~Monster of my Heart~(1X1)~(Snerzilly Filled)~

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra felt her wrist being grabbed, eyes widening slightly in surprise. She narrowed her eyes though at the words, "What are you-" Her voice trailed off as she felt the fingers against her neck, shivering lightly. With a mere touch..even a mere glance..Ryan had always been able to affect her. And then she felt something on her neck, a small weight and reaching a hand up, she hissed lightly as she felt a collar, "How dare you?!"

At the order, her face became confused and then horrified as her body moved without her permission, heading to the kitchen and beginning to 'make breakfast'. Brilyra was a bit afraid, and very angry as well. She tried as hard as she could to disobey..but nothing she tried was to any avail. When Ryan entered the kitchen, she glared angrily at him even as her body continued to follow the command, "Undo the command, Ryan," she finally deigned to call him by his name, though her tone was commanding and filled with fury.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan smirked seeing that his collar worked. He leaned against the wall, for once not having to be the slave. "I don't think I will. I'm not your slave anymore Bilyra. I don't have to listen to your orders." he said, watching her cook breakfast.  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra scowled further as he leaned against the wall. "So you feel better now, is that it? You finally get your way again after two years," she sneered then. "Maybe you don't have to listen to my orders, but nothing's changed. You're still a troll on the inside, you've never been a slave there have you? Never felt anything like loyalty or love." Her body continued moving, still making breakfast.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan scowled and looked away from her. "You're wrong . . ." he said and abruptly left the kitchen before she could see the tears that were starting to form in his eyes. As much as she tried to hide it from him, he knew that she was still feeling bad over what he had done to her . . . so now he would hide his own emotions. And he still needed to figure out how to get her to understand that he still loved her . . . and was sorry . . .  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra watched him scowl and abruptly leave the kitchen. Hmph. The truth hurts, doesn't it, Ryan? She thought to herself. Breakfast went on being made and she idly wondered how far these commands went..if it came between following a command or saving her life, would the collar let her choose the latter? Breakfast was done and the moment she'd turned off the stove, she could feel free will returning to her body.

Brilyra moved her arms and legs, twisting her body a bit in relief. Glancing at the food, she was tempted to throw it, but then Ryan would probably make her clean it and make more..the collar had some irony too it seemed, making her make one of his favorites: pancakes with blueberries. She'd used to make them for him on all the holiday and birthday breakfasts, and then sometimes just for no reason at all, or if he was sick..she'd always taken care of him. Blueberry pancakes were a huge source of affection and amusement, a joke of sorts..

Brilya frowned at the memory, putting a hand to her suddenly wetting eyes and wiping them as she breathed slowly to calm herself. There was no way she'd let that trollish man see her cry..not again..not that she realized he had seen her cry many times, or even just heard her, since the night she'd made him a troll and assumed he'd gone away rather than stand near her door.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan had calmed himself and was about to walk into the kitchen again when he noticed from the doorway that she was crying again . . . he didn't let himself be seen of course and then walked away, not noticing that she had made blueberry pancakes. He went to the table and ordered her from there. "Bring breakfast to the table." he said, struggling not to let his voice break. He wasn't going to cry, but he didn't want his voice to give him away either. Why did he have to be so stupid when she caught him with that woman? He had messed up big time . . . and could ony hope that she could find it in herself to forgive him . . .  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra saw Ryan at the table and stiffened, sniffing quietly before glaring again as she was commanded. "Troll," she hissed, thinking of no better insult. She brought down in a couple of trips a plate for each of them, a big plate of blueberry pancakes, syrup, and forks and knives for the two of them along with water to drink. "Happy now?" She asked snidely, starting to walk away. The collar had made her 'bring breakfast to the table' which included person wise, but she had no intention of eating with Ryan..especially with little images of specially made heart-shaped blueberry pancakes hitting her memory and dancing in her mind's eyes.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan stiffened seeing the blueberry pancakes. He closed his eyes as a pain gripped his heart. As she walked away, he said, in a little over a whisper, "Eat with me . . ." it was worded as an order, but his tone of voice was anything but. He quickly regained his composure however and started to eat the pancakes.  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra heard the whisper, feeling her body instantly turn and sit down to eat with Ryan. But she'd noticed something..the tone..she tried not to let it bother her as she took a bite of pancake, despite her stomach feeling full from the nauseatic pain settled there. Brilyra couldn't help but glance to him as he ate, hating the silence..hating the situation..loving Ryan..so she asked quietly, if a bit stiffly, "How are they?"  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan was equally as stiff as he remembered the answer he always used to give her, saying that the food of the Gods could not compare to the feast that she had set before him . . . but today . . . all he said was, "They're good . . ." unable to keep his voice from cracking and then immediately started to chug the water that she had set before him. Soon it was empty and he got up to go get some more, leaving rather quickly.  

[WitchAlchemist]

The answer was not the usual one..not the one that she truly longed to hear..but she wouldn't hear that answer again would she? That was in the past..the past when she'd thought Ryan loved her..could love at all..And thinking on it, this was the first real food he'd had in two years..being a troll he'd eaten moss and soil..and Brilyra was certain she'd caught him slurping a rat tail at least once..she cringed at the thought of Ryan having to eat a rat. "I suppose.

When Brilyra had finished, she picked up her plate and moved to the sink to clean it, bumping a bit into Ryan as she did so though not intentially. "Your pancakes are getting cold," she said matter-of-factly.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan sighed, his glass of water in hand. "Thank you for telling me." he said and went to the table to finish eating. However he felt like he was going to regurgitate whatever her had just eaten. Like there was a big knot in his stomach. About halfway through, he just set his fork down and stared at the pancakes, and . . . not thinking that Brilyra was around, said softly to himself. "The food the Gods eat cannot compare to the feast before me right now . . ." and his eyes squeezed shut as his face contorted in pain. He should have told her that . . . he was so stupid . . . A few solitary tears dripped from his eyes to leave a small trail of wetness down his cheeks.  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra watched as the other sighed before going back to the table. Eventually she grew tired of her position and moved back to the table..only to watch Ryan's eyes sqeeze shut while he spoke words that made her heart twinge. She tried to tell herself it was only right..hadn't he watched her cry and done nothing that night? But..she moved to him, using middle of her pointer finger to gently brush at the tears, a hand at his neck with the thumb brushing across his neck skin for a brief moment, murmering, "Ryan.." Before she pulled away and sat back down, taking another bite and once swallowed she said softly, "Well then, make them jealous and eat already," ..one of her usual replies.  

[chibi_blue_mouse]

Ryan felt a bit of happiness well up in him as she said her normal response. His skin tingled where she touched him but when he continued to eat, the food seemed to stick in his mouth . . . but he forced it down. He had to admit that it felt . . . awkward . . . he had seen or heard her crying, and never comforted her . . . and now she had caught him in his tears and she had done what he hadn't . . .  

[WitchAlchemist]

Brilyra was finished now, so she simply sat and sipped at her water, looking anywhere but at Ryan. The silence was irritating her though..when he was a troll it had been different..that was expected..but this was akward and she hated things to be akward. "You should probably take a bath, now that you'll actually fit," she said plainitively. Memories flashed through her mind of when they'd spent hours on end taking baths together..just enjoying each other's company..or each other's lips..warmth..