feel distant from my friends... or, at least, my current friends. I do feel somewhat distant from my old friends and it's sort of depressing.

On another note, I think I'm going insane. I'll explain later.

... well, I have a test tomorrow in AP Stats that's worth 20% of my grade. And I'm probably not going to study tonight and inevitably fail.

I really wish I had some ******** idea of what I want to do in life.

It sounds, to me, like you never felt like giving AP statistics much attention in the first place. If so, then why did you take the course in the first place? Maybe, it would have been wiser to have done what you liked, or was willing to try at.

Maybe you can figure out what you want to do with your life, if you give a little thought towards what your willing to enjoy.

I did like AP Stats at first. Well, I've never really been a math freak... but it was a required class I'll have to take in college anyways if I want to pursue my major.

But unfortunately, the teacher is crap. Great guy and all, but he talks way too fast and says things like "This isn't hard at all" constantly. Yes, it may not be hard to you, but the rest of us don't know what the hell you're talking about!

Thus, me and about the rest of the class didn't study and we're all hoping we managed to scrape by with at least a 35% (the passing grade) since we all agreed that the test raped us...

As for my life... I don't know what I enjoy. To be quite honest. I have thought about; I spend usually one to two hours before I fall asleep just sitting in my bed thinking about things. But really, I haven't the faintest idea of what I would enjoy doing for the rest of my life.  

[NovaKing]

BlackHawkGS

NovaKing

BlackHawkGS

That last part is something I've been thinking about too. I'm really looking forward to summer... but are things going to be much different? I'm still going to be super busy with two different jobs and a little running. And a lot of my friends will probably be going on trips, off to college, etc...

Meh.

I don't really feel distant from my friends... or, at least, my current friends. I do feel somewhat distant from my old friends and it's sort of depressing.

On another note, I think I'm going insane. I'll explain later.

... well, I have a test tomorrow in AP Stats that's worth 20% of my grade. And I'm probably not going to study tonight and inevitably fail.

I really wish I had some ******** idea of what I want to do in life.

It sounds, to me, like you never felt like giving AP statistics much attention in the first place. If so, then why did you take the course in the first place? Maybe, it would have been wiser to have done what you liked, or was willing to try at.

Maybe you can figure out what you want to do with your life, if you give a little thought towards what your willing to enjoy.

I did like AP Stats at first. Well, I've never really been a math freak... but it was a required class I'll have to take in college anyways if I want to pursue my major.

But unfortunately, the teacher is crap. Great guy and all, but he talks way too fast and says things like "This isn't hard at all" constantly. Yes, it may not be hard to you, but the rest of us don't know what the hell you're talking about!

Thus, me and about the rest of the class didn't study and we're all hoping we managed to scrape by with at least a 35% (the passing grade) since we all agreed that the test raped us...

As for my life... I don't know what I enjoy. To be quite honest. I have thought about; I spend usually one to two hours before I fall asleep just sitting in my bed thinking about things. But really, I haven't the faintest idea of what I would enjoy doing for the rest of my life.

you could have studied out of your text book, that's where the teacher is teaching out of after all, or you could have taken time out of your day to ask the teacher for assistance with what you didn't understand, you could have asked kids who understood. Blame yourself, not others, for the others are not here to defend themselves, and you will be much easier on yourself then you are on the person your placing blame on. More importantly, you are the one who prevents and fixes problems, not others, thus you are the only one who can really be held responsible for either action or inaction.

If you don't know what you enjoy I suggest trying different things out until you find something that you do enjoy. There's lots of stuff to do you know. There's music and art for starters, then there's writing, or sports, or any scholarly discipline. If you wanted you could occupy yourself endlessly with the science there is out there, or with the math. You could be an investigator, solving crimes and unraveling the criminal mind, or you could be an explorer of the world and the mind.

There's a lot you could do and if you don't know what you enjoy it only means one thing and that's that you aren't looking hard enough.  

[NovaKing]

Tak-Jak

Nova, be careful. Do not forget Hawk is a moderator.

Because that statement, were it directed towards me, would have pissed me off in an instant.

I like your outfit tak-jak where'd you get the bat and how much do I have to pay for one??