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lifes ups and downs

in this life ive been up and down and all around
but for some reason i spend so much time down.
im alone in this world, and it seems that im going to stay that way
i pay to play in the same game as the others each and every day
i cant stay this way anymore, im dieing inside and out
ive bought all the time i could to make a get away and yet im stuck
doomed to face this rotten luck

i know i dont have much time to rhyme or try to lie
its time i faced the truth and just fight with all my might
i know if i win its a heck of a underdog win, but hell ive never given up before
so why start now
ill bid you all a fairwell just in case i fail
dont worry about me my pals it wont rain hail,
when i die not a tear will be shed for i have fled to much in my life to really have any
true freinds

so with the ups and downs of life, ive failed to met those expections of all you
i know i was never ment for this time and this way of life and i thank all those that tried
but i wont kid myself i know its my time to say goodbye


burning soul
brimstone that was put out long ago now flares up and consumes my soul
all this anger swells and bellows in me i dont know what to do
i fear the worst and yet welcome this pain into my life
i wish though i could share my burning heart with someone but i cant
noone will except me for who i am
this soul is burning bright now and its time to fight
hell its going to be great till i burn out

the soul flickers and sparks to life with just a jolt of the daily life
once i was so weak and misunderstood and now i know why
im not a normal person and the burning soul's the proof
im ready now to light the world a blaze, im not giving in, in anyway
the plight is now on you all for im not the same as i once was
a bit more in your mouth smashmouth i be
im not playing the same game, ive stepped up the notch to compete

heck its one hell of a beat, steppin it up to compete with some of the best out there
i fear nothing and im all there, this time i wont be ensnared
i flare and bare my teeth, my fists are my weapons and i shall not be defeated.
its my way now, theres no more going back, i cant bare the pain of those yesterdays
its on now and im not going to bleed
the souls burning in a new way, theres no one left that can stand in my way
none that can beat the power that i have festering in me
its only controlled by me.


straight forward
im a fighter and a lover, im a sinnner and a saint at the same time
i know im not perfect but thats alright i try and i wont be blamed for that
im not the best at what i have i truely dont have any skills or talent.
im a sword fighter a noble knight that will fight for justice
im straight forward and always honest about myself and to others
i think thats one of my flaws and thats why people dont like me
but id rather be straight forward then hide and lie to all around me

im fighting the lieing and decieving ways of life, its just not my style to do that
i wont bend in my principles, not in love or death i wont sway
im a fighter for what i believe in and thats that
im not like what i used to be, im alot stronger now and im starting to control my rage
its only a matter of time before my fight intangles the rest of you into helping me
im sick of the hellish world we live in, raciasm and abuse.
all this stereotyping bullshit, its time someone stood up and fought for the right the good

its time im not staying in the back ground anymore, im straightforward with what i say
all life is precious and shouldnt be wasted or thrown away, thats why i fight and stand strong
when others cant defend i shall run to there aid, im being straight forward enough is enough
one person can change many and many can change more.
im being straight forward and im ready to go now.


warrior of light
im a warrior of light of the justice way
ill stand and swing my blade for the weak and megger
im not the kind to back down from a fight
black or white or any inbetween ill stand for you if your innocent
my blade i wield for the good and kind
im the warrior of light a sword wielding son of a gun

i swing left and right smitting all those that are evil
in time i hope to send the devil himself packing for all that he put me through
ill fight till i drop, ill fight until i have no strength left
i will not go down, and i shall not fall

i belive in myself and what i can do.
i am the warrior of light but light can not exist without darkness
so where is my other half? will they fight with me or against me
is love involved? or just more pain that ill have to blow away

ive dealt in both short and long term.. even had half a book at one time... of course my writings are my style... not always poems in others eyes but they are in mine.

curious love
love is a curious thing, always on the move and never standing still
i try to understand, im so curious to know why its this way
why it trys to bite me in the a**.
i can try to blast the masses with force but that wont help me understand

curious as it is i dont know why i try, i keep goin on and on
love is a thing i dont understand, ive been forsaken in so many ways.....
yet i cling to a past that wasnt glorious or warm, love is so cold to me
yet it seems to cling to me to try to keep me warm.
theres noone there though just friends that care.
its not what i need, even though i gladdly take any love i can get

my life is a horror filled with hate and pain, love is curious since it hasnt come to my aid
love is what it is that keeps me truckin though i dont see none around
i keep goin in hopes of finding someone that will understand me and love me for who i am
its a curious thing and i hope that it gets me soon before im gone


relate
i relate to alot of probelms around the world now, pain, hungry, hate
ive seen my share of this, i relate to so much though i try not to show it
i go with the flow, but feel outnumbered by the hate
relating to this i fight as a human would even against the odds
i relate to the dieing the healing but not the little amount of love

im alone and i relate to so many that dont see me the way i see them
i would give almost anything to have a good girl that would share life with me
share the pain relate to me, and i to her
but i dont relate on that subject, alone i am and broken i am
i fear alot, i can relate to the fears of the world, yet i dont give up like so many
i know i should i know i dont have much to look forward to

i relate to much and relate to nothing at the same time
i fear that death is approaching, but none really care.
i cant bare this pain anymore and i know soon enough im going to go
but i would like to just once relate to someone that can love me be with me.
im relating to die but i want to live, but i cant fight this no more on my own.


shine
its time again to show the colors of who i am
enough is enough im not getting pushed around anymore
im done with the anger even though its nice to boost my power
im going to shine with what i am, im kind and good hearted
its time i go now to be what i am

to shine is what i go, to be the best is what i am
to get where i need to go and what i want
im going to have to shine and show just what i can do
its time to go back to the felony to lay it on full blast
i never was a outlaw but hell its time i showed just what i can do

to shine in anyway is how im going to play
to shine and blind is the new game
im going for fame dont blame me if you cant hang with what i can
im no mence to society but hell im trying, its on now to be who i am and what i can be

to shine on and on in the darkness is now what im about.
to fly high and be above the rest is my way
scarifice is what you claim you do but what im doing was always for you
im going to shine so you can see just why i love you above the rest


sabotage
my life seems like its been sabotaged from the begining
all hell's been after me from the start, i cant decide to go with it or against anymore
for so long ive gone against it, fought it and lost against it but iwas never consumed
now i want to go with it seeing that nothing good has come from fighting it
sabotage is the game that they have played on me

why not fight back with fire? why not show them the true form of me?
ive hidden it for so long now i dont know wheither i should smite them or let them be out of pity
sabotage is what they did to me so why shouldnt i do the same?
probably cause i dont want to fall to there level.
im a man of standards even if im on the end of my rope and been sabotaged to that point

they sabotaged my life but yet never fully succeeded in taken me down and that was there fault
im no jack of all trades but hell im as good as it gets
my skills are top notch in what i know.
but yet the sabotage has made me a number that many claim me as


the number
they say im a number in this society
just a loser born to walk a life of loneness
due to a numbered rank system of work
a paychecked worth rate, claiming what i am
im not that number i have much better things to offer

the number claims what i make and what i should be limited to
the number claims my soul and my love life
the number consumes everything in all the lifes around me
limiting my freind count to the lowest possible

the number claims to say what i am
but im not that way, im better then the number says i am
im not some limited able bodied man
i rise to and above the occasion everyday
the number hides the truth about many

but it controls those that it wants
the number has lost its hold on me
for once i see the truth that life is a bunch of fake numbers in a system of bull
im so full of the lies that it beholds on me
the number no longer has its hold on me, im free to do as i wish
see me rise above this system