of what you desire as long as appropriate

[nightmareofmarch]

this are just the things that i wrote..they're also in my journal..but im just putting it here cause i need some comments on how/what you think about it..

i just have one request..if your going to comment..you can say about anything that you wanted to say..just don't curse/swear/say inappropriate words

thank you  

[nightmareofmarch]

bring be light to this dim room
sharp edges shells
cloistered my broken heart
unseen by those eyes
unseen even the bright cursing sun
forgive my frightfulness
forgive me being coward
hid myself cause by trauma
feared to be shot
feared to be killed
by a single strike
my eyes would close
heart stops beating
from my own skin
summoned a shadow
but in this flip side of the silver coin
it seeks thy souls
feared not in fear
it rises from the bloody ground
with fierce of the raging storm
that sings along with it
revived their fears
a shadow of a unknown
from unknown now lurks in this very world
thats been polluted by its own inhabitants
it cries with it
and it gathered vengeance with it  

[nightmareofmarch]

wake up beauty
grim came for a visit
wanting your pretty face
id prepared a cup of tea
for you and him
heres the flower that id promised
id put it in the vase
my dear beauty
be not frighten
grim may be nefarious to others eyes
but, his the brother of life
who gave us these sacks of pain
hanging in our own shoulders
my dear beauty
join me, and be here
in my cold arms.
we'll share bed in death  

[nightmareofmarch]

kick me away
pull me back..
and throw me like a trash
i turned myself into no one likes
drove my brain into insanity
put these wound in my wrist
no one cares..
splitting my skin..
bleeding myself..
like a trash i just
deserving to be thrown
and be like a dust..worthless
to be owned...  

[nightmareofmarch]

give me a knife
cause i want to cut myself
watch these wounds bleed
need no one to heed
these words that hides
in their face i already cried
my heart summoned my pain
and i can no more be the same
honor i try to gain
can no longer be tame
so give me my black rose
give me my coffin
my piece of land
land where i can lay and rest
till my skins dry out
and my bones be dust..  

[nightmareofmarch]

crocked as the world
that had forsaken me
im broken
inside of me..
peices of mirrors scarthed around
each stuck into me..deep
those note i found in the funeral
are those what keeps me high
my body is a corpse
cold like the winter chills
i froze to death
kiss of silence that lingers
like stings of scorpions
poison is into me now
leave these lips
longing for more of you kiss
leave this thought
as a chaos of unknown
let those sharp daggers
chase my ignorant soul  

[nightmareofmarch]

my dear wise tree
full of knowledge
"how dare you"
you just assumed that you know everything
about me!"
you think that you can see through me that quick?
thats your big mistake
you might encountered
numerous raging storms
you may have been struck
by many sharp objects
sang with lively birds...
but you still dont know anything about me
even though you gained that much experience
you never...will never..know
see..the face that hides behind these mask
no...no one can.....see...through it..  

[nightmareofmarch]

one kiss
boom...your world has changed
touch me with those soft skin
woah..you brought heaven
ill burn with your warmth
freeze to your anger
but forgiveness is what i seek
i love thee
and i broke mine stick
i try to make it fit
but my heart wont let it stick
back to how the leaves fall
i love the past
memories come rushing
back in my mind
here in my heart
for every cold December
your touch keep me breathing  

[nightmareofmarch]

if breaking the stick that i held would set me free...
take my heart and never give it back
i desire to be numb...
i desire to feel no more
if you want to break me..
go ahead...
ill take the pain
ill take the hurt
make my blood flow...
kill me...cause i never want no more of this bull s**t
that the world offers me
i desire to cry no more...
i desire..
so much i tried...
but i can never be
hope death would just rip me apart
break me...tore me like little paper...
and be thrown into the trash..
thats where i really belong..  

[nightmareofmarch]

if i break this stick
this stick that im holding to
then id broke these chains away
set myself to the cruel world
and be wrapped to all these thorns
tears will never fall
from these eyes
but blood will be
shattered around my pitiful life
an savior from these darkness
is whom ive been waiting
can give more harmony
than the music im listening
can give more warmness than
this one im feeling
a answer to my enigmatic mind
peace in this chaotic life
happiness behind lurking pains
if no hand would come
then better break me open
take this beating heart
and so i wont feel no more again
held it tight my past..
for your the last one
that i beats upon..  

[nightmareofmarch]

red lips that i try to kiss
soft touch that warms my frozen heart
i put my best to grab you back
hold you
make you still mine
but time isn't fair took you away
tore my fragile heart
crush like the glass the stepped on
kick around
like the small snow ball
in the pitiful land
give me the obsidian knife
cut myself to offer a blood
summon a devil
where three roads meet
wish for you to be back
those red lips that i desire to kiss
those touch that i once felt  

[nightmareofmarch]

lay me in my bed
let me sleep
let me have my nightmare
don't wake me up when i say your name
don't wake me even though bloods are bursting out of me
let me have my rest
have time with nature
be buried in the ground
i hate the land
where my feet are standing
creatures in it put me to pillory
throw their spoil goods
into my face
im like a jerk
im their clown
past time
doll...puppet

kick me like a small snow ball
lying on the cold ground
im nothing to every one
im nothing to you
just a piece of trash
deserving to be dump
be buried in memory
be gone..and be history
in a blink of your eye
im gone
im done  

[nightmareofmarch]

the more i want you
the more you move farther
the more i love you
the more you hate me
life is so contradictory
you throw some thing
'cause they're a trash
but they came back easily
the most precious things
are the most scarce
you dig a hole to find it
you risk your life to have it
but at the end of the day
they're all gone
pop! like a bubble
bang! like the gun
that shot my head
bullet gone through
fallen down in my bed
gasping for last breath  

[nightmareofmarch]

im taking my step toward becoming a hater...
im packing my heart with all my anger
im locking myself...put a chain all over me...
hate the world that damned me
cursed all the people who laughed at me
cuted their nasty little tongues
for their full of shame..and poison
ill cry no more..
wipe those childish acts
and be like the murderer my heart was  

[nightmareofmarch]

what the hell im still doing here
putting myself into more pain..?
putting more wounds into this heart..
i never want an air to breath in
never want a site to see..
my heart didnt wish for a life
but still nature isn't fair
i was brought up in this corruption..
live a life of distruction..
my body couldnt take another sting
my heart couldnt comprehend another pain
brain has exploded..cause of over thinking..
i hate this life
this ******** up ground my feet steps on
they say your lucky
they say your blessed
i reply to them
and said ******** those ******** those lords..
i didnt desire for a life
and how could still give me this ******** up ******** your ******** you words..
trn the tides against me..
struck those knife in me..
stop this heart from beating
and my lungs for breathing
im like a bug..
being played by the "gods"