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Well, um. I've got the idea in my head if when I'm feeling down, I can just occupy my mind with exercise. If I exercise, I can get better circulation and blood pressure and maybe I'll feel better in general. Its as much about small steps as big goals and plans.

Lately, whenever I've wanted to go to sleep in the middle of the day, I've been playing the trampoline game and other stuff in wii fit U. (I don't mess with body test. It's method of dropping you in games without explanation isn't a very good metric for aptitude. also it makes you set weight goals, and I don't have any.) It seems silly to be flailing around to get my blood pressure normal, but it works, and for a while I don't feel exhausted, and it's actually fun. You could do anything, though. When the weather is nicer I like to walk. I still like to walk, but my dog's really sick lately and I feel bad when I walk without her, because she KNOWS.

Also, it's like... Nice to get stronger? A couple weeks ago I was really out of the hang of doing push ups, and now I'm getting back in the swing of it.

My preferred indoor cardio is the half-jack, which is a jumping jack, but without the repetitive shoulder stress.

I made a pizza with 3 cheeses over toasted pecans today. If you've had pecans in not-candy form, you might have an idea that this was a tasty pizza.

Oh god pecans... I have only had them in pecan pie (which is good) but I can't imagine any nut going that well with pizza x(

I could DDR for exercise but it'll just give me crappy grades and make me feel worse maybe xd Oh, and it's a PAIN to set up here. My tv is too small and not at eye level when standing so it needs to be put on top of something.

But when I do it gets so damn hot and sweaty that I can hardly stand wearing clothes and the stuff I do wear just gets totally soaked. X_X Aaand it's embarrassing to have people watch you play DDR so I could totally understand the tendency to hide one's more blatant exercising. I personally hide ALL OF IT.

ugh it's such a pain, too. You HAVE to shower again after sweating like that. I'll just not exercise aside from walking sometimes... unless I start getting fat...

My sisters new boyfriend tries to start conversations with me a lot, (like, I don't know if he's trying to be friendly with me, or if he's trying to just get on my good side. If he's trying to suck up to me to get in my sisters good graces, he's a bigger idiot than I initially realized, though, since my sister doesn't get along with anyone in this house.) and one thing he brings up a lot is how much I eat and how every time he sees me I'm eating (I guess he doesn't realize that the only time we're in the same room, I'm in the kitchen.) and that I'm lucky to have such great metabolism.

And I was just like, "well, I'm pretty active..." and my sister's like "You're not active!"

And I guess that they think I'm just in here jerking off all day when they don't see me. So it's working!

DID I GIVE YOU WII FIT FOR NOTHING? LITTLE b***h

I felt the grief for Aeris. Almost didn't want to go on without her. And then the music was like holy s**t emotion. And I was like ;_;