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Jake smiled a bit as she opened the door. The blankness on her face looked very familiar. All the times he had been lied to, he knew that look so well. If it had been another they wouldn't have understood, in Jake's opinion. He saw the cuts and knew what they were for. He himself heard no voices. Max was even unusually silent for once. It must have taken him by surprise that Jake had broke like he did. But Jake knew that he was needed, even if he didn't think he would be much help. Due to that Jacob had let himself be pushed back, he had enjoyed his brief time in the light of day. He placed his arm across her shoulders and hugged her a bit.
At first he didn't speak, instead let her get some of the tears out of her system. Though many of the men in white always ignored the tears of others, he knew that it helped to cry every now and then. Jacky reminded him of when he first got to HMI. He had been feeling hurt, betrayed and devastated that it had happened. He held her for awhile and then spoke softly. "Its nobody's fault but his own...His trust issues run deep...deeply enough where he wouldn't even tell us this until now." He couldn't understand his reasoning for hiding it, but he wouldn't try and paint him as the bad guy. "Avoid him for awhile...but the way to deal with it is different for everyone...I dealt with it alone...but it hurt...and I wont let you deal with it alone. We'll figure this out okay?"

Jake smiled at her and nodded a bit. She was smiling, so at least that was a positive change. He thought though that she was still a long way from being fine. "The best thing I can think of...is give it a bit, like a few days. Just enough where you know you'll be in control." He knew just what would happen if she went there now. The amount of pain that he had put her through would send her over the edge and then Jake would have to send Emily back down again. He looked at the bloody bandages on her arm and knew what that felt like. At the moment he himself felt the urge to feel the cold steel against his skin. In a way it was almost ecstatic, it would take the pain away. "I feel that urge as well Jacky...I will tell you what...if it will help, I will stop along with you...you know how I am with that blade. Its one of the things that keep Max in check." He didn't know how she would ever be able to trust Decker again. If he lied like this to her once, what was to stop him from doing it again? He didn't know that answer, as far as he knew Decker lied about everything. And he cared for Jacky enough so that he himself felt like hurting Decker and beating the snot out of him. But it would do nothing besides vent. That brought a chime out of Max, but not as vehement as before, almost as if he knew better then to rile him right now. But he wouldn't let Max have him either. "When you feel ready to confront him...I'll be beside you if you want...as support." He mentally smiled, he really did consider her like a sister. More so then his real sister ever would have been. She hurt him, he didn't think Jacky would do that though.

Jake took one of her hands in both of his and patted it gently. "Max...I've dealt with him before without cutting...I think I will be able to withhold him again." He sighed at her question and thought about it a moment. He looked off in the distance. "Well...ask him why he didnt trust you enough...I can understand about the rest of us...but why lie to the ones you love?" He let go with one of his hands to run it through his hair. "I thought I was beginning to understand him...but he lied to us..." He looked at her a moment and sighed a bit. " You two were looking so happy together...and then that had to happen." He wasnt just referring to her in that one. But he wouldnt say that just yet.
"I know...I know your not my family but your better then even my real sister...and I want you to be happy. I don't really know how to handle this..." He sighed a bit and looked at the ceiling as he remembered the pain from the lie. "When I went to HMI, my family never told me...they just put me in there...I was hurt...angry...confused. And many other emotions as well. I worked through it with friends...." He chuckled a bit. "It sounds weird...but I've learned friends are good for comfort...whatever you need Jacky, I'll help." He smiled a bit. "Promise."

Jake smiled at her and nodded. He knew that it would be hard for them both. After all Max had a particularly nasty temper and he figured that Emily was no better. He also wondered why Decker would lie like that, surely there had to be a reason he would do that to them. It wasn't even that big of a deal, if he had said it in the beginning none of this would have happened. He was sad that Jacky had to deal with that. He couldn't be positive but he was sure that she wasn't one to freely go around admitting to guys that she liked that she loved them. So it must be very hard for her to handle.
He flushed a bit with the kiss but grinned at her. "The same goes for me. I would never have had to deal with...him." He knew she would know who he was referring to. He just didn't say his name so he wouldn't think he was being addressed. Thankfully they were all being silent right now. He smiled and nodded. At least he had pulled her out of her stupor, those could be really bad if dived in too long. He himself had to pull out just recently. He sighed a bit and laid his head on her as she leaned on him. "Everything was going great...I never fell like this for anybody...but...she had a fear...of intimacy...we...well we did something and suddenly she withdrew...I shouldn't have done that...She asked me too but..." He sighed a bit and closed his eyes. "I made a bad choice...and now she has withdrawn from everybody including me." He took a breath. He didn't really know what to do with this. He himself had withdrawn so many times before...but this was not him.

Jake remembered what she had told him back in HMI. About her family, he didnt ask about her parents as she mentioned them. He just moved his arm in a comforting gesture along her back. Though he wished there was something he could do for Kairi, Jacky was right. He would have to wait for her to come out of the slump herself. Though now he had the name for what she had that made her fear it so.
He looked at her a moment and smiled a bit. "You are...I feel better talking about it...rather then letting one of the others deal with it..." He sighed a bit. "When we got out of the car...that was Jacob, of the smart one as I call him sometimes." He wondered if he should tell her why about Kairi, but she was helping him. Plus he knew she wouldn't tell. "When Kairi was young...she was raped by her father and beaten. He did it on more then one occasion and as she grew." He remembered each line of the diary as it seared itself into his mind. "To have a loved one do that...it does a couple things....either makes them the same way...or..." He let the sentence die down.