Too shocked to grieve.

[Caramel Kisses]

My mom passed away today.
I'm home now, allowed leave from program, of course.

I'm...
I dunno.

But.
I don't want a thread full of "I'm so sorry"s...  

[Skaeryll]

What happened?  

[Kuzodav]

We won't force ourselves on to you, but when the time comes, know we're here to help you cope as much as we can.  

[J of The Wind]

Oh Cara...  

[Topaz4293]

I may not know you well, but if there's anything I can do to help please let me know.  

[Caramel Kisses]

I dunno. it's this awkward cycle of brief sobbing, dripping tears and numbness...  

[J of The Wind]

Caramel Kisses

I dunno. it's this awkward cycle of brief sobbing, dripping tears and numbness...

I felt the same way when my Grandmom passed earlier this year...

I just wanted to PUNCH THE s**t out of something, I blamed myself, I blamed the doctors, I blamed her, I cried DAILY.

It will take some time, believe me.  

[Topaz4293]

I remeber the feeling from when my grandma passed away. We were very close and the sad thing is I could tell she didn't feel well the previous day but no matter how much I asked if she was well she just smiled and told me not to worry. The feeling of the gapeing hole in your chest is the worse idk if you have that or not though.  

[Topaz4293]

J of The Wind

Caramel Kisses

I dunno. it's this awkward cycle of brief sobbing, dripping tears and numbness...

I felt the same way when my Grandmom passed earlier this year...

I just wanted to PUNCH THE s**t out of something, I blamed myself, I blamed the doctors, I blamed her, I cried DAILY.

It will take some time, believe me.

You too O.o?!  

[Kuzodav]

No offense, and I don't mean to start an argument. I may even be speaking out of turn, but just for what I think might be best for Cara's sake, although she can correct me if I'm wrong...
But I don't think stories about how much it sucks, and how you guys felt when your grandparents died is really going to help her out...
If I'm wrong, just tell me. I'll put my foot in my mouth... But I'm just tryin' to help.  

[Caramel Kisses]

Topaz4293

J of The Wind

Caramel Kisses

I dunno. it's this awkward cycle of brief sobbing, dripping tears and numbness...

I felt the same way when my Grandmom passed earlier this year...

I just wanted to PUNCH THE s**t out of something, I blamed myself, I blamed the doctors, I blamed her, I cried DAILY.

It will take some time, believe me.

You too O.o?!

Yeah.
What is it?
Denial
Anger
Sorrow
Bargaining
Acceptance


Except with death, there is no bargaining...
...

*sigh*  

[J of The Wind]

Topaz4293

J of The Wind

Caramel Kisses

I dunno. it's this awkward cycle of brief sobbing, dripping tears and numbness...

I felt the same way when my Grandmom passed earlier this year...

I just wanted to PUNCH THE s**t out of something, I blamed myself, I blamed the doctors, I blamed her, I cried DAILY.

It will take some time, believe me.

You too O.o?!

Yuh huh.

Loved her like my own mother, and she loved me.

I was blessed. The Lord just called her suddenly. Its nothing we can control.  

[J of The Wind]

Kuzodav

No offense, and I don't mean to start an argument. I may even be speaking out of turn, but just for what I think might be best for Cara's sake, although she can correct me if I'm wrong...
But I don't think stories about how much it sucks, and how you guys felt when your grandparents died is really going to help her out...
If I'm wrong, just tell me. I'll put my foot in my mouth... But I'm just tryin' to help.

I mean, I dont mean to depress, but Im just saying that coping with the pain is possible, despite the seemingly endless pain she may or may not be feeling as of now.

Im sorry if I made things a bit worse, but truth be told, thats life =/

Sucks but its true... We just need to take time to really appreciate how blessed we may not realize we are.  

[Topaz4293]

It's always darkest before it goes pitch black. The pain will be at it's worst right before it goes away.  

[Keeskee]

Oh, sweetie. That's awful.

Sparing you the poetic crap, it will be okay. It won't be the same, and it'll always hurt, and it won't happen fast, but you will be okay. Just hang on to that, okay?