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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 8:40 am
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Posted: Fri May 12, 2006 5:40 am
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I just thought I'd introduce myself before I posted. Let's see, what do I want to say about myself...oh the options.
I'm obviously a night owl (here it's 5:30 in the morning, and I've been up all night), though I should work on that. I'm 24, just graduated as a Creative Writing major (so I can use the mythology for something...), looking to go into a field of Art or Design. Recently I've thought that if I want real insight into other ways people have lived, my best bet is to hit the Anthropology section, not the New Age section...
About that. Well, I consider myself to be a quite spiritual person, but I won't tie myself down to any system of thought, or dogma, or ideology, or god, or ritual. Because of this, I've been labeled by some New Agers as "dark". That is, basically because I won't submit to their way of thought and do what they tell me, I'm automatically (to their minds) "evil".
I'm probably going through a transformative period right now. In the past I thought I was psychic, but every other person I've run across who called themselves psychic besides my mom has proven to not know jack about what they're talking about. So I'm questioning whether psychic ability exists at all, basically. The more scientific (but how much more?) explanation of what I've gone through is that I might be experiencing some form of dissociation.
The community (nonmedical) term for this is "multiple"...and right now I'm pretty much feeling that it may be a long-term part of who I am. I have records going back at least four years where I've been experiencing the same thing, with the same "voices" coming through me. I've traced it and it goes back to when I was 11 or 12.
I also have a couple of other psychiatric diagnoses, which may come up in the course of my writing, as I'm very honest; but it isn't my intent to scare anyone with those right now. I mention the multiplicity because it's a big part of what I'm going through at the moment, with my just recently recognizing that I'm going through this and reaching out for help on it to the wrong places. And yes, I do see a psychiatrist.
I feel that I'm being led towards some form of naturalism because of my experiences. Like I read someone else say here, it's not that I'm really choosing to be atheist, it's just that there aren't that many other rational options.
Right now I use the concept of a god, but I make no claims to its existence outside of my mind; actually, I'm more likely to say it doesn't exist outside of my mind, and that it's just a conceptual tool. I'm a bit unsettled by the thought that I really have no clue as to what's actually going on in the world, outside of my mind. Oh, and right; I've never taken a philosophy course. The horror. wink
I have a tendency to say too much, so I'll stop here and continue in a post.
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 7:56 am
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Posted: Sun May 21, 2006 8:35 am
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Posted: Mon May 22, 2006 4:26 pm
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Posted: Wed May 24, 2006 3:21 am
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Posted: Wed May 24, 2006 4:16 am
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Posted: Wed May 24, 2006 2:18 pm
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Posted: Fri May 26, 2006 4:30 am
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Posted: Mon May 29, 2006 6:09 pm
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Posted: Mon May 29, 2006 7:23 pm
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Posted: Wed May 31, 2006 2:05 pm
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'Ello everyone. I'm Nephrastar, otherwise known as Neph, Oreo, or NodiriaSama.
- I'm 15 and I'm now freshmeat (freshman) starting in August. My birthday is April 6th.
- I listen to techno, alternative, new age, heavy metal, and Japanese Rock and Japanese Pop, but I'm really into heavy metal and J-Rock.
- I used to be pagan due to the influence by my parents, but I decided to become an athiest because I never really believed in a true god/goddess. However, I like reading about the pagan/wiccan religion, along with pretty much anything that has to do with spirituality.
- I enjoy making graphics with Photoshop CS, but I'm horrible when it comes to coding layouts and profiles at the moment. If you want a good looking signature or something along those lines, just PM me.
- I would like to become a web designer, software developer, computer programmer, author, mangaka, or a teacher for a computer class when I get to college. I am also interested in learning Japanese, Russian, and German while there.
I guess that's me in a really big nutshell.
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