You want real, here it is.

[Xahmen]

When it happened I thought we were both drunk, seeing as I was.
I didn’t think much of it.
The second time it happened, I told Nathaniel to stop, I said he was hurting me.
We were still drunk.
The third time he didn’t stop, and in the morning he apologized, told me that he had drank too much and lost control. I forgave him, but I told him that I didn’t want to drink with him anymore.
I found out two days ago that all three times Nathaniel had been sober as a stone.
He raped me.
That ******** stuck his filthy p***k in me and had the audacity to smile at me in the morning.

What should I do?
I can’t cry over it, I’m too angry.
I can’t look him in the eye, I might kill him.
I have to see him at least twice a week.
Was it my fault?
Is this my punishment for drinking, I mean, I accepted it when he told me he had been smashed… But was he really just using me?
Did I deserve it?

Every time I close my eyes at night I see his face as he held me down. When I think about it, he didn’t look drunk, he looked angry. I remember crying and begging him to stop, that he was hurting me.
I remember him ignoring me, not looking into my eyes, sweating and swearing and slamming into me so hard that I had bruises on my thighs for two weeks.
I don’t know how long it went on; I stopped being ****** while it was happening.
I was an item, something he could ******** was just a receptacle.


It was okay when I thought he was drunk, I knew he was going through a rough time.
Now though, now I can’t get the water hot enough to burn away the dirt.


*id I deserve it?
*m I just a whore?
*aybe I should just get over it.
*s there still a Heaven?
*xplain to me how God could let this happen.
*ever mind, I’m sorry for wasting your time.  

[KirbyVictorious]

Wow.

Powerful.

And I understood the star thing, but I don't know if you spelt it right.  

[Xahmen]

I don't see how I misspelt my name.  

[KirbyVictorious]

Oh, my bad. I thought the a was an I.

Brilliant, brilliant.  

[Xahmen]

S'cool.  

[BlackHawkGS]

We love you, Zahmen. Hang tough, man.  

[Voxxx]

EDIT: Nevermind.  

[Xahmen]

Figure it out.  

[KirbyVictorious]

*pokes you*

What is in that head? eek *poke*

If I had your brain I'd have taken over the world by now.  

[Xahmen]

It's ridiculously easy to figure out.
There's no real way to take over the world.  

[KirbyVictorious]

Unless you're God.  

[Voxxx]

Or a very charismatic public speaker with a lot of false promises.  

[KirbyVictorious]

3nodding  

[Voxxx]

Hey, Z?
Did this really happen?  

[Xahmen]

Yes.
My real name is Damien.