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((No way!!! How do you live!?!?!?

Aww that's sucks. It's awesome. I hope you fix you're sound.

I'd post now but I'm still having that after con depression. I WANT to think about anime but when I do get all emo. GAH. IT'S HARD NOT TO BECAUSE MY WHOLE ROOM IS COVERED IN IT.

I can't find pictures of our Yuugiou group anywhere on the net. Very depressing. I've been searching all day. I spent my day sulking about the end of fanime and trying to live in the past.

Then I got really upset because when I was searching for pictures I saw somebody's livejournal. It was from three years ago so it wasn't about me, but it was still offensive. This girl was ranting about how some cosplayers have no shame and she said, "Well, I think people should dress like someone they look like. I did not picture Malik as heavier than me, white and female. It's annoying when people kill the characters like that when they don't look anything like them."

~.~ Wahhhh......

Erm yea.

And then she ranted about how FAT Americans are and how fat people shouldn't be allowed to cosplay.

T__T;;; So, what the hell, that DID NOT help my mood. I don't care what people look like, if they are cosplaying as a character that means they are a fan. And I love fans! So I really don't care. I HAD to dress up as Malik because... I dunno, he's my favorite ever. And I mean, I tried to be accurate and obviously that's impossible but she doesn't need to be an a** about it. If you really love something then... go ahead and embrace it right?

Either way I feel like a fool.

And I have no pictures, my boyfriend is being an a** and my brother is singing songs about how my first cat got run over by a car.

T___T Yay Monday.

NOT. ))

((Hm... that is weird. :/

Yea, I know. I get depressed over stupid things. Wishing I could've gotten to know people better, or that I didn't lose those girl's contacts.... ~.~ Stuff like that... how I'm broke... and I dunno... just a lot of thoughts... but mostly yea, me just wishing it wasn't over. I guess? It was like the thing I looked forward to when I was depressed all school year and now I feel like it's gone, so what do I look forward too!? gonk

Buuut... if you're gonna visit.... then... O.o Well, that's something to look forward to... !!

:3 Hehe, it'll be like a birthday present! Even if you don't come on my birthday, it'll still feel that way, yup, cause its' right around that time and all. <3 I can teach you guys Egyptian War! (Unless you know how to play that game.. .then.. erm nvm) That is good news though, thank you. I need to stop living in the past.... D: I do that a lot, really.

I guess it doesn't matter if we call her a b***h, she'll always be judging and stuff. It just gets me paranoid... ~_~ It'd suck to find a picture of my cosplay with a comment like, 'omg what an ugly chick" or something... I'd hate that.. .I'd never want to do it again.

And no, she hasn't she didn't get many comments at all.. but I didn't read them.. so maybe the 2 posted are angry? I dun care, I dun wanna go back there.

Yea, I'm just being retarded again, no worries, retardedness passes eventually.))

(( o__o Well if you get me a present I feel like I have to get you one. And I was probably going to wait on that. Well... maybe I could come up with something... hm... y'know you don't have to get me anything! It's just great that you'll be coming. <3

Hehe, it's fun. <3 I met new friends through that game. I swear cosplaying is awesome. Although, there was the issue of never learning anybody's real name cause we just called each other by our character's names. XD;

^^;; Thanks. Let's beat her up some day. I'm thinking of getting my hands on a death note one of these days. Y'know, I asked Light if I could borrow his in exchange for me posing for a picture and she just laughed and said, "oh to write Yugi's name in it?" and I said yes and then she laughed again and walked away.

GAH. X_X It didn't work. Haha, but I did get a pin to go with my finding a DN obsession. IT says: "Your name is going in my unassuming black notebook, you p***k.

ALso, this one lady was selling pins that said:

"Firebenders are really hot"
"Earthbenders like it hard"
"Waterbenders get more wet."
"Airbenders like to blow"

XD;;; I bought the first one. Cause my mom might not approve of the rest. Hhahaha, but they ROCKED. *pun not intended* ))

((D: B-b-b-b-but---

WELL. Fine then. I'll pay you back eventually. > sad

XD;

Awww you're no fun. You suck at being a villian. Must figure out how to get the Sennen Rod to work so I can brainwash you!!! > biggrin

~.~ It's not like we know her face or name anyway.

I want to make a Death Note and have people autograph in it next year. Hehehe. :3

Oo and I got a SUPRISE BUTT SECKS pin too. Yuppp.

BROOKYLN RAGE!! 8D ))

(( You have no choice in the matter uke-chan.

Rawr.

Hahaha, wtf? Dork. I wouldn't! Haha, I'm sooo doing that... just gotta find me a black notebook.

Indeed. Pins are awesome.

That quote is made of win. ))

((They do? I have no idea..

~___~ Last night was terrible.

Y'know, how I've been down in the dumps after Fanime and I haven't wanted to talk to anybody... ? Well.. .my boyfriend took this as I cheated on him during the convention. Last night when i didn't tell him what was wrong he threatened me and black mailed me and did whatever he could so that I would tell him. He said, "if you hang up the phone one more time, I'm breaking up with you, you obviously don't love me or trust me enough to tell me about your life, " and I was just really annoyed and broken up already and I

Like... he sent me this PM too:

"well i guess u dont want me around in your life, cuz well you pretty much ignore me all the time and dont care about anything nor care to even tell me whats going on. if u do even care you would talk to me and not be a ******** baby about everything. all i do is care and help u. all i get back is ignored calls hung up calls being annoying and everything. if u even care about me than learn to work with it. cuz it seams u dont want me around and want me to just get out of your life. if thats how it is i will leave forever and never talk to you again. "

He said things like, 'you better ******** tell me whats wrong, right now." and I just said I can't explain it and he wouldn't believe me anyway. Then I FINALLY after like 2 hours told him, I'm mostly just sad that Fanime is over AND HE DIDN'T BELIEVE ME. He called me a ******** lying b***h and that he knows when I'm lying, but I WASN'T LYING! So what the helL!? Then my mom CAME into my room at 3 am and told me to get off the phone, so I told him that and he said, 'fine don't ever talk to me again."

T________________________T;;;

I don't understand.

On top of that , I didn't know I had work today, so I didn't go and now I'm in big trouble with my manager. On top of that I NEEDED the MONEY badly. My best friend owes me 90 as is and I'm probably over on my debit card. ~_~ Life is retarded. x.x

*sigh* How was your day? ))

((Yea... I dunno... I dun even know what I did wrong. ~__~ I honestly didn't cheat on him, I'm not that kind of person. The only friends I made were girls, but I suppose that wouldn't convince him either. D:<

*sigh* I really don't feel like do anything right now. Dun feel like watching anime, playing games, roleplaying, drawing, talking to anybody... so I really don't even know what to do with myself. I just want to lay in bed or go on the computer and hooope that I can get those pictures but still, no luck. x.x Swim practice soon and I dun wanna do that either. I feel like I'm close to crying and I really don't want that to happen when I'm in front of everybody. D:

>>; Glad your day was good. I want to have a costume party now. Next year for Fanime I want to commission someone to make me Malik's cloak.. cause that'd be sweet, it really would. I was gonna ask my manager cause she sews costumes, but now she is pissed at me. x_x;;;; Erm.. yea)