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The wolf accepted her hand which made a smile bloom onto the young womans face as she stroked the wolfs head. " You are so soft." She said softly as she kept stroking the wolfs head until it barked. She was a little surprised by the bark but smiled as it seemed he was trying to say something. " What? You are soft, would it be better if I said you were cute as well?" Lily asked playfully before the wolf nuzzled her neck, making her laugh lightly and wrap her arms around the big black wolf lightly as he nuzzled her. Her arms were wrapped around him lightly so that the wolf can brake free at any time.

When the wolf started to circle her she watched the wolf carefully, studying it almost. When the wolf circling her started to growl she looked towards where the wolf was growling at. " What is it?" She asked softly looking out in the distance. Was it the wolf from last night? Maybe that black creature? The black wolf had stopped growing so it must have been nothing so Lily tried not to stress on it.

The young woman watched the wolf actions, circling around her and giving her a nudge towards her apartment. Something was not right, there was something out there other wise the wolf would not be acting so protective. Another thing Lily wondered about was why the wolf was even acting this way towards her. The wolf should of attacked her like a wild wolf normally would of. The wolf gave her one last nudged before a growl could be heard across the alley. Looking up Lily could see the giant yellow with glowing emerald eyes from last night.

Just like last night Lily felt the same fear that made her freeze into place. Her skin trembled at the side of the blood that dripped from the muzzle of the wolf. Seeing those bloody fangs made her think of the night her parents died and almost re-created that same fear she felt that dreadful night. The sound of the female wolfs aggressive bark made the frail young woman jump a little and step back. She looked at the black wolf before her and worried of what might happen next. She wanted to run but her legs were frozen into place as her eyes were locked on the sight of bloody fangs.

Lily felt another nudge from the wolf which made her step back more away from the two wolves before her. When the two wolves lunged at each other and the sight of more blood could be seen, Lily ran for it. She ran inside her apartment hearing the barks and cries from both wolves. Running into her apartment she grabbed her phone and called Eriks cell phone, hopping he would be able to pick up. Though Erik did not answer his phone and it went to voice mail. " E-Erik the wolf is back! I-It came c-covered.... C-Covered in b-...blood..." It was clear through the sound of her voice on the message that she was scared and that she was starting to hyperventilate. " I-Its attack another w-wolf." She almost screamed at the last word as she could hear a loud bark that scared her before she hung up.

She tried calling again but again it went to voice mail but all she could leave on the message was herself hyperventilating. Dropping her phone on the floor she quickly went for her pills to calm her down and maybe even knock her out so she would not have to relive the night of fear. Without even thinking Lilly popped her pills in her mouth, not even checking to see how much she put in her mouth before curling up into a ball on the floor. The sound of the fight in the alley with the wild animals could be heard almost clear as day to Lily, making her over her hears as all she could hear was the scream of her parents dyeing and all she could see was all the blood on the fangs. The young woman trembled in fear and was almost not able to breath do to her hyperventilating until finally the pills ticked in and knocked her out.

Lily was out cold until around ten in the morning when her alarm on her phone started going off for her to take her morning medication. Slowly her eyes fluttered opened and everything was a blur for the first whole as her head was pounding. At first she did not even know where she was or what was going on. The confused young woman stumbled up onto her knee's and crawled over to the sound of her phone till she felt her phone under hands. She just wanted the sound to stop as her head hurt like hell and the annoying sound was not helping. Turning off her phone she ended up just dropping it on the floor again as she dug her hands into her hair. She felt like sh*t is what most people would say in her case. Stumbling up onto her feet, Lily made her way to the bottle of pills that were on the counter to only find that the bottle was empty. She should of had enough pills to last two more days at least but because she took extra the night before and popped who knows how many pills last night she was out. Confused as to why the bottle was empty for a moment it all slowly started to sink in and she remembered what happened last night.

As fast as her drugged body could let her, she changed into sweats and a clean shirt before grabbing her purse and phone she went out of her apartment and down out into the alley to see if there was anything from last night. Sure enough there was blood and sign of a struggle in the alley. Worried about what happened to the black wolf after she ran off she remembered she called Erik last night. Checking her phone she noticed she got a text from him and felt like an idiot for trying to call him while he was working. She decided not to answer it as she did not want him to worry nor did she want him to see her like she was right now. After looking for any other clues to what happened last night Lily went to a near by clinic to get her refill on her medication. When she arrived and asked for her refill, the woman behind the counter asked if she was alright as it was clear that Lily was not alright. She was flushed, hands twitching, skittish and looked like she had been through hell. Lily simply nodded and took her medication and felt before asked any more any question. She knew if she had stayed any longer that the woman would put it together and ask why she overdosed. Lily didn't want to tell them because she knew what they would think and she would have to see more doctors and be told the same thing over and over again like she has been all her life. " You are over thinking it." "Its all in your head." When she got back to her apartment she went straight to her couch and curled up into a ball, wanting the pain to stop.


(ooc: All the feelz! OMG! twisted

Lily stayed on the couch, not daring to move as she felt like the walking dead.At times she would start to drift off a little but flinch and be wide awake from the sound of other people in the building yelling at each other. After a long period of time being curled up on the couch the sound of the door knocked felt like her brain got hit by a bus. She looked at the door and wondered to as who it could it be knocking at her door. Slowly the drugged up female got up and stumbled her way to the door but on her way to the door she bumped into the coffee table, making her stumble to the floor.

A groan came from the frail dancer as she picked herself up and finally got herself to the door. She hesitated on opening the door before she finally she slowly opened the door slightly, just enough to peek and see who it was at the door. " W-Who is it?"When she took a peek to see who it was she saw her tall blued eyed prince. When she saw it was him she still did not open the door any farther. She had mix feeling about him being here as in one hand she wanted to jump into his arms and be close to him while on the other hand she didn't want him to be here and see her like this.


(ooc: I want to hug them! crying )

Lily staid standing there, not budging at all as if she was trying to figure out how should react to seeing Erik. Her mind was racing back and forth on what to do but at the same time it was slow as ever. She just stood there, looking up at him like a deer in head lights. She did not even notice his hand slip through the crack of the door until a couple of seconds after he held a lock of her hair. When she noticed something holding her hair she flinched and was about to back away when she realized it was only Eriks hand.

She felt the hair he was holding drop as he let go of it and her eyes slowly look down to the ground as the young man asked if he could come in. She started to move the door but it was not to open it, it was to close it. She did not want him to see her like this anymore because she was scared. Scared that he would look down at her, think of her as weak or an idiot for her actions. Though she stopped because she wanted to see him. Erik comfort her by simply being near her and she knew if she acted decent she could lose him. That was the last thing she wanted. Opening up the door more, she stepped aside so Erik could come into her apartment. Stepping away from the door, Lily slowly made her way to the kitchen sink to get a wet cloth. She had noticed the scratch on Eriks face and wanted to clean it before it got infected. Dragging her what felt like a dead body over to Erik and gently placed the wet cloth onto the scratch.


(ooc: my poor babies! T^T )

The young woman gently dabbed the wet cloth onto the mans wounded jaw, feeling his blue eyes looking down at her. Her fogey blue grey eyes just looked at the wound she was tending to until Erik asked what happened last night and she felt his hand on hers. Feeling the warmth of his hand made her stop moving and slowly look down to her feet as if she did something wrong, like a scared dog. " I am sorry... I didn't keep my word." She said quietly, almost as if she didn't want him to hear her say it.

" I saw something in the alley... So I went outside to see what it was. It was another wolf... I-It wasn't like the other one though." She said, almost slightly smiling a little but that little smile went away quickly when she remembered what happened next. " Then... The wolf from the other night came, and it was covered....covered...in..." The frail Lily started to tremble at the thought of all the blood that she had saw. " They started fighting and I ran...I came back in here and called you...I was scared and I guess I had a episode and I overdosed." Lily explained as she glanced over at the counter where a empty bottle stood that was her medication she took last night. With her free hand she clinched her head that was still pounding before bowing her head more. " I-Im sorry..."


(ooc: my little heart DX )

She felt a warm hand being pressed onto her forehead that slightly relived the pain in her head that she had been feeling all day. Hearing Erik stumble over his words she knew that he was reacting to finding out over overdosing on her medication. She knew it was a stupid thing to do but it was the only way to calm her down it seemed when she had one of her panic attacks. Though she normally never took that many. She remained quiet as she felt the warmth of his hand move from her forehead to her neck and a kiss planted on the top of her head.

" N-No hospital!" She said a bit louder then how she was speaking before and dropped the wet cloth. " No hospital... Please... They wont believe me. They will just think that I have lost it." She hated anything to do with doctors in any way. Just going to the clinic and picking up her medication she hated. They never believed a word she said and just assumed things and it always lead to Lily thinking that there was something really wrong with her. They just would pump more medication in her and she did not want that. " Im fine... Its not a first time this has happened. I have had to deal with worse..." Cutting her wrist was not the only way Lily had tried killing herself in the past, she had tried overdosing on her medication to end her life but as anyone could see it did not work out the way Lily wanted to back then.


(ooc: I know T^T )