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 Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2012 1:02 pm
Zephyrkitty The Eleventh AK god damn animus breaking my brain They do that sometimes. It's really frustrating. What show? Speaking of animus. Wayne, you mentioned enjoying Fate/Zero? Puella Magi Madoka Magica has the same writer. The cast is all cutesy anime girls instead of adult men, but there are definitely similarities between the casts for both. You read what he said as "animu"s and I thought he was talking about Assassin's Creed. But now that I think about it it could go either way.
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2012 9:05 pm
In person people talk over me so much I have to pick and choose the words I can actually squeeze in.
Online. ********. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel obliged to talk sometimes because I can. I think you guys would be surprised to meet me in person. I've formed a lot of different personas.
Mostly to cope with my social anxieties.
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2012 10:56 pm
i hasn't posted in awhilez i realise.
im down in san diego hangin out with my whole family, walkin the nice beachs looking at the nice beetches.
went and saw the one house from Top Gun where Tom Cruise did Kelly McGillis, cali has taken real good care of it >_>... windows boarded up, fenced off, no growing plants of any kind left you'd almost NEVER tell the difference <_<
the 4th i watch literally 20 minutes worth of professional fireworks go up in 4 seconds at 4 locations at the same time down to the millisecond.
also, got my neck burned pretty bad by the sun. but thats how it goes. xD
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 12:34 pm
When it comes to fake friends I wonder if the posturing was the part I liked or the way they are around others. I think about myself and my own behaviors and I come to the conclusion that the answer is probably both.
I suppose I only care because it becomes personally hurtful.
I wonder if that makes me selfish.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 12:41 pm
[Kegan] When it comes to fake friends I wonder if the posturing was the part I liked or the way they are around others. I think about myself and my own behaviors and I come to the conclusion that the answer is probably both.I suppose I only care because it becomes personally hurtful. I wonder if that makes me selfish. I am completely lost. What kind of social anxiety do you have, anyway?
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 12:56 pm
I haven't seen a psychologist in probably about a decade. I couldn't tell you book names for my problems, but these days I mostly get anxious and exhausted when I have to deal with large groups of people(large to me probably being more than 2 other people). I also feel guilty and isolated because I still don't get simple social cues sometimes. Who knows why that makes me feel guilty, but I believe it does so it must.
At the same time I feel a much more physical isolation due to the fact that I've made myself inaccessible because of the former problems.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 2:41 pm
"The Protomen" are the big name show but I find myself listening to their associated act "Makeup and Vanity Set" more often. Are any of you familiar with them? Some of you I'm certain are. Others should look them up. Or click
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 3:22 pm
I'm familiar with them. Protomen are way better.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 3:59 pm
I have a soft spot for cheesy, soundtracky music.
I probably linked to one of the worst songs for an example, but it was the one I was currently listening to.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 6:46 pm
Nomega [Kegan] When it comes to fake friends I wonder if the posturing was the part I liked or the way they are around others. I think about myself and my own behaviors and I come to the conclusion that the answer is probably both.I suppose I only care because it becomes personally hurtful. I wonder if that makes me selfish. I am completely lost. In response most specifically to this comment, I should say that I often feel betrayed * by the differences between my rather unreliable perceptions of others, what they put on, and what they "are." I get hurt, but I myself employ many modes and masks. Is this deceitful when I do it? No. I was merely wondering if there's a difference that justifies my feelings. And at the same time, I have to acknowledge that of the many personae which I and others employ, there is a possibility that none may be truer or falser to the "inner self." Does that help at all? *this is a poor choice of words because I am often too unwilling to get involved to feel anything like that.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 7:22 pm
Sounds like you commit the classic blunder of thinking too much.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2012 7:28 pm
The power of thoughtful streams makes canyons in my brain.
Thoughtful Canyons. Good name for an album.
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2012 7:58 am
It's the Spam Can, friend, get over it.
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2012 10:16 am
So, I got and finished Song of Susannah in about 3 days.
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2012 12:22 pm
Well, holy crow. That sure was an MSPA update, huh?
Says Kegan, in the forum where he only knows of maybe 3 (inactive) members that also read it.
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