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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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 Posted: Fri May 16, 2008 9:54 pm
((Ah... well um... I kind of have something planned for tomorrow morning so... can he come tomorrow afternoon...? XD;; ))
"No, it's fine." Jounouchi shook his head, "You're not messed up. It's the other you who is. And he's gone." he smiled lightly, putting a hand on Malik's shoulder, "Even if... we're still getting these weird hauntings or whatever... he still can never take over your body again... your mind and your body are completely your's now, and you're definitely not insane... even if you are seeing weird auras around people." he added with a grin.
((I trust a lot of people, but I'd still rather not risk it... it just doesn't seem worth it to me. Like I'd give out other less important passwords to friends without a second thought if there was a practical reason, but not Gaia or my email... >_>;;
Erm... to tell the truth... from everything I've heard of your boyfriend, and from the short bit of time I've met him, I really have to say that I don't care for him... he seems shallow and overly-angry, and you can do so much better. He yells at you for stupid reasons and... well, it just bothers me... so yeah, I'm sorry, but that's how I feel at the moment at least... I think you deserve better, and the two of you don't seem to be a very emotionally strong couple, at least not right now.))
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Posted: Fri May 16, 2008 10:04 pm
((Oooo, K-chan has a plan! I'm excited! Ook then. I'll wait for whenever seems like good timing. Hehe. <3 ))
Malik smiled lightly, though for the most part it was an insincere smile. "... but I hardly know who I am sometimes. I've been searching and I've never seemed to figure out anything else about myself... I don't even know who I am anymore. I feel like... I don't even have an identity of my own.. the point of my existence ended the moment the Pharaoh left this world..."
((s**t, I dunno. I'm freaking out a little actually... I just want some time to roleplay and respond to messages on my other websites and crap and he keeps bitching at me. I don't know what to do! He's just calling me a baby, saying I don't care... and then BUGS are FLYING AT ME. IT'S ANNOYING. Haha, because my family left the door open too since it's hotter inside than outside now.
Yea... except we're both too insecure to let go. *sigh* How I'm a supposed to find the perfect person when I can't let go of the wrong one? It's been two years, almost three.. I can't IMAGINE not being with him.. and yet.. being with him isn't always that enjoyable.
Anyway, I don't think I can find better. Like I said, people don't like me like that anyway... then I'd get all uncomfortable around guys again... ~.~ So.. I dunno. Sorry I'm bugging you about this AGAIN. I just like... needed some sort of way to rant. Haven't talked to anybody in a couple of days cause I haven't worked and it's been building up. sad
This is all redundant though. I wish I could just... have somebody make my decisions for me and make the best choice. Or if I could see the future I could know what or who is right for me. I'm scared of being alone... of being jealous of other couples and being third wheel... I dunno... and if I break up with him, people might judge me. ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Fri May 16, 2008 10:13 pm
((Ah, it's not really a plan per say, just a little Easter Egg... XD;; ))
"Malik is Malik." Jounouchi replied simply, "You really think that your only purpose had to do with Mou Hitori no Yuugi? You're a person just like the rest of us, and you can live your own life just like the rest of us. You don't need to have some special destiny or something world-changing going on in your life. That stuff doesn't make up who you are. Only you can do that, and I think you've done a pretty damn good job. No matter what, you're still Malik, and you can still do anything with your life that you want, because it's your life, not destiny's or revenge's." he finally finished with a gentle smile.
((It's okay... *hug*
If you genuinely feel your relationship can't go any further, then you really should end it... it might be hard on both of you but... that short time of pain is so much better than constant unhappiness... you don't need to be jealous of couples, because they're in the same boat as you. They're trying to find who's right for them also, and they just happen to be in another part of that than you at the time. And people who judge your for ending a relationship are pathetic. Not worth your time. Ending a bad relationship is so much better than staying in it, because that's unfair to both people involved in the relationship, to live a lie like that...))
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Posted: Fri May 16, 2008 10:27 pm
((Easter eggs are good too. <3 ))
"... But... my father... Isis... none of them... would've agreed. They just think I'm some part of fate!" Malik protested, looking genuinely upset now. "... But nobody ever thought about what happens after! That's why back then, I told Rishid to kill me if I were to fail at Battle City.. because that would mean my purpose was over..."
".. Malik is Malik, you say. Then WHO is Malik? Who I am? I don't even know... I didn't even know some... weird personality was in my head until the Battle City finals... imagine that..?! Not even knowing.. where half of my head was..."
".. we're almost there..." Malik added absentmindedly as he glanced at one of the street signs.
((Mhm. I appreciate your advice. But I'm not strong enough.
Ah well. Maybe if I was happy I could do it. But I'm not.
But that's not true. Other couples are so HAPPY. So delusional. It's sickening... we're... just kids.. why do we need a boyfriend and need to be in love? Ugh. I have no idea. I don't want them to ditch me for a guy later on.. so if I have a guy then.. when that time comes, I'll have something to fall back on... idk...
It's not judging the ending.. it's judging.. what I did during the time I was with him because I said I was in love with him and it was okay.... and then breaking up with him after all that... they might think I'm a slut or something... I dunno.. -_- ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 3:19 pm
((Yup. ^^))
Jounouchi frowned as he glanced over at Malik, "But you are Malik... and... your other personality is Malik too... that's not something anyone can deny but... that was the part of you created from hatred and pain... and you've managed to get rid of him... you've proven that you've always been your own self... and wouldn't let the hatred take over who you truly are..."
He looked at Malik seriously, "I mean... doesn't it feel good to be free from that now...? And to not be involved in the destiny of the Pharaoh or Battle City or anything? Doesn't it feel good to be... normal for once...? Wouldn't you rather have that where... you can make your own destiny... instead of being trapped by someone else's?"
((...well... I think you are strong enough but... you definitely do seem to need some more time to think things over.
Those fake happy couples bother me as well... but they're not truly into each other... it almost seems like a facade...
There is no way that would make you a slut though! D: You were in love and faithful at the time, but because you have grown and matured as the time has gone by, you have a right to change yourself to better suit your newfound maturity. You can't just let yourself be stuck in a vortex that you created on your own in the past when you had a different mindset than you do now...))
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 3:44 pm
((Mhm... dead baby chicken fetus.))
"... normal? I'm... not." The Egyptian faltered looking for words.
... Foolish boy...
I'm not... normal...
"I could never be!" Malik explained, raising his voice. "I grew up so differently then the rest of everybody! How can I possibly.. understand, normal?! You do things, and say things and I don't always understand and I come off as arrogant, or mean. I really... I used to push everybody around. I'm not even completely out of that phase either.
"So what if I'm not technically stuck being the Pharaoh's b***h anymore!? I still... " He falterted, searching for the right words, ".. It's going to be with me forever. Those... scars don't just go away! They ruined... my relationship with my father, Isis and Rishid... they made me... go crazy..."
"I want to make my own destiny... but I don't even know where to start... Everything is so different now... " Malik added quietly, balling his fist tightly against his hips. "Like I said , I'm lost, okay? I don't have a purpose. "
(( I guess. >>;
How do ya know if someone is faking it though?
D: Yea but that's part of the reason I can't break up with him. Ugh. I dunno. ~.~ ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 3:56 pm
((W-WTF...? XD;;; ))
Jounouchi stopped walking, now staring at Malik, quite taken aback. "I-I'm sorry." he said, blinking a few times. He was... surprised by Malik's reaction. He hadn't realized... how helpless the other boy felt against his past... that he couldn't... change his life now, even though it was over...
He suddenly leaned forward and took Malik's hands into his own., "Your purpose... right now... is to make your own destiny..." he stared the other blond in the eyes, "Don't you get it? You're so lost and haunted by your past right now because you were never able to heal and concentrate on your own life... it was always about destiny and the god cards and about the pharaoh... but that's all gone now... and just because it is gone... that doesn't mean you don't have a purpose. Instead... your purpose has only changed... now your purpose is to find peace with yourself, and with your past... I know it seems impossible but... it's not."
He squeezed Malik's hands lightly in reassurance, "It really isn't... with the right support... and enough time... you can learn to just... accept that the past happened... it will never go away but... your goal should be to find peace in yourself even with your past still there... and to forgive everyone in the past and yourself..."
((Well, no one can tell for certain if a couple isn't truly in love but... XD;; I think you know what I'm talking about... those preppy couples who find the hottest person of the opposite sex in their league and then those two get together and use the relationship to get attention by being all lovey-dovey wherever they go... yeah... XD;;
But I'm sure you'll realize what you want eventually... *hugs* You just need time...))
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 4:13 pm
((That's essentially what eggs are, right? Well, I suppose they are unfertilized dead baby chickens... >>; ))
Malik frowned and looked Jounouchi over once, squeezing his hand lightly. "I want to..." He said, tone soft and sincere. "... but... I... I dunno... when something goes wrong, I get so angry..."
"... I can't control my emotions... I just.. .hate myself too much, I guess..."
" And so.. I blame other people... it makes me feel better... well, not really... I think it does, but it probably just makes it worse. Because then I'm pushing other people away..." He sighed heavily and took a step towards Jounouchi and gave him a tired hug.
(( Guess so. :/
~.~ Oh yayz. My mom is a b***h.
GAH. I hate when she yells at me like this. Y'know, how I told you last time? Yup, she's doing it again.... T__T;; But she grounded me to my room, so I dunno... guess I just stay here... D:<
So annoying. I hate not having anything to do. I guess I'd rather be at work. My mom expects me to clean the house all day, like I'm a maid. ******** that s**t. I did what she asked and she still got mad at me! D:<
Then I got in trouble for crying about it again. -_- ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 4:35 pm
((I-I guess... XD;; Though they aren't necessarily dead, since they were never alive to begin with... it's more like... chicken placenta? o.o
Jounouchi closed his eyes, holding Malik close and leaning his head down on the other's shoulder. He remained quiet now, not really sure what else he could say to help convince Malik that he did have a chance to find peace in life. Jounouchi knew it was possible from his own experience... even though his case was less drastic than Malik's, it was still the same principle, right?
((Damn, that's so lame! D: I want to yell at your mom back but... I'm quite incapable of that... ^^;; ))
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 4:41 pm
((B-BUT MY DESCRIPTION SOUNDED MUCH MORE MORBID! D:<
Morbid pwns logic. ))
Malik smiled in Jounouchi's arms a little. ".. .maybe we should stop hugging like this in public..." He suggested with a tiny laugh, as he pulled himself off of his companion. "... but it did cheer me up a little..." He reassured with a small nod.
(( *Snort* Already tried it, dude.
And jaa, you are. ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 4:59 pm
((Good point. You win.))
Jounouchi blushed ever-so-slightly, "I-I'm glad I was able to cheer you up a bit..." he smiled lightly, pulling away as well.
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 10:04 pm
((I always win. ))
"Heh. When you turn pink like that, it cheers me up too...." Malik noted, with a light smirk crossing his features.
(( Hehe you're avi is rockin' purple! I love it!
GAH. Igot home from swim practice and PROM WAS OVER. I had to buy the dumb crown and stuff. T.T 8k down the drain. )
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 1:00 pm
((Curse you. D: ))
"What was that?!" Jounouchi huffed, really starting to get annoyed with Malik's comments.
((Purple FTW. ^^
And heh, I'd really just rather spend the gold instead of the time anyway. That's a *lot* of dancing to a *lot* of bad music. XP))
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 9:42 pm
((See? Even you agree.))
"I think you're cute..." Malik replied innocently.
(( I really liked some of the music.... *falls over*
Do you not like that genre?
AND NO. Cause I'm cheap. ))
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Kitsune Ketz Kwineight Captain
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 9:48 pm
((Bleh.))
Jounouchi's face reddened considerably, "W-well that's because you're weird!" he huffed, stuffing his hands into his pockets and continuing to walk again.
((Some of it wasn't bad, but then there was some really dirty music. XP
I'm usually super cheap, but sometimes there's just exceptions. XD;; ))
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