Self-Injury: Advice

[Forsak3nLitany]

I only cut myself when I feel,..trapped; extremely depressed.
But none too deep.
Poetry does help though. It's helped me about three times so far.  

[Forsak3nLitany]

The reason why I resorted to cutting myself was just because of my lifestyle. My mother's in jail, my father works himself to the bone, and I clean and take care of my little brother with a smile on my face. My friends don't know, and I don't plan on telling them. It wouldn't help, and they'd probably see me differently. Anyway, I do it when I feel depressed, trapped, and well, you know the deal.
<3  

[Rainy Rishi-Miku]

I used to cut myself. My story may be a bit different, though.

I cut myself every day since I was in 5th grade when my mom tried to commit suicide. I've tried committing suicide every year since then, and I am diagnosed with Major Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder. I have to take medication everyday just to be able to function. One of the worst things about me cutting, was where it landed me.

I ended up in a Mental Institution. I wasn't allowed any freedoms. At all. It was the most scary thing I've ever experienced. I kept cutting after I got out, cause I was so extremely depressed. It was the hardest thing I've ever gone through.

I'm getting better, but I'm not recovered.

And NEVER read that book "Cutting" by Steven Whats-his-face.
It's a horrible judgemental book. Please don't read it. Read poetry, look at pictures of people you love, go for a run. Just don't get addicted like I did. It started as scratching with a pin, then it ended up with half inch deep cuts and third degree burns. Please, don't start cutting. Don't start self harming.
It's a choice that may seem small, but it can actually effect your life more than you could possibly imagine.

Thank you.

Rainy Rishi-Miku
A.k.a. Hannah  

[Miss G Baby]

i do both physical and emotional self harm does that mean i am super depressed or just normal..........  

[BloodRoseBed]

Actually, to say the truth, the only thing that has actually kept me alive until now is Naruto. I know, it seems silly(for those who don't know, Naruto is an anime/manga). I hate myself with a passion for various things. I hate every single part of myself and everything I do. I once got REALLY depressed. I had the knife in one hand and was alone in my room, yet I couldn't bring myself to do it. I just kept thinking that I would never know how Naruto ended. And that really made me stop... since I'm obsessed with the show. I'm really happy I found anime and manga. I finally found something that I can obsess about and is good for me. (Don't ask what I obsessed for before)

As for other things I need help with are school. I have a good memory so I get straight a's. If I get a a- or lower my parents get mad at me! Do you guys knotice how stressful this is??!?!? I mean, I get an average grade once meanwhile I get better grades than normal ppl do and they get mad at me? I mean,.... what the f***??!? I get stereotyped a LOT.

Then I think everyone is a lowlife and that one day I'll own them all.  

[Miss G Baby]

Emotional Self-Injury:
- Degrading yourself (ex.: telling yourself "I can't do anything right")
Do that all the time...
- Putting harsh labels on yourself (ex.: calling yourself "fat", "stupid", etc.)
do that all the time...
- Refusing to be treated well by friends or family based on the previously listed two
kinda do that...

Physical Self-Injury:
- Hitting things, with your hands, feet, or any body part, until it hurts.
do alot of that...
- Breaking the skin with a sharp object
used to do that...
- Hitting yourself, with your hands, fists, objects.
do that alot...  

[Kaz!nsky]

I grind my fists against the walls in school. They'r iron now.

Is that self mutilation?  

[~Rei the kawii chibi~]

Hmmm...
I tried to stop. But I kept doing it because it made me feel like I could prove to myself that I was someone. Yeah, weird.
Now I am in the situation where it makes my Gaia husband sad, yet my friends don't mind because the know my strong opinions behind it. ((I'm saying, they know it's my choice and they can't change that it was my choice.))

But I don't do it to prove myself to anyone else. I do it to prove myself to myself.

I wanna stop.

I write, draw, cry until I feel better... but it feels like it goes to waste.

The scars are the only things that stay.

I wish I could have a fight with myself; and have the happy side win.

Gyaahh! My head hurts.

Sooo... Uh bye now.

 

[e x m o t i o n a l]

it wasn't meant to get this far
i never meant to hit so hard
now im dying on the floor
every second hurts me more

somewhere far in the back of my head
behind the blinding screen of red
i know i could get up and walk away
but i dont seem to want it to end that way

so i resign myself to finish what i start
and just this once i'll be true to my heart

 

[XXX Zombie Porn]

A Thousand Painful Memory

when i make a cut i show it to all my friends, i'm a proud emo and i don't care whut ppl think

Wow. You're dumb.  

[-Isel-]

You know what?

I'll admit to it. I'm guilty of s**t-tons of emotional self-abuse, and in only particular cases, physical self abuse (of the punching myself and beating objects much harder than my own fists).

Of course, that's OUTSIDE of purely sadomasochistic purposes- when we get into BDSM, I'll cause harm to myself just to get off. That's NOT depression, quite the opposite.  

[alice_downtherabbithole]

You grip my wrists, I let go
It feels so much like falling

I've been struggling with cutting for 4 or 5 years now. Most of my close friends know, and they can all tell when I've done it because I'll wear arm warmers to cover it up.

They all worry and want me to stop, but I say it's not so bad. If I just quit I'll have to find other ways to cope, and I really dont know any.

So basically I'm afraid to stop.

I'm not scared that I'm gonna have an accident. I'm in control when the knife is in my hands. I know a lot of people dont get that, or they thought the same thing when they had a big accident. But I really am in control. I've never cut very deep, and the only one that is deep isnt even an inch long.

I really do try not to do it though. But I always feel so much better afterwards. I know that it's wrong, and I know that I hurt the ones I love, but I like doing it...

I don't want to be a liar,
I don't want to be selfish anymore

 

[Hikaru Akumu]

Mmm. I'm giving both Advice and Past Story

I used to cut for about three years. Stopped a few months back and been blood free of my wrists. But either way, I have an older sister, the first in my direct family to go to college. My parents pressured her so much, and pressured me all the same.

On certain days, my parents would talk bad about my sister.
"She's a Failure" "Don't turn out like her" "She's horrible"
"Don't you ever do anything like her" "She's bad. Very bad."


"She's a Falure", I heard that one the most. They had kept saying that my role model, my older sister, was a Failure, when she was the FIRST one in my DIRECT family of FOUR to go to College.

From those words I started to strive to do my best. Felt like I had to. but I kept failing. And failing. And failing. I would feel weak and lonely at home and I felt like no one understood me. Which not many did.

Then my counselor's found out. Called my parents. Of course, My mother already knew. And I remember her messege to me clearly.
"If that makes you happy, then do it."

She didn't care. She really didn't. I felt unloved and then I wondered if I really truely belonged into that family.

But my family found out, except for my father, and I've pushed through it through Therapy with my counselor I do not visit any more.

Now you know. I had to stop the hard way. With other people finding out. But now I'm free of those scars, and faced my mistakes. I understand my mistakes and locked away my past.

If you truely want to stop, you can. You have to be ******** determined though. Through Hardships, contact people you know you can trust and those who love you. What I do to take my mind off of those depressing things are either watching a violent movie, movie in general, writing, talking it out to friends, talking to myself about it, sleeping, drawing, coloring.

THere are many outlets. You just need to find it.

And Focus on it.

Understand that if you cut, it is your own fault. No one else is making you do it. You're the one who resorted to that. You're the one who gave up.

Never Give Up

 

[buzzoholic]

you r totally right  

[buzzoholic]

i am emo and in love though