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Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 9:51 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 9:57 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 10:06 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:38 pm
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[Buffet Area: Under the buffet table with Andre]
"But I'm not - h-hiding myself away!" he hiccuped. Then thought about it. "...am I?" Hiding his heart, maybe; within an impenetrable fortress that brutally ripped apart anyone who got too close.
Andre's expression of emotion when he snapped about caring seemed to sober Izaya. At least he didn't feel like he was the only one in pain. Perhaps the older man liked to act as though he couldn't or didn't feel, but even if he couldn't sympathize with other's feelings, it didn't seem like he could completely keep from relating.
Which made Izaya wonder if he could get the other to understand his dilemma. It was risky, especially since he knew the normally-withdrawn man was opening up to him by telling him things, but he had to try. "Senpai," he said seriously, his volume just above a whisper, "it may be easy for you to say that because you might not think there will ever be another you cared for like Vincent-kun.
"But...imagine for a second that you had Vincent-kun back again. He wouldn't remember you, so you would have to start over, but you'd be happy to have him back, wouldn't you? Because there would be the potential for you to reach where you once were as long as you put in the work and effort to make it happen." Izaya hesitated. "...And...suppose, though a great deal of time and patience, you managed reached the same level in your relationship that you did before he died. But then he died again. Do you think you could handle losing him a second time?"
He didn't dare look at Andre. He knew very well that the man didn't want to talk about his deceased friend and yet he was using him as an example. Was this just another mistake? Would Andre end up hating him too? His ponderings were briefly interrupted by the intrusion of a Minun, who slipped Andre a valentine before leaving. Izaya couldn't help but laugh a little between hiccups. So, it had found them even under there. How cute.
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Posted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:29 am
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[Buffet Area: Under the buffet table with Izaya]
"Perhaps not literally, but actively shutting people out is a mechanism used to keep what's inside safe." He knew that all too well. It was safest to keep people at an arm's length, to shield your true feelings and thoughts so others couldn't exploit them. He understood that perfectly...but he also knew that as much as one might say they're fine alone, there's always that deep, lingering loneliness.
Absently, he took the card handed to him with a soft, "Thank you". But his mind drifted as he thought over the situation presented to him. He honestly didn't know what he would do. It was hard to think the situation over clearly, not with the tight knot twisting in his stomach and his lungs feeling like they were constricting. His instinctive reaction was to push the subject away...much as he thought he would handle Vincent's hypothetical return. He knew his immediate reaction would be to push him away, to not let the opportunity to get hurt again happen.
But if he knew what it felt like...wouldn't it be easier to handle the second time? Theoretically, yes. But Andre felt like he didn't have nearly enough data to support that.
"...You make a fair point." He said with a nod, eyebrows slightly furrowed. "Honestly, I can't tell you. As I was before Vincent's...death, I would surely tell you that I wouldn't bother with him the second time around." He heaved a weary sigh and ran a hand through his hair. "But now...I think I would just be grateful to have more time with him." He said it softly, thoughtfully, as he let his hand drop back into his lap. "It's better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all. Isn't that the old saying?" He shrugged halfheartedly. "Losing him again would probably hurt...but at least I would already know the pain instead of feeling this...this unknown...emptiness."
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Posted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 1:12 pm
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[Back - Zacharie, Citrine] "O-Oh..." Shoyo wasn't completely certain if the guy was irritated or not, but if he had to make a choice between the two, it seemed a little more likely that he wasn't. And his companion didn't appear to be irritated either, so he relaxed a bit. "I'm Shoyo," he said, then gestured to the Hawlucha and Rufflet on either side of him, "and these two are Giant and Yuki." He smiled in response to Citrine's question, unintentionally dropping whatever guard he'd been keeping, "Yeah! We've mostly been by the food until now - Yuki especially has been enjoying it a lot. I'm looking forward to seeing what kind of game it'll be!"
the black Hawlucha interjected.
"Yeah, Giant really wants to win," Shoyo translated, then clenched his hands into determined fists. "I do too!"
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