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I might not actually have any friends. Even by my own standards.

Sad thought.

It's so hard to be Kegan, and nobody really cares.

When I lay down in bed I can hear the sounds that I wake up to every day.

Life is disturbing

Also it still feels like monday.

Monday is when I cycle to the sad feelings lately.

I'm numb enough to probably be able to fall asleep anyway.

It's not easy watching your tenuous hold on sanity slip away.

It'd be super if I knew what that was.

I should sleep on it.

I heard it's a general rule that people put as much into a relationship as they get out of it. It's not just something wrong with you.

I feel like I'm driven almost insane by the sounds I wake up to every day as well, and don't have many friends either? sweatdrop

Any of those things can change over time if you want.

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Classic Avatar is here.

I think when you start hearing them when they're fast asleep it probably means you're over the edge.

I think it started a year ago, ironically, in Orlando of all places. The long car trips with Jude being absolutely demonic caused me to experience this... as well as the sensation of moving down and backwards on the river rapids ride in Disney's Animal Kingdom.

I mean, it's pretty hard not to think a thought. A thought can tear me a part. a thought can sour my mood. It's like Inception, but in a more realistic sense. The little men are on the outside of my head, and it's easier to just keep the channels occupied by different information. When I'm going to sleep though, they can find their way into my thoughts... in the silence.

It's funny that I describe this one with such enthusiasm, because it's not even the biggest problem in my life. It's the only sensoral one, and I guess by extension the only one that's got me certain I've gone bananas.

I don't understand what do you think you did @_@

also me saying he was on my balls about everything doesn't mean I hate him all of a sudden u crazy