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Angel of Death was interesting to say the least.

Love/lust/etc can be like a death depending on how far someone takes an....obsession. I don't say that to mean that you are obsessed or anything. Hell, love can be obsession. You can't get the person out of your head and it just drives you mad.
To give yourself so totally to a person that they pretty much own you is just something I never wanted to do....until about a year ago. I have known my "Lady Fair" for two years, but last year it became apparent that I would gladly let her rip my heart out and I would still smile about it.
All in all, very good and yet so dark to me.

Welcome.

For some reason, the word "lust" just popped out. Not sure why really. Anyway....


Oh, ok. I understand what you mean now. I just re-read it and it makes sense now. Sorry. I guess today isn't one of my days, lol.

Okay, here's a new one. I have to say, it's not of the best quality, but I figured since I haven't written or posted anything in quite a while, it's not bad. It's kind of thrown together, but that perfectly matches the frame of mind I was in at the time. Here ya go! Hope you like it. Please comment either way.


Endlessly Twirling

Under the dark night sky,
I twirl in endless circles.
Reality and dreams blending,
Until nothing is as it seems.
Dizzy and disoriented,
A temporary ease of pain.
I watch as people become
Only shadows, wishing
I could disappear as well.
No longer can I feel
The sickness inside me,
The flames in my heart,
The chaos of my thoughts,
Or the pain of my dead soul.
Everything spins at once,
Faster and faster it goes.
Until finally, I fall to the ground.
The spinning slows gradually,
And everything is as it was.
Except my heart, which has
Shattered completely.

Thanks for the comment, Kharne.

Sadly, what you said explains it pretty much accurately. If only I could escape permanently. But that wouldn't be fair, I guess. Everyone has to deal with their own pain, no matter how intense. That's life. The only other option is death. And I choose against that, at least for the moment.

I have to agree with you to an extent. You're right, there's usually someone to share my sorrows with, someone to help me through my pain. And for that, I am grateful to have the friends and family that I do.

However, for this specific pain and heartbreak, the one that's been nagging at me for over three months, the one I can't bear to keep suffering from, I am thoroughly alone. I can't tell a soul, at least, a soul that actually knows me. I can't afford to let it out, to let it slip, or I'll lose the one thing that means the most to me. My love.

A little bit of me dies everyday and I feel I lose the trust of my love, and they don't even know it. Hell, I can't even trust myself. I've fallen down and no one's there to catch me because no one realizes that I've fallen.

you're a very good poet

Wow. It's been a while. I would've posted sooner...but I had nothing to post. Sorry. I've finally written something, and I'm very proud of it. Definitely a favorite of my own. Hope you guys like it.

Forget Valentine's Day, This Is Eternity

See all those people
Buying gifts for their "lovers",
Giving pricey things
That mean nothing, to each other.

Like this day means more
Than every day of the year;
Taken for granted:
"It only comes once a year."

I'll give you something,
Something of which you are a part.
Something that will last,
I'll give you all of my heart.

So forget the chocolates,
And the little candy hearts.
And forget the roses,
And the Valentine's Day cards.

Down on my knees, babe,
I present to you my heart.
It beats for you, babe,
When we're together or apart.

You feel these arms, babe.
They're for holding you, always.
You taste these lips, babe.
They're for taking your breath away.

You feel these hands, babe,
They're for entwining own souls.
You feel this love, babe.
It's for making you whole.

You hear these words, babe.
They're for whispering in your ear.
You hear these vows, babe.
They're for relieving your fears.

I will comfort you,
Take away all of your pain;
I'll make you happy,
Never to be sad again.

I promise to stay,
To always be right by your side.
I vow to love you,
A love need not be justified.