Yeahhh, I've never in my life had to pay to acquire a cat, but we paid for all but three of our dogs, even our mutts. (We didn't have to pay much for our pound dogs, though. Nothing like these days, where it's like $200+ to adopt a pound pup.) All of my cats were either rescued, inherited, or we acquired from friends to keep them out of the pound. The cat that kept me going through most of high school and then my uni years just showed up on my grandpa's porch, and he called my mom to have us get the cat since my ma and I are the only cat people in my family. Actually found his original owner, she went to my school and had lived down the road from me. Turned out they had just... locked the cat in the house after they moved out. He chewed his way through a window screen to escape, damaged his teeth doing it. And I just couldn't understand why they wanted to leave him, he was a great cat! Super loving, didn't get into things except to occasionally climb on counters, even dealt with living mostly in a single room for about a year (we lived with my uncle, and he doesn't like cats, so the deal for me to keep Frankie was to keep him penned in my room all the time, though I'd let him out on the sly after everyone went to bed). I could never give my mum a surprise visit while I was in uni because he knew when I was coming home and would camp out by the door and climb on the counters and meow and make a general nuisance of himself the night before into the day I showed up. I had an iguana for a while, boy are those buggers expensive. Tank, heat lamp, food, "hideout" log. I didn't have to pay for anything but the food, thank the powers that be, because I only wound up with him because my friend couldn't take care of him for a while. He was great while he lived with me because I made sure to socialize with him regularly, but once my friend took him back he got MEAN because she never paid any attention to him. Bit me hard enough to draw blood once, and hoo boy injury by iguana is not fun, like being attacked by a bunch of tiny butter knives. Had a bird while I lived with the family of that same friend, some kind of parrot I think? It ended up suffering from similar problems to the iguana. They'd get annoyed by it making noise, trying to get attention, so instead of, you know, PAYING ATTENTION TO IT, they'd throw the cover over the cage, make it go to sleep and ignore it. My ma and I were the only people it was kind of okay with (we were also, of course, the only ones in the house really giving it attention), so we got food, water, and cleaning duty a lot until they gave the bird away. (I think they only kept it a few weeks, pets were honestly lost on them.) My beau and his 'rents used to raise 'tiels! They were really nice, though, well socialized. They had a few babies from missed eggs from Captain Vick (the male) and Quinn (the female), raised them and kept them until they died. They built a really nice bird area in their upstairs not too long after I started dating my beau. Just caged in a big corner space with a small window that couldn't be opened, lined the floor and put up toys, food and water dishes, and roosting poles. You knew when one of the cats had decided to try to mess with them because they'd screech up a storm. They also liked to echo the microwave every time it beeped. My beau had his own 'tiel before I came into the picture, too. Her name was Raven, but she died of old age around the time the beau started actively pursuing my attentions at the library and I never got to meet her.
I... can't eat pizza. cat_sweatdrop Mozz and I do not get on well, and tomatoes are iffy. Had a place where I used to get vegan pizza before I moved, but I couldn't even eat that anymore because the ingredients in the brand of vegan cheese they used changed to include coconut oil, which I also do not got on well with. (All coconut products, actually. My dietary restrictions are a hassle...) So now I can only do pizza at home where we make it with cheddar (which I CAN eat!), and then I have to have the beau make it like pizza bianca since tomatoes are generally out. My beau only eats Domino's when he's desperate for cheap, bad pizza. >>; He used to work at a Domino's, and the ingredients are meh at best, so he doesn't get the urge very often. Mostly we just make pizza at home; WAY cheaper, and we get rewards points from the grocery store to use for whatever we want. We used to have a couple of favorite pizza places at our old place back when I could still eat pizza. Pies & Pints was our go-to for a long time; their blue cheese sauce was delightful, they had tasty crusts, and the gorgonzola and grape pizza was to die for. I was so upset when I couldn't eat them anymore. ;w; Mellow Mushroom was our favorite after I got sick because they had vegan options; they were the one with the vegan cheese I used to be able to eat. We haven't really scoped out the pizza joints of our new place, seems a bit pointless to me since I can't eat anything from them. .__.; His workplace did order in pizza from a local place recently that he said was good. Angelo's or something like that? And his coworkers have warned us away from the pizza place across from his workplace, apparently the only flavor you get there is "smoke."
Mm, yeah, some fanbases are weird like that. I don't go to cons by myself anyway, since anxiety is a b***h. Used to go to Ohayocon regularly with the beau, but once he started working in the restaurant industry, getting weekends off was next to impossible, so no more cons. Which is a bit of a shame, I LOVE cosplaying. Making the outfits, dressing up, being not me, getting to meet people that also love my weird fandoms, it's fun.
We have had a few purebred dogs that we paid for. A couple of basset hounds, Droopy (tan and cream; he was supposed to be lemon and cream but his coat was too dark) and Yuri (tricolor, she was basically my mom's baby and yes, I did name her. As far as my mother is aware, all it means is "lily," which we had wanted to name her but couldn't because my mom regularly watched a little girl named Lily, but if you know, you know.) because my mom is a basset hound nut. And then there's Zeus/Dude, a purebred boxer, we got a discount on him because he came from a friend, he was a gift to my uncle's kids. My uncle also had a chocolate lab, and I can only assume he paid for her, but I don't know where she actually came from. Her name was Mocha, and they didn't keep her active enough and let her have an automatic feeder, so she wound up fat and had bad joint problems before she should have. (She'd have had joint problems eventually, it's in the breed, but the extra weight made it set in sooner.) Oh, and when I was wee (like, six or so, I was in kindergarten), my mom had a bloodhound that was purebred. His name was Jake, and he would let me lay on him, use him as a pillow, read books to him. I was the only person he would consistently sniff out, he didn't care for finding my parents. My mom has a basset mix of some sort now (he's more basset than anything else, he has the ears, the stubby legs, the big paws, the long body, and the hound dog bark) that she got from my beau's mum, he was rescued from the side of the road, still laying with his mother's corpse. His name is Chester and he's a little neurotic. He was up my ma's butt 24/7 for the longest time after she got him, even rode in the car with her. And he wasn't purebred, he wasn't highstrung enough to be purebred, but I had a Dalmatian when I was a kid. He was the best dog, he let me dress him up in clothes, even let me put shoes on him, and slept with me in my bed every night. He rode really well in the car, too, which was a must for us since we spent practically every holiday break driving six hours each way to visit family. His only real downside was that he farted all the time and could clear a room in five seconds flat. (He had problems with constipation, so we had to add a spoonful of metamucil to his food every day, which certainly did not help with the farting.)
Eh, I think everyone goes back and forth between "the world is garbage" and "things will be okay eventually." I certainly do, at any rate. (Hello darkness my old friend.)
Oof, yeah, some of my family can be like that, the marrying distant cousins bit. It doesn't help that I'm related to, like, half or more of the whole county where most of my relatives reside. My extended blood related family is ENORMOUS. Family reunions get crazy. I understand the guilt about talking "bad" about your fam, too. It's something that's basically been ingrained into us since childhood. "Don't say this, don't say that, don't be mean, don't be rude." But I've gotten over it more as I grow up because the "adults" in my family never followed their own rules where me or my ma were involved. Of course, I'd still never air my grievances in front of any family member, no matter how much they might deserve it. Close friends/chosen family that aren't blood related, though, they get the joy of listening to me rage against my blood kin.
I think we can also to point to simple desensitization to shock content for why games get increasingly violent as time goes on. I'm actually not big on truly violent stuff (GTA, Mortal Kombat, CoD, Dark Souls), though. Probably partly because most of the violent stuff is in genres I hate (I'm garbage at fighters, can't play most shooters to save my life, and am not quite enough of a masochist for souls-likes, though I have very good pattern recognition and can make an adequate backseat player for my beau). I'm also not really into gore content. I can deal with it in small bursts, but it can easily ruin a piece of media for me. Give me psych thrillers instead any day. In the end, though, I'm an RPG kind of person, give me a Final Fantasy or Star Ocean and I will be happy for weeks. The only Fable I ever played was Fable II; we own the other two, my beau has played both and enjoyed the first one, but I hated the lack of character customization in the first (also, the computer controls were garbage for me, but there was no controller support on the PC version so I couldn't even switch to that), and despised the micromanage-y town bs of the third. (The beau was kind of ambivalent to the third game, too.)
Ahah, yeah, It's almost like no one actually reads the bible. It seems like only people outside the faith trying to understand it have ever read any significant portions of the bible. Everyone at my church was always all "Liking the same sex is bad!" and I'm just like "*squint* I'm not sure Jesus and his apostles agree with that." And then people these days trying to denounce polyamory as an unforgivable sin, but how many wives did some of the men in the bible have?? And let's not even get into the king that said he would cut a baby in half to settle a dispute of motherhood between two women. Oh! And one of my favorites! The whole virginity = purity schtick; to be a "virgin" in the bible only means a woman is unmarried, not that she hasn't "known" a man, to use biblical terms.
Aye the bible gets crazy when you do read it some, like how we're all incest spawns of the first ever humans. Cause you need not wonder much how those first ever kids had kids to even populate our world at all. Hell is just Hel only now we made it brimstone and fire & added a lot of religious rules to how you end up in it compared to the old if you didn't die in battle or battle hard all the time you can you go to it. Overall just crazy things you slowly notice.
I loved the tiels we had all the same even if they were evil, I sadly feel they may have been evil cause of the pet store not watching over them well. (minus the young one the elder made hate humans.)
I honestly will feel awful in the times I couldn't eat pizza or really anything I enjoy, but that may mostly be cause I never thanks to cases got to enjoy a lot of foods I do enjoy like most have due to past thing & now in my adult life it's "thanks virus you ******** us all." Sadly getting older I fear it'll happen which is why I hate the reality of aging. As for pizza points stuff I wish all of them worked like pizza hut's for the whole $1 = 1 point mostly for it seems the wisest way to do them in my opinion, mainly cause most reasons I don't order pizza many times when I had the money to order (recently as after babysitting the great nieces and one nephew of mine I did have the amount to order some.) is cause I was all two things. 1.) cost for it raised a lot. 2.) hated the idea of need $10 to earn points and it only stays 10 points earned, which sucks when you have multiple people eating the pizza so you spend normally about $45+ just cause two larges for everyone.
I wont lie idk how we got a lot of our pure breed dogs mainly cause we got them when I was really young and the dogs just lived to be really old. sweatdrop But I do know my year older nephew and his mother worked together to get a pug a long time ago which cost them both $400 each & that's of course excluding all the cost of pet supplies for it.
The insane fanbases of people is the reason I feel many of us normal fanbases people travel in a group of our friends for we keep more alive & safe that way.
Posted: Sun Mar 26, 2023 12:01 pm
Tobi Kaito
Yessss. And then don't forget, we did the incest thing twice because it was just Noah and his family in the ark! But then science says we CAN'T have all came from one set of people. Mitochondrial DNA is the same along a family line, passed from mother to child, so if we made a matriarchal family tree, all of the people in it would have the same mitochondrial DNA. Therefore, if we all originate from a single mother at the beginning of the timeline, every single human on the planet should have the same mitochondrial DNA. But we don't! And we know this because it's used in forensics to rule out or rule in suspects, and sometimes to help identify a person's remains. (I spend way too much time thinking about things like this, and all the other inconsistencies in the bible or the way people like to portray the individuals in the bible. There's no way Jesus was white if he came from where he's SUPPOSED to have come from.) Yep, Christianity borrows soooo much from the paganism of Europe. Christmas coincides with the winter solstice, Easter coincides with the beginning of spring, there's some sort of observance around the end of October that would coincide with Halloween/Samhain/harvest season. They did it on purpose, though, to make it easier for pagans to transition to the new religions since they're still basically celebrating the same holidays, just with a different name on them.
Ah, yeah, there are plenty of pet stores that don't care to properly socialize their animals or give them enough attention. Places like that make me sad, every animal deserves the proper amount of attention every day.
It always astounds me how much what you are able to eat or can afford to eat affects how a person feels. I have times when I can't eat a lot of the foods I love, and it makes me pretty depressed and irritable. Especially when someone is all "What would you like to eat?" and it's just like, I'd LIKE to eat a lot of things, but none of them make the list of foods safe for me to eat right now. It does make way more sense for rewards systems to work on a per dollar basis. I guess it's to try to corner people into making larger orders that they have a minimum limit, and then they limit the points to try to corner people into ordering more often. All it really does in the end is feel bad for the consumer and drive them to other businesses when there's a choice, rewards or no. (Because if you don't feel like the business values your patronage, you're gonna take your business elsewhere, provided you have that option.)
Oof, I didn't know pugs were that pricy! I think we only paid like $200-300 for a basset (that would have been something like 15+ years ago, though, prices may have shot up since then). We didn't get any of the paperwork or anything with them, so no taking them to shows or trying to pass them off as champion lineage breeders, but since we only wanted them as pets, that didn't much matter anyway, but if we HAD wanted papers, it would have steepened the cost quite a bit.
Yeah, all of the people I knew that went to cons always went in groups. It didn't even have to be crazy fans, merch snatching is a huge problem if you're on your own, and the number of people willing to try to noncon touch a cosplayer in a short skirt or bodysuit or with a top that shows cleavage is disturbingly high. And if you are 21+ and plan to drink, ALWAYS take at least one person with you, and NEVER leave your drink unattended or turn your back on it. And even without all that, if you're a cosplayer with a large prop or your headwear limits your range of vision, most venues require you to have a spotter with you at all times. I still love cons, and MOST attendees are decent people, but being alone at one is definitely a risk.
Yessss. And then don't forget, we did the incest thing twice because it was just Noah and his family in the ark! But then science says we CAN'T have all came from one set of people. Mitochondrial DNA is the same along a family line, passed from mother to child, so if we made a matriarchal family tree, all of the people in it would have the same mitochondrial DNA. Therefore, if we all originate from a single mother at the beginning of the timeline, every single human on the planet should have the same mitochondrial DNA. But we don't! And we know this because it's used in forensics to rule out or rule in suspects, and sometimes to help identify a person's remains. (I spend way too much time thinking about things like this, and all the other inconsistencies in the bible or the way people like to portray the individuals in the bible. There's no way Jesus was white if he came from where he's SUPPOSED to have come from.) Yep, Christianity borrows soooo much from the paganism of Europe. Christmas coincides with the winter solstice, Easter coincides with the beginning of spring, there's some sort of observance around the end of October that would coincide with Halloween/Samhain/harvest season. They did it on purpose, though, to make it easier for pagans to transition to the new religions since they're still basically celebrating the same holidays, just with a different name on them.
Ah, yeah, there are plenty of pet stores that don't care to properly socialize their animals or give them enough attention. Places like that make me sad, every animal deserves the proper amount of attention every day.
It always astounds me how much what you are able to eat or can afford to eat affects how a person feels. I have times when I can't eat a lot of the foods I love, and it makes me pretty depressed and irritable. Especially when someone is all "What would you like to eat?" and it's just like, I'd LIKE to eat a lot of things, but none of them make the list of foods safe for me to eat right now. It does make way more sense for rewards systems to work on a per dollar basis. I guess it's to try to corner people into making larger orders that they have a minimum limit, and then they limit the points to try to corner people into ordering more often. All it really does in the end is feel bad for the consumer and drive them to other businesses when there's a choice, rewards or no. (Because if you don't feel like the business values your patronage, you're gonna take your business elsewhere, provided you have that option.)
Oof, I didn't know pugs were that pricy! I think we only paid like $200-300 for a basset (that would have been something like 15+ years ago, though, prices may have shot up since then). We didn't get any of the paperwork or anything with them, so no taking them to shows or trying to pass them off as champion lineage breeders, but since we only wanted them as pets, that didn't much matter anyway, but if we HAD wanted papers, it would have steepened the cost quite a bit.
Yeah, all of the people I knew that went to cons always went in groups. It didn't even have to be crazy fans, merch snatching is a huge problem if you're on your own, and the number of people willing to try to noncon touch a cosplayer in a short skirt or bodysuit or with a top that shows cleavage is disturbingly high. And if you are 21+ and plan to drink, ALWAYS take at least one person with you, and NEVER leave your drink unattended or turn your back on it. And even without all that, if you're a cosplayer with a large prop or your headwear limits your range of vision, most venues require you to have a spotter with you at all times. I still love cons, and MOST attendees are decent people, but being alone at one is definitely a risk.
(I can't chat long due to hour and in about a short time now I got to get off and prep for our group's D&D, so I may be doing a cut off in the middle and then coming back to say more stuff. Normally I'm up earlier but last night was a rough night sleep.)
Aye all the stuff from the bible & our scientist makes the world a much more confusing case, especially after years of years of family forced on us religion cause of being a child you get that weird mix 24/7 no matter the case IF you were forced to attend your parents' if not whole family's church of a certain religion. (I been for years away from church & on bad days it feels I drag closer to Hell for not attending one cause that is how "get to church." they were.) Yet weirdly at the same time I been out of church for ages I'm also less bothered at the same time normally and when you have scientist doing studies I'm completely screwed over in mind for I want to be all "yeah see so there is no issue missing a church day for it's clearly most the time them just wanting hope, but then the mind of when you were a child comes and is all "but do we risk it?!"
The cosplay world is quite dangerous for everyone & I feel bad for all the female cosplayers most due to the dreaded fact most heard cases is with them for that creepers touching unwantedly stuff, and most of that is due to weird as it is most males wont complain if it occurred to them for "it's a sign we were weaker & it'll get us mocked by others." (And I'm not joking that's our case for I dealt with the school issues of mine alone mostly for the worst offenders of bullies were females, and you think with males on males they'd report more, but nope we were taught the messed up thing of keep it to self to not seem weaker and if it's a dude & dude case kick their arse. Course I can't say for the age of now with how times are ever changing.) But overall it's always best to have a group you're with that you trust so everyone can keep safe.
(Well here is where I have to cut off for now to come back later, I'm running that tight on time game is at 2pm & it's now 1:55pm for us here.) *Back from D&D and other distractions now*
I wouldn't order too much cause of reasons we all know with life no matter how good those kids of food can be, but when I do order it would be preferred to get it the whole $1 equals one point deal if they did a point system for fast food or just in general delivery orders if they go having one for it will attract more people, and people would talk about it more cause here I am talking Pizza Hut while ours in town is dead still for that's how their points system for rewards worked before they shut down over here.
I don't know why it was such an expensive pug tbh for in my mind it being a pure breed should have at most only been $400 alone, being mean to the dog now it especially should have been $400 only seeing as it was too stupid to understand sex was sex which made puppies that she never had any pups much as she wanted to be a mommy pug. I loved that pug all same in our family even if it was with them more as you could tell she was loyal screaming her lungs dead when any of us she knew and loved walked out the door to leave places. (which sure that's annoying for the noise but least you know humans are loved by a dog when they get that way.)
Posted: Mon Mar 27, 2023 11:17 am
Tobi Kaito
Yeah, plus all the people out there that think anyone involved in science is trying to play god or undermine god or whatever. After a certain age, my parents had to basically drag me to church. I was a decent, rule-abiding child (I was terrified of consequences), but I was forever getting in trouble for not wanting to attend Sunday service. But like, you don't NEED a church for worship, so it didn't make sense to put up with all the snobby holier-than-thou people in the congregation when I could read the bible well enough at home, and it's not like prayers only work on one day or only in specific places. There was just so much that didn't make sense, so I gave it up as soon as I got the chance, and to everyone that says I'll go to hell for it, I'm pretty sure they'll be there with me if it turns out they were right.
Ahh, yes. Plus people still have the mentality of "if a person is dressed like THAT, then they're as good as asking for it!" Yeah, the traditional "alpha male" rule set is... SO stupid. And still fairly prevalent from the stories I get from my beau's mum (she works in a school guidance office). More people need to give up that bs and be like "It's okay to feel and cry no matter your gender identity, and speaking out about unwanted attention or physical contact is nothing to be ashamed of." But as the world is, I still always walk out my door perfectly ready to commit violence against anyone who would threaten my person.
Yep, and I think most people are like that these days, tightening up extraneous expenses like takeout, so you'd think businesses would be trying to capitalize on smaller purchases more, but what do we know, we're only consumers. cat_rolleyes
Awww, poor little derp pug! Maybe she was meant to be a breeder, though, even if she was, ah, a little challenged in the puppy creation process? I'm pretty sure purebreeds sold with intent to breed run more expensive. That or maybe someone was fluffing her lineage with show dogs... My ma's pups are like that! They howl up a storm when someone they know arrives, trying to get them to visit them. Then they howl more when the people leave because they want them to stay. Except for the Rotten Aussie (what we've termed the rottweiler, Australian shepherd mix) Opie, he doesn't make much noise, but when he wants attention, he purposefully tips over his water bucket. We took water down to him half a dozen times in one evening once when I was visiting... Opie was actually supposed to come to me and my beau eventually, but since he's part rottie, no lessor would let us have him. Plus he's a terror when left unattended inside for any amount of time (he destroyed a couch once while my mom was asleep, and that was the official end of his being allowed inside days), and he climbs fences as easily as most people climb a ladder. He also knows how to slip a choke chain collar when he's determined to be loose, which thankfully is not very often, and he always comes back home after a few hours of running. He's too smart for his own good, honestly.
Aye that church holier-than-thou attitude is what honestly killed my care for religion a lot sadly even as a child. (apart from some churches before we found the "normal" one came around to us.) I quote the normal for right after my father and I & shockingly a lot of our family members only a few times still attending it time to time as they changed we heard news that kept us from going & had me thinking 'Why must a lot of churches in our small town of Emmett here go nuts?' Cause soon after my father and I quit going for good to it for reasons mostly due to his health and with me age reached where no one forced me to even occasionally go it anymore (literal escaped escaped age for me was when I hit eighteen finally though I did not attend so much with the earlier ages I shared before it counted to me as not going.) so at 18 I could finally feel free free, but all same it was nuts right after. They went back to the early 2000s anti-Harry Potter attitude, the age of hating on D&D again (I wasn't around for the first time or just too young idk when they had it themselves at the church I just knew older people than I whom hated it was happening again.), we had them hating on Shrek cause of some memes out in the world we all know about, & overall take anything church hated for it was not of god they went back to or started to hate on it, and all of that was due to taking in a new use to be a Mormon pastor & also a Catholic priest as the pastor of this Christianity church. (I wont be mean and say it was cause they didn't know their own path it's why the church went to shiz, but same time as one whom also been the "doesn't know my own shiz." I can say when that happens we do create shiz trying to figure ourselves out. And cause we all been there as humans, we all know how that is really except apparently the few people at the old church I use to attend that think anyone leaving was leaving cause the devil got them and not cause the place was going nuts for a person didn't have their life together overall.) I would go attend magically if I knew if they stopped having that person or changed, but I also don't want to head back if I don't have to or they still got that attitude in it. (Sadly honestly thanks to last few months of 2019 for me & all of 2020+ stuff as late my attitude is quickly yet also slowly drawing toward that "I don't care if I'd be banned and seen as a sinner if I smacked an idiot for being an idiot." state & I would do the "idiot" slap in the back of the head on even the pastor & say "God doesn't give a rat's droppings if you like most the s**t you're saying he'll hate, he just wants us all to acknowledge him" and worse off of me is I wouldn't even care if smacking a pastor that nuts could land anyone some jail time mainly cause I feel somebody someplace has to do it sometime or else we'll get a world versus all religion war someday if they keep getting this nuts. Least in my mind it could happen idk reality, but seeing and dealing with some fellow humans I feel it could happen and sadly some days I feel it could happen in our times alive.)
Yeah the mindset of this "alpha-male" is a dumb one I don't get at all & honestly being cruel I look at it and think "So you want to live like we're not a civilized species & instead do like wild life? cats eat the young when stressed so why not humans? lions have one king whom is allowed to breed with all the females? Ducks are rape crazy? Is that all what some nut jobs want now we follow suit to wildlife?!" cause if that is what they want they got a insane twisted mind worse then people locked up for having one. (I also got this talk this way due to my year older nephew found a video of a young person wondering why we didn't just live like all our animal friends in the world do for a better life. And some of what I said was said back at them as comments to that video.) I feel we all leave our homes prepared for the worse cause the world is as it is doesn't matter gender you are. (though most will always say women have it rougher which is only slightly true due to there is a lot more stupid men out there that are being "I'm an alpha-male!" minded individuals they riddle the world more sadly in comparison to the female version I call the 'Lady Hyenas' that are just as bad as the alpha-males but less known cause of how sadly many males got raised in past it's rough to come out and admit it occurred in the world for the world still sadly has quite a lot of the "Males can never be a victim." views. And to the few whom are that minded I literally want to go "Oh okay males can't be victims ever so I guess we release all those female teachers whom enforced sex onto a few of their male students cause the males clearly weren't the victim in that scenario, so the teachers are innocent now?" Honestly the world is dark we got a lot of cases out there unknown to some for they wont open to it all happening around them, and it's more nuts places go trying to ban all weapons to solve issues as well for even with that it's "Hey you know bad people are still going to find ways around these laws they always have." Heck us 'innocents' possibly got them too, we just don't go sport them around like the criminal ones go doing a lot more as they're doing crimes with them 9/10 times with the 1/10 being they got it for their own protections to use when things get sour for them. (also depends areas of living and what all is "banned weapons" in those areas for in America alone one weapon can legal in my state but in another having it even in my car is considered a crime there.) And the part I find most hilarious is the US we got places that ban the weapons, but then we also have classes that teach the said weapons banned & stores that openly sell them to people and tell them it's illegal so store it safely. (I know cause I got a few of those melee focused kinds all of which my town bans as weapons to own yet magically sells to the people & has classes to learn to use them. Mainly looking at my Nun-chucks & then my wish listed katana & sai which is the TMNT weapons made real & useable from a store I found that has them. Only one I don't got but plan to get for it's cheap is Donnie's bo-staff the only one that is still legal for you can pass it off as a walking cane when hiking or walking for long hours. And we all know why I'm getting them as I openly shared I'm a fan of TMNT so having made real ones of their weapons I could own to defend my home *let alone myself as I'm just by the front door with my bedroom door how this home is built up here* from any burglars or worse as our town has the nasty occasional cases of someplace in town a murder happened close by *which is why we even own the illegal gun* so as citizens we all just are prepared up for that stuff.) I got the nasty habit like our cats where I like to people watch at times when they return home so I know our neighbors on this avenue got some fancy illegal weapons to our town things too all of which when seeing I honestly just told them the lines "we all got some, so together we're going to keep this avenue safe." (best part also that I find hilarious is nobody cares we got them which includes the police in town *long as we only got them for defense & not to do crimes as they told us for owning them* apart from the Karen neighbor whom makes a big deal out of all things any ways we got no care and will laugh when she seeks help & our "illegal criminal weapons" will come and save her life.
I loved that Pug I believe she was raised to breed but sadly she wasn't wise to breeding so she never had any pups, just would go steal kittens and puppies from any animal that did to attempt to mom when she wasn't mom built as she had no pups so she had no milk to give. (Derpy gal wanted to mom and just had no clue that the mounting was part of that process to do so, as in her pug mind the mounting was attempted tackles for wrestling & not "wrestling" *I had to for all the bad joke reasons of how we hide that stuff from youths as the tale goes "mommy & daddy were just wrestling"* said in all media adult shows that have that scenario happen.) And even with the loud wails of dog she did it was good to know she loved enough to freak out people left her, thankfully though she was a destructive pug just a noise maker. (mainly say lucky for she lived most with my older sister Claudia whom lived on her own until recently due to her health concerns {she had seizures in her past, and a surgery to stop them has her now being mind of a child now, so she needs aide for that reason cause otherwise she'll run into nasty sorts of people and worse.} so a loud when person leaves but not destroy was good for that reason, specially when I babysat her pug the times our father was in the hospital and I was alone at the childhood home surviving all I could with all the pets we had. As leaving to go to a store with no Pug made her scream and returning only to have her scream seeing me back was good.) Wish we still had Cleo the pug around but she got too old around 2019 herself like my old dog Petey and both passed away that year with Petey in summer July 1st & Cleo in the Winter Christmas eve which is why 2019 we all dragged Claudia around town for a fun look at Christmas lights around towns Christmas day then ended returning to my older brother Jim's place to open family gifts to one another.
Those get destructive of home dogs are scary to leave alone for you feel bad having to & you got to worry what needs replaced. xp I love them still by all means but they get so rough to keep around if they keep being that destructive to items too. (thankfully in our family we would just find family whom have a schedule that keeps at least one person at home these hours most times so any destructive pup/dog has no worries to stress and destroy.) Which is possibly why Sasha got ditched onto us I feel, I'm not 100% cause for one Austin her old ex-owner is kind of hated by all I couldn't begin saying nice things specially after things we all learnt about him in our family & he's also got a vibe so bad our friend here upon meeting him first time was all "he gives off bad juju." (not his real words but we all know my meaning.), two I just wont risk chance she is for my year older nephew has a PS5 & my now old as is xbox360 are both pretty valuable systems we don't need a destructive force visiting, Lastly the third case is honestly we're mostly always filled with one or two people as Nathan works in tech departments of a school in mornings aiding them in programs and such as he was always tech built, my nephew Travis here works as a doorman at an Irish pub out in Boise or Nampa (ngl idk the exact spot I just know he works at one) in the night, & my case is atm idk what to do in life right now for work so I got jack shite & always am home to I'm trying and debating to make a let's play channel and pray I get fame enough I can be paid to do just that as I wouldn't have my concerns to leave pets alone or deal with bad kinds of people face to face I may get horrible at them for grow tired of the BS cases. (I got mixes of my blood I know are types not to deal long with people being BS to other people as it passes down to all family members cause we go seeing our family members be the same way if not hear tales of it & I can say for my case I seen my dad and heard tales not just from him but from my older siblings about mom not taking BS even when she was pregnant with me as she literally fought with thugs at a store giving another woman a hard time that leads to my dad sharing how he also joined in defending both when the punks tried shite by pushing my mother whom held her ground and didn't fall but got all "You lil' shite did you just shove me a pregnant with child woman?!" before she got all attack mode my dad had to actually hold her back to cause cause damages on the punks he was the more "punks leave or you will be in the hospital today." kind of case.) So safe to say I got those both in me so I could go berserker man on a person giving BS with words or even actions if they do an action. (which I know I can for in school it wasn't long or even a real fight as a bully once head locked me when I tried to get to class by the stairs and I literally just tossed him down the stairs shocking many students whom witnessed it as they didn't see me as the type of person to do so, but mostly possibly cause it was three flights seeing as we were on the third floor & I was seen as weak as for I was quiet, kind, and friendly otherwise.) I still got called called in for fighting as some other bullies friend to the one whom grabbed me went and told on me doing so, but hearing the tale of what I did I feel scared the principal whom hated me for no good reason as he actually heard out my side of the tale too that day. Meanwhile the vice principal started asking me if I have such strength why I don't do sports and I just told him clearly "Cause I got an elderly father at home I need to care for, loads of high schooler's homework assignments to do, and you'll soon seen how the sporty kids feel about me already for liking anime & other stuff I like as I'll soon always be in here for something lately involving them trying stuff and me defending myself." Low and behold for the VP I wasn't wrong as soon as we were put in iss the bully tried again and again I retorted so we had longer times and different rooms soon as iss was done the whole group tried & was pulled back in for using a fellow student as a weapon against his friends, a month later I was in again with them and some friends of mine for they tried again and all of us "nerds" retorted back (I quote nerds for we were all more outcast in general a mix of grumpy violent mind goths, nerds, & (the one I was.) the nerdy gothic ones whom could get violent if pushed. Which the bullies tried on all of us so no shocker one got put through a wooden park table (they tried me & it honestly just ended up that way. *edited to make it more clear as I just thought more with my wording people will get confused I tossed the attacker into the wooden frame works & table top portion, not like WWE slammed them through a table idea, had to clarify better I felt. I had weird toss bullies into or down things attitude and idk why.*), another got beaten so badly they had to get sent to the hospital for knuckles cutting them up (those violent goth pals I mentioned.) and the nerds we had were no more normal nerds as they fought back too against bullies as there were two bullies crying how they used their band and orchestra cases they had beside them before class as blunt weapons. (I loved our group we were good people of no nonsense taking, possibly dumb teens fighting back you could say, but be real whom wouldn't defend from bullies or anyone really coming at them specially in situations of the cases of they had in the event overlooked by dickapal Carter brought knives, tazers, and brass knuckles to beat us all with while we "nerds" just had our own strength mostly, the two whom used the cases only used them to knock away the knives & tazers they could knock and mostly let us more violenter types do the real fighting.) I don't know how but we did get the band friends of ours out of the heat and took it on the rest of us.
And wont lie looking back I wouldn't change things tbh even if I am quite unhappy with parts about my own self (as honestly I'm not the kind whom wants to be violent *even if I spoke like I would be that kind blowing off steam from stress of life* ever, but there I was fighting off bullies or worse if they got to actually use some things they had on us.) & life down in that high school will always be a thing I wish I could change for honest if it was nicer I would have possibly stuck more and actually graduated with peers even with the whole dad's illness case for I could have done that but then not do college asap & stuck with him. (course idk for health is never pin pointed one way or another in life that what seems tame can be doing a lot more than meets the eye.)
Also will add with all of that I honestly got no clue how we magically never got sent to the delinquent school or worse Juvie cause of the fights we were in defending ourselves. (So I'm just going to joke we all had a high luck skill & leave it at that.)
Moving along onto scientist playing the god stuff, that always bugged me some yet also kind of intrigued me as I did like science and learning more things myself. I wont say it could be what stopped my belief in God, for in reality I feel that was more caused by the actual church attendees being horrid about god's views as it started feeling 'Maybe there is no God and they're just trying to control others into their view points which I don't want to happen at all to me so I'm done here with them.' But I'm also not full denounce clearly as you can tell too for I'm all here like I believe just idk what to believe & so I do what scares e most, not go to church on Sundays and just be a good person and read the bible we own here time to time. (which in my childhood wasn't good enough to them and would mean ykw with them would happen to me upon death.) So honest I believe some, just questioning a lot & a little spooked to go trying be in a group of religious folks ever again. (even as much as it feels I'd feel some more relief irl by going to a church atm due to the whole 2020 and such stuff I dealt with.)
But also nearing ever closer 30 as July is on the way this year, I'm hitting those things you know of, of human thoughts and such in my own time and rights, but I'm also only going to be hitting just 30 soon so i still got the "young" thing happening of finding all my shiz about even just myself fully. (And I only quote young as many will argue 30 isn't young, while others will say stuff like "JUST TURNING 30! SO YOU'RE STILL BASICALLY A BABY THEN!!!" and the few saying that about 30 years old are all of course past 30 years old some if not a lot now so they've been there and done that with being 30 already. So my elder brothers, and sisters, their friends, my aunts and uncles I do know and hang around in life still, some grandparents still kicking around in life for life hasn't taken them away yet from me which I'm glad for tbh.
overall I'm mixed feels about soon being 30 still, as idk if I'm excited to hit it or more depressed I'm going to be hitting it this year in a few months now.
Posted: Thu Mar 30, 2023 12:22 pm
Tobi Kaito
I really don't get the holier-than-thou people. Like, we were all created equal in the eyes of God, so how about you get off your high horse there, friendo? So many churches are crazy these days, though, and everyone seems to be looking for any reason to lord over everyone else. Perhaps an independent bible study group would be a better way to step back into it? That way it's not a whole congregation looking to henpeck, and you can be reasonably assured they're serious about the teachings of the bible itself, not just what this or that pastor or priest has said about it. I won't get back into the organized religion, it's just not my thing. I escaped around fifteen, when my parents split and it was just me and my mum, who had never been keen on forcing someone into church if they didn't want it. It has to be a choice to mean anything, and forcing it only breeds anger and hate, which does no one any good (and is how a great many wars get going, honestly). It's not even that I don't believe or that I think anyone who professes to be a Christian is wrong, I just don't think it's the ONLY answer. I think ALL of the answers have a place, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Taoism, Krishna, atheism, neopaganism, even the flying spaghetti monster, so I choose to believe simply in the power of believing. The world would be a better place if more people could accept that maybe all of the answers are actually good answers.
Yeah, I will consistently argue that banning weapons isn't the way to go, because any individual determined to have a weapon will find a way to get what they're after, so in the end you're only punishing the normal citizens by making it harder for them to defend themselves against such people. I do support regulations that make it harder for, say, recently convicted violent offenders, or individuals with a recent hospitalization for suicidal tendencies to get weapons through regular channels. Just because a determined person will find a way doesn't mean we should just hand over a weapon with no fuss. I don't really understand why nunchaku or live steel (sai, katana, daggers, and all the various bladed weapons) would be banned... I mean, except in the case of carrying them concealed, I suppose that would pose sufficient risk. But just to have in your home? Just to learn to wield? Makes no sense whatsoever to limit that, in my opinion. I mean, kendo is a form of sword art technically, but there are plenty of clubs and competitions for that, I even took a kendo course in uni, my beau and I still have our shinai. (And shinai, while no bokken, are still dangerous enough in their own right. With a well placed strike, you could probably manage to cause a concussion, and while most impacts should result only in bruising, it can still inflict sufficient pain.)
Ahh, that's so cute though, trying to mother kittens and other dogs' pups. I've never had a dog or cat like that. (In fact, I've only had two female cats out of the dozen or so cats I've owned, all of the others have been boys, weird. It would have been three, I had little blue point Siamese that I hand raised, the seal point mother wasn't very good at mothering and she was the only one to survive from the litter. Called her Bastet, after the Egyptian goddess. A friend convinced me to give her up to breed once she was an adult, but then they went and let her get loose and a dog ate her... I was so upset, I've dreamed of owning a blue point all my own since the one we inherited from my mom's mom died, but I can't afford to pay for a Siamese.) It's always nice to have solid evidence our pets love us, though, even it comes with the price of noise.
Destructive pets are hard to have. I'd almost have to get them certified as a service animal. I'm home almost all the time, so it wouldn't be so bad as long as they could handle being on their own for a couple hours or so, but when I go out it almost always leaves an empty home because either I'm going to the library and my beau is at work, or I'm going to an appointment or the store, and the beau has to come with me (I can't drive, and anywhere other than the library I'm likely to have a panic attack at the first human interaction on my own, so I always have a chaperone), so any pet that couldn't handle a couple hours would have to be able to come with me wherever I'm going. Thus, service animal. My boys are perfectly good on their own, though, the only problem I ever had was in our studio flat where they clawed at the corners and door frames (partly to mark territory, we had a local cat that liked to come around a lot, a fat black cat named Sammy which we were convinced for months was a pregnant female, but was actually a male that was really fat because half our neighbors put out bowls of food for Sammy, thinking he was a stray). Bought them a couple scratching posts which I set up in front of the most targeted areas, problem solved. Now they know to just go to scratching posts or their own boxes and they're free to wreak as much wanton violence as they desire.
If you do wind up making content, let me know! I can get you a couple of viewers, My beau and I would be happy to support someone small-time, especially if I vouch for them. cat_razz I think dealing with jerks on the internet is easier than irl, for sure. Much easier to just ignore them when they're not physically in your face. Words and knowledge are my weapons of choice, but people will quickly find that I carry through on threats. As a couple of guys at my first high school learned the hard way. They were bothering me in a class, and I told them I'd happily stab them with a pencil to get them to stop. They did not believe me. So one of them would up with a pencil point in his hand. This actually ended up earning their respect, and they kept people from bothering me in that class and on the bus for the rest of the year, and I agreed to be their partner for group work in the class, it was a win for all of us. At my second high school I was mostly just an oddity and a topic for gossip. Though I suppose it didn't hurt that I managed to make friends with the people who were ready and willing to commit violence and risk suspension in their friends' defense. (I'm not sure why I always seemed to make friends with this sort... Perhaps my complete lack of judgment of people based on looks and rumors?)
Most school are actually very hesitant to send kids to juvenile or delinquent institutions. Because being sent there is basically a promise of future criminal activity, since it's basically a training ground for violent and illegal endeavors. So only the really dangerous sorts tend to get shuffled off, in my experience. Anyone that can conceivably eke out a few years in a normal school without TOO much trouble will likely just spend all their time being shuffled into ISS or OSS for their infractions. (But having high luck never hurts the equation. ;p )
I don't think there's really anything wrong with believing and questioning at the same time. Just like it's possible to have faith and be interested in science at the same time. Wanting to understand the world we're in doesn't preclude having faith. It's kind of the entire reason we have most faiths, trying to make sense of all the seemingly senseless things out there.
I don't think trying to figure out yourself and your place in the world ever really stops. My beau's mom is always asking the school kids what they want to do because she's "trying to figure out what to do next." Hell, I'm still trying to figure out my gender identity, and my romantic preferences have been evolving for years as I find the right words for how I feel. The person you are today will not be the person you are tomorrow. And who you are tomorrow will not be the person you are the day after that. And so on into infinity. I dunno, thinking about it like that helps me.
Honestly with religion it feels much healthier to just have a few people, to even yourself & a partner at most whom read the bible, given how lately some church people of the organized religion can be/get. And the worse kinds I had was the few whom liked to play the card of "What would *name of a deceased person of your life anywhere from recent to have been gone for many years of your life now* think about you not attending church?" which honestly a lot of times had me wanting to sass them a storm with a "idk they've been gone for *length of time they been deceased* of my life so I never got to ask them their thoughts now about it." (But I was also heated on that stuff for literally it didn't matter what was going on, if any body wanted me to go do anything they would 9/10 times of my life try that "what would a dead person think?" card, that I honestly just hit done with humans quickly due to them.)
I understand the "possibly only dumb to me & some others" fear that the government officials that fear weapons in the wrong hands got, but as stated the wrong kind of hands people mostly always are the kinds that are in a organization that can handle smuggling the said illegal weapons to them any way it wont stop them, and if you go make things to flip about it all by installing a way to make it so weapons only work in the hands of people whom aren't dangerous the dangerous ones you'll learn are crafty MFers and they'll either A.) grab old weapons not secured by that lock case, or B.) go craft their own free to use always weapons if not make a crazy weapon that only responds to them and their party of people. We are after all in a world that has madness, monsters, stupidity, brutality, religious nuts, war nuts, & psychopaths. So really anything can happen with anything heck we made games from pen and paper to actual video games about those kind of things.
Cyberpunk (started pen and paper.) is literally a "what if the world went downhill and entered the age of many big shot companies own everything of power they control all in our world." the game, and we see how even "the lowlifes" magically obtain tech to fight back by any means with some Solos famously using not registered ripper doctors to install upgrades of tech into/onto them. D&D even if a fantasy world has it's own black markets section in game so if your heroes can't buy a thing cause this of this you can go to it and buy one there, and they also have included a lot of the religious wars based campaigns out there. (my current one I'm playing is basically Heaven vs Hell vs Hell vs Eldritich. Which I'm sadly missing one game tomorrow babysitting my great nieces and nephew unless we don't have that game for any reasons idk of for I'll be going off away around noon before 2pm when we start maybe.)
And I know by now that we all seen/played video games like GTA & other stuff kind of like GTA which has scenes that explain how criminals come across any goods. Then there is my personal favorite world of darkness pen and paper game Vampire the Masquerade in which it's a skill you can get to smuggle goods in, or you can get the retainer skill for a smuggler to get smuggled in goods which goes and shows how you can no matter end up having things unwanted by the world cause you got a way to get them around somehow. (I played a smuggler Caitiff kindred for a game which was fun as I had high security to hide goods & my identity, high persuasion & intimidation, a good financial skill to get lowered prices but sell high if I wanted to do so, high driving to outrun & also do maneuvers in the vehicles I'm in to escape, multiple languages to speak to other countries for goods, decent intelligence to know better hiding spots, decent law to know all the laws I'm breaking in game but also know where law is going to be in order to avoid them & etc. *It takes a lot to play a smuggler in Vampire the Masquerade I can't recall all of them mainly for no character sheet in front of me now to read off all I had but also it was played when I was my second just small group game of friends with Vampire.* so it's a been a few good long years now.)
Honestly once I do start making content I hope I'll remember you mentioned letting you know before I fully go off for a while not letting you know at least, though I wont lie I feel for a long time I'll come off as possibly boring to some as I just play older games I got unless game pass is up for me and it got a newer game I went and moved PC space to grab up. (cause atm most my stuff I got easily available for myself to even start is most older stuff I've had or picked up for I wanted it back then in past but just recently had chance to get it for no more religious fights or irl money issue at the moment I got it in my life at least. (I got money issue now cause virus stuff, but it's slowly repairing quite slowly I'm upset, but also I'm glad it is healing up again to stable-ish financials. Mainly i hope to in Summer if not before have a new cell as my older one is just shot lately & it's charger doesn't always want to charge up the device & that fence for dog cause dog deserves a yard to dog in. Also the cat shelves I'd love to do that too, but that's also feeling too much ambition to put in at once to achieve now with things as idk how well off we'll all be to do so as all three of us guys here are struggling along financially for own reasons of life. My nephew and I not to poke at it in rude way but we're our past life so you know... hardships stalking up, helping our family out to life cause we're all we got, helping our friends to live cause they're the second family. Our older friend Nathan is the case of he's in his 40s but he has some ex-wives life stuff sorting out so between that and bills rising up alone he's basically also lucky to afford his meals he grabs up too.) All same life is moving on getting okay-ish again for all.
Speaking pet genders ngl all the times my kitten is in heat I really wish I had a male cat instead of her, mainly on nights I badly need sleep and she wont just stop at all no matter what is done. Can hold her and calm her but soon as I sleep she runs off and one of my roommates be it our friend Nathan or my year older nephew gets after her and that wakes me up, she could relax beside me under covers warm as can be with her head poked out and again same tale, I could put cat junk food down just to see if it will calm her down some someplace soon as it's all gone she's back at it, put her in the pet taxi she wont stop, put her in the dog kennel of my old Petey which has the dog bed he used in it still she relaxes for maybe an hour but then back at it. (I will never do what my father did to female cats in heat by blowing a air horn at them, mainly for I don't want to have one around for either of the others could use it & I would die inside like I did back then hearing it go off a lot until she stopped. So much so was one used in my childhood by my dad with them that I personally hate air horns with a passion.)
Posted: Sun Apr 02, 2023 11:22 am
Tobi Kaito
Yeah, that's my experience with organized religion, too. Just a few people to read whatever religion's Good Book and discuss and support one another. Anything much past that always seems to come with snobbery and at least one person with extreme views and more bringing others down than building them up. I guess I'm lucky that for the most part my mom's side of the family (the only side of my family I have had any interaction with whatsoever since becoming a legal adult) doesn't do much church-going, so as long as I was willing to let them drag me to evening Christmas service and Easter Sunday service occasionally, no one said boo. Past that, I only have to put up with religion talk from the in-laws of one of my aunts (her second husband's parents are a pastor and his wife) at holiday gatherings, which is tolerable enough since I have decent knowledge of the bible. Not sure what I'd do if my family were more serious about worship. Probably be branded a heretic and never talk to any of them... If someone ever tried to pull the deceased person bit on me, I would be SO tempted to retort with "I'm not sure, they weren't at my last seance, perhaps next time they'll be there and I can ask." (Just imagining the looks such a statement would have gotten at my former church, it would have been glorious.)
I dunno, I just don't think we need to make it TOO easy. I can admit to being slightly biased, though. Had a friend that had been recently hospitalized for depression and suicidal thoughts that was able to just walk into a place (a completely legal establishment), buy a gun, and walk out with it to commit suicide in his apartment all in the same day. Like, if they had just made him wait a few days before he could pick it up, maybe he'd still be alive. But one thousand percent, I'm not against owning weapons. My blood fam is from the boondocks, everyone hunts, everyone owns a firearm, even my mother and my neurotic aunt, and every school in the area has a gun safety course. (I even had my hunting license at one point, even though I'd never hunt. Had my boating license too, which was vaguely more useful since my grandfather summered at the lake.) I just don't think nixing all the regulations is going to actually solve anything for anyone, but I also don't have any ideas that would be better, other than maybe attacking the cause (smuggling, black market) rather than the symptom (individual firearms).
Bah, whether it's old or new doesn't really matter to us. We play, and watch other people play, plenty of old games. One of my beau's current games is The Legend of Dragoon, an old PS1 RPG. Our most recent acquisitions have mostly been SNES and NES titles. (Super Metroid~ heart ) I don't have any suggestions for helping with the fence, unless you happen to know someone who has taken down some fencing recently and would be willing to sell it, but for cat shelves, you might be able to salvage wood from, like, store stock pallets to save yourself a bit of money. My family is forever salvaging wood from pallets for their projects because lumber is so expensive. Repurposing old shelves/shelving units acquired cheaply secondhand could also be an option. (Personally, I'm forever dumpster diving and salvaging stuff from the trash, a dollar I don't have to spend on a shelf is a dollar more I can use for food.) Glad things are getting back to okay-ish for everyone, though!
Ahh, the joys of a cat in heat. My beau's parents had a lot of un-spayed female cats at one point, and there was never a good solution for dealing with their being in heat. They'd try to pen them up in a single room with everything they needed, but the cat symphony never ended, and usually one of them would still manage to escape or one of the boys would manage to sneak in and next thing you knew you had a litter of kittens on your hands. Some people suggest spray bottles, at least for training cats to stay off counters or tables or whatever, but... I've never had any luck with that tactic. Either the cats loved it and thought we were playing, or they had exactly zero care about being sprayed with water and would just sit and look at us like we were stupid. I'd never be able to use an air horn for, well, anything. It would undoubtedly scare me more than it would do anything else. Guess I'll just have to stick to redirection and positive reinforcement, only things that have consistently worked for me, but that doesn't really help with a cat in heat. ^^;
The organized religion I will admit is fine to a point, but sadly we all know each one has that one person whom tries to either drag everyone to church with the pity party technic; "If you don't go, I'm going to cry forever alone without any of you making it to heaven for you skipped even just one Sunday.", the kind a jerk technic which is what I shared already where they use deceased family against you or even will do the crap of call out every one of your flaws which honestly just makes me want to call all their flaws out if & when I know their flaws (which I honestly only knew one person whom tried getting me to go to church saying my flaws at me *which was mainly flaws about how dropped out of school 'which I retorted "to care for my sickly dementia having father." at them when it got said' & they said a lot more of stuff they knew we done in past that was honest survival & since it was an aunt I knew we weren't going to deal with I retorted back harshly possibly but tbh idk & somewhat do not care for it had to be said at her for it was my own aunt trying it "Your flaws are saying my own mother/your little sister was burning in Hell around her funeral to anyone whom would listen which I only found out years later for I heard the story from my other family elders, you could add child abuse for even if you thought it in the right for your religion I'm pretty sure 9/10 people would agree slapping a two year old for liking a Disney cartoon your church later banned from your own collection of church nuts not to watch counts as child abuse, you let your daughter get with a have children from three different guys when she was still a teenager, you never came around to check up on your family for ages until just recently in life when you could say s**t hit the family's fan & so honestly I don't want you calling out people's flaws for honestly auntie you have a baggage load of your own flaws, and in comparison mine are kind of majorly minor for I wasn't going around telling people my own flesh and blood must be in Hell for they died on a day they only missed one church event due to literally I was around four or five sick as sick gets & being in general a brat of a toddler cause I was sick and so I was acting out some due to it, so I was having to sit on a couch when she died in front of me that day so honestly how do you think I'd have felt if I was hearing you say my own beloved mother was in Hell in front of me literally at her own funeral if I wasn't too upset over her death to even notice back then for I was a young toddler with now no mother I watched die in front of my eyes. And if you want to make it all worse not once did you or your other sister of mom's older un-adopted sisters ever come to visit to see how dad & I were ever after the events cause you both each had your BS reasons and I don't know if it was both or just you but I am going to say I'm not a b*****d child for my parents were married before they had me one or both of you just disagree for you can't except mom's ex-husband was kind of trash to her, so if any child is one it's one it's your your own daughter's army of three kids for you don't know who's the daddy, they weren't married & she's now living with another random guy married now finally." Needless to say I may have been harsh in my mind mostly cause I loved all those kids I just called bastards for they were my own elders and best friends of that bunch included with their own mother my cousin whom had them when she was a teenager. (but in my defense she was doing the horrible flaw calling to make me leave and join her church with her in my worse times to try that crud for it was when my father was just recently deceased for months & my old kindergarten friend just stabbed my back with any trust I had for him ever when she went doing that tactic to make me join her. I will say after that my family shared she decided to move away elsewhere so i guess I made it clear she was not winning me over ever in life after things she done for I called out her flaws like that. Thankfully I still see my one cousin her husband & my elders of her kids idk family things too much to know what they are to me tbh for honestly I never A.) had family to deal with much in general, & B.) Had my town school which lost care to fully teach kids anything it seems around my generation of growing up for I can give stories of kids detouring class & teachers being all "aight not paid enough to teach these brats even that bunch there that wants to learn." So I burned out of school an early age too for self teaching yourself is also rough on a kid. So my childhood was dead from day my mother died I had to teach myself things when school stopped caring cause of some other kids ruining lessons all the time the teachers just quit trying, let alone the teachers after my whole ordeal just tossed me into special education classes not wanting to deal with me for things as I stated so you know everything was grand but tbh ngl the special classes may have been best for me for I did learn a lot more as it was easy to convince the bunch of those kids knowledge was good for all of us, as we could achieve all of our dreams if we took our classes so I possibly had a much better time kindergarten through sixth they tossed me in those special classes before they released I wasn't needing to be in them for I was normal just depressed. Though ngl my high school times were better in the years I was doing both Orchestra and being a teacher's aide for the special education class & it's possibly cause both those teachers just seen me as me and not some delinquent due to my older niece being one or a genius I wasn't the same as as I wasn't my older brother Jon no matter how much teachers wanted me to be so.)
NGL I'd love to play a bunch of older games sadly some older I'd like to play are not decent to new world views for some cause I only have to say it's name and if you know you know why... Bloodlines from 2004 I believe was it's year of release is not so kind to the mentally ill, has the Nosferatu kindred sport a gimp suit no matter their gender & in general has all our old 2000s stuff that wont fly so easily unhated by 2023+ times, that and worse off for me the game has no options to even have no music so the copy right strikes on any platform that has issues with songs in games will fly left and right for Bloodlines cause we got only one I know is going to get cs'd for in Asylum the club ran by a Malkavian with dual personality for a damn good reason of trauma that wont be earning any gold medals in views of some.
Cause she has a dual personality due to suffering from sexual abuse from her father you later learn in her moments of arguing with her other self she went and murdered at a young age for one line from her is literally "Is that why you painted the clown walls with his blood that night?!" indicating she was quite quite young being abused that way & also indicating murdering somebody. World of darkness has it's darkness like that & tbh her flaw being a Malkavian is much better for we get her backstory to understand it, meanwhile the Malkavian we play as the player is feels they're "crazy to be crazy" which is why I feel most would hate that game and I never tried playing it before for many. (Mainly cause I fear it'd upset people & I don't want to upset others playing it, but I'm starting to hit that I shouldn't care state as well for you know times changed we got better & tbh Bloodlines shocking to me to discover is actually quite still popular even being an older game like that. And many love the Malkavian kindred we play & the Malkavian with dual personality disorder is loved too so I shouldn't have too much fear. I just still got fear for idk maybe it's more I fear being a small time person it'd come off more as being offensive to others playing it in my head.) I mainly fear they'll be mad I play as a Malkavian for idk why I just feel that way. xp
And it's mostly for I met a lot of people that get too mad over almost all things easily. (it's not a good area around here for not angering a bunch of people easily as our growing town has the rude as it is to them to call them this in their eyes "THAT CANCEL CULTURE" bunch of people moving around here more, so I'm easily upset and nervous for I never wanted to anger or upset anyone mainly for my backstory of life things got dark in my own life when that happened ever, from I got locked in places like Harry Potter's bedroom at the Dursleys until he had a bedroom of his own there in the books & movies, smacked roughly, punished more than needed punished by some if I upset them with rule stuff they had different and more. That tbh I jump at the shadows of other people seeming to be rushing quickly towards me & have mostly negative thoughts about how others see me for in my eyes I'm cursed to be hated and suffer all the time. Honest I'm not well & need a lot of healing help but also fear that.) I even sharing my tale of past every time question if people believe me as telling people even in real life leads me to wonder if they believe it for either I think 1.) I'm quite young compared to them (if I know they're older.) so they have to think I'm always making up stories for they always thought that way before., 2.) I talk too much when I go on about them wanting to just vent them all away I feel people will always think it's fake and I just want attention for that was just defaulting of people normally. , & lastly 3.) I'm not grand at wording things at times due to my mix of learning in school, and dropping out of high school even if it was to care for my father whom had Alzheimer's. (Which idk about at all for nobody thought to ever say something was up to me or even teach me about those kinds of signs ever in life at all until you know it was too late and he was already long gone basically, so I lived with my father having it since I was eleven according to doctors that diagnosed him later when I was turning 25 that I just in general feel like a complete idiot others want to ignore for my GPA is not that great so I'm a lesser human being for honestly most family members cases *for ones not closest too mostly thankfully* sees it being that way. So as you can guess being this whole thing of they all thought me smart beyond my years for I was then before many changes of life occurred I changed a lot from damages of it all to now I'm here all hated by most for I simply dropped out to care for my dad by 17 and done so until I hit 25 I got mixed adulting skills for I know how to cook, and do chores but idk jack on taxes and bills stuff, making a resume is rough for me for school decided that wasn't important until literally year I dropped out and I left at 17 before those lessons for my dad was worse off & the bullying of teachers and peers was bad. And honest just a lot of things lots of things going on in my mind of past and downvoting myself hard for I see myself as garbage beyond anyone normally does see themselves, and it's bad so much it causes suffering & idk whom to trust for idk whom all cares & after the whole friend incident of 2020 for me I'm even rougher on that all & less trusting of others for idk whom will next to be just like that again for it was my first back stab from a person I trusted some & wanted in my life mainly for you know first ever friends made case you want to keep those guys. And now I'm just here depressed as all heck for I lost connections to my first ever friends in all different ways; Shawn has moved away I only hear news from his parents in town about him if I meet them, Derek I only know about from FB & will time to time see him in town to know if he's around town still but overall we barely chat even anymore let alone know how to talk to one another for we been disconnected since high school as the school shipped him away instantly to the delinquent school just due to his parents & siblings being issues I never got to se him in high school ever, Andrew M. is the case of he turned out how he did and did all he did to me in 2020. So honestly my only remaining friends of first ever friends I made are both special education kids and one is that case of "Idk if they are a real friend for it feels he only cares to hang out when my life is decent and I got a lot of nicer things." case while the other is slowly becoming lost cause his mother ngl is becoming quite the overbearing bish kind of mother after Andrew M. got mean towards even Cody her son.
So now my closest to friends ever I'm around mostly face to face are all friends whom suffer in their own ways in life from traumas, from neglectful mothers to having ex-wives whom only wanted easy money from breeding to get child support the friend got so upset by it he got the snip for humans to stop it happening to him when I was seventeen, and we're all just kicking through life as it goes. (And online I find most my pals with their own traumas of life I chat most with, probably due to we share a common ground of bad stuff happens so we all connect better than those whom have less trauma of life they see ours as "excuses" for ways we heard them word it most times. Which tbh I feel that may be why I fear online anything most of all for not only irl did I get that I got it online later on from some people it hit that "Are Humans even worth it anymore?" state of mind for me that I eventually if allowed wouldn't even claim to be a human in life for to me Humans are mainly cruel beings it feels 95% of the time with them all. Online I haven't ran into too many jerkish people but also have seen them around and dealt with them all the times I been online which was since I was nine going onto ten and found an escape to gaiaonline here.) And with that I leave off saying it's going to be rough some for me the day gaiaonline does stop existing for it's my last bits of childhood still surviving today. (Sure we got SpongeBob that is never dying it seems, but with TV being dead around the world lately and streaming shows with networks at an all time high I basically see SpongeBob as dead too. And I feel One Piece when it comes to anime of 90s kids is soon coming to a closing itself as we got from spoilers I heard Luffy D. Monkey's D. finally got shared for what it means in name or whatever & also we heard a clear why Luffy was so powerful even before the devil fruit as it turns out he's basically part of their gods/goddesses race. I'm honestly still far back catching up and not recalling many things it's sad, but loving anime I been watching literally any other kinds around One Piece for me just kind of sat there being that I watch it but haven't watched it lately much I got a million things to catch up on.)
Aye ngl that tale of weapon stuff does make me prefer the wait period to sell weapons of any to others, for the reason as you shared it's easy they buy it and end themselves on the same day and you just got that pain of loss afterwards. So I'm not against the idea of waiting to sell guns or weapons all together myself for those reasons either, specially since I've had family members whom were that depressed and the being forced to wait for the purchase saved them all which was great for we were all able to get to and heal them from the depression they felt before the weapon got sold or be there to stop them from doing it in general if it got sold when they were still depressed some. But also like you my whole family life is pro own guns (hence why we got many here. I say many but really in comparison to most my family we got a small amount of guns with only twelve in the gun case, one my family is still debating sending to me as dad wished for they don't know if it's legal & I'm all "it's dad's one heirloom to me just send it over for reality is we got so much other guns to use that are known to be legal it's just honestly going to be decoration of a little to him shrine with his served in Vietnam war funeral flag, old glasses & a picture scroller (idk if it has a better name we all call it picture scroller here.) of all just photos we had of him from his youth to before he left us all in 2019 to join the lord & mom." {For honestly I don't see using it ever minus maybe shot it once or twice at a target range to know how dad felt years ago owning it himself, then as stated mostly it'll be a safe locked see through case by a memorial shrine I made that idk how long I'll keep up or even where I'll have it. But odds are i'll keep it around someplace for I was close to my father for ages from only parent left to I care taken him long as I could do so alone mostly *for he got a nurses aide when I was in high school but due to the company she worked for she wasn't around much until later when she quit them and joined one that allowed her more time for my father's case which happened when i was twenty-two so you know I did most of the things she went to do before then. So much so I miss the smells of coffee making in his coffee pot now, for the one we got is small and does only one cup coffees that it is quite contained unless you're right up against at the thing compared to the maker smelling up the room with that coffee smell for it's being contained in a pot to serve more cups. And I wont lie I kind of hate our coffee maker for that reason as I want the lingering smell of coffee around for we both know why.}
I love my cat, just wish I knew what else to do to help her if I could help her calm down from the callings for so far all I got is if I could always have a pair of working arms willing to hold her forever then she would keep calmer and just mostly purr in happiness of being held by her cat dad, but you know after a while you want to set a cat down or got to do your life stuff anyway it wouldn't matter if I had even a thousand arms. I could air horn if I wanted to but to me it's just no for why do so, mixed with it would soon annoy others if the cat kept going and I kept blowing the air horn eventually. (cause I know growing up it annoyed me, but same time that was mostly for my dad used it any time any hour that airhorns are just my personal demon device outside sports using them. Which Emmett's teams were awful & now I'm adult with no kids of my own and all my great nieces and nephews are not in Emmett but other Idaho areas or just too young to be on the high school sports teams to even need an air horn. Plus if they're like most of us in the family their sport choices once in high school will be they wanted to do indoor so an airhorn is too much as stadiums don't need that racket going off from many people.)
(Thanks, I been on a TMNT spree of watching anything of them while I also look to read the comics I can find, so I decided to why not make an avatar based on Raph's trench coat disguise to show as not being a giant turtle. Which I first seen irl in the 90s movies of TMNT.)
{The other bit of my kick of TMNT here lately has me listing on my Amazon Funkos of their old comic days when they all worn the red bandana mask & their weapons was the only way to determine which turtle was which, the pizza cook book they made, & a bunch of collections of TMNT TV series which so far I found the 1987 & 2012 versions, but I'm still looking around to add. But apart from that I found and subscribed to a youtube channel that talks TMNT things and learnt of a comic I enjoyed from TMNT getting a video game in the future of fof it which has me excited for I literally told pals I'd love it having a game, and that lead down me wondering if we'd see more games possibly with the darker world of the turtles. I would love playing a game with Raph having is old comic times one eye hole pirate bandana for alien tech blew off half his face, Cyborg Donatello, one hand Leo & even have a spin of playing a slightly simulator company like game with being Shredder Raphael training the foot to become good guys before it went back to the normal style of TMNT games. Honestly learning more TMNT stuff from comics before me even has me on a spree of being a fan wanting to know and see more.}
Apart from all that with TMNT stuff I said I also want to get back into art ironically possibly first going to try to draw the old all read mask turtles in the "accurate" styles of them all. (which just means making them show up more in design as a turtle that just grew human sized.) And I'm thinking of doing the what they're all said to be accurate drawings for each installment side to side and side so we can see how they changed in time for an art piece if I get back into drawing and do well enough I'd openly enjoy sharing it. sweatdrop (For all I can say now we got times where they've all looked alike in style but their species of turtle they were said they weren't the same kind of breed *idk if you'd say that for turtles let alone reptiles normally* of turtle. I can say though they got their moments they're all one kind of turtle which I recall most for ironically my first turtles I owned I named after them where those kind of turtle hence why I named them Raphael and Michelangelo after my child self's two favorite ninja turtles. Both were red eared slider turtles, which I want to say is the 2003 series species of turtle they were all marked down as but I would honestly have to go relook it up for it's either 2003 cartoon, one kind of their comics *for you got IDW, mirage, Urban, Archie, Nickelodeon & etc. of comics of them all* or even if it was the 90s movies TMNT. Course I feel in a lot of versions they were one type of turtle since it was just easier to explain the whole they look alike thing when making the comics/suits for actors and etc.)
Posted: Mon Apr 03, 2023 2:41 pm
Tobi Kaito
I really hate how there always has to be ONE person to ruin anything. Like they never can be content to let others do things the way that works for them. Just because they might want to be sadomasochists, doesn't mean everyone else has to be or has to put up with that bs. My aunties dearest are generally too chicken to say anything bad where I can hear it, but they're more than happy to talk about me behind my back and to my mother. It's so stupid. Blood family always seems to have people like that, though, nasty in one way or another to anyone that doesn't fit in their little boxes labelled "normal." Which doesn't make it any less shite, and certainly doesn't excuse them, but at this point I've just learned to live with it. I commend you for standing up to your aunt, though! It's a bit mind boggling how anyone thinks such nastiness will ever inspire anything good in someone else... I hate that there are so many teachers like that out there, the sort that just... don't care. Learning doesn't have to be a chore, you can make it fun. But then I also know the sad state of teaching salaries and how most of the really good teachers have to put their own money into their classrooms (my high school art teacher was always buying materials out of her own pocket), and it all just breeds an unending cycle. I've met a lot of fantastic people from the special classes, teacher and student alike! They're just so... genuine, dedicated. I also had good relations with all of the ISS regulars and most of the local "delinquent" kids. They were always upfront about everything, I knew exactly where I stood with them, unlike all the "normal" kids who always seemed to have some kind of ulterior motive for everything they did.
I... think I may have watched someone play one of those games recently? Not one hundred percent on that, but if I'm remembering right, I enjoyed it. Though I think he did have to cut almost ALL of the music from the video to avoid take-down notices. Watch out for that with any of the Square Enix/Squaresoft (as they were formerly known) titles, Square is BAD about going hard on people that leave the original music in, last I'd heard. Maybe the best way to handle that situation and avoid poking the hornets' nest, so to speak, would be to put in a disclaimer? Something like "This game contains a portrayal of mental disorder. It does not reflect my views, and viewer discretion is advised." Should appease most people, and the people that still get hung up on it are likely the sort you can never please, anyway. Bleh, GPAs just show how well you work with the school system, really, outside the school they're just a number, they don't mean anything. In my experience, that's how it is, at any rate. Like, you don't have to be good at algebra or understand Shakespearean plays to be a successful tattoo artist. Baking might be the closest you can get to being a mad scientist as a career choice, but you don't have to have been particularly good at chemistry to understand how certain ingredients work together. On the flip side, my being very good in school and being book smart has never helped me be any better at handling humans or coping with the real world. I literally have to have my beau make phone calls for me because I freak out so bad over them. Trust and keeping friends are... difficult subjects for me. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt in all things, but I'm always prepared for the worst, always making contingency plans. Exactly zero people from high school talk to me anymore, 'cept for the beau, we're one of those rare cases of high school sweethearts actually working out. Only one of my elementary/middle school friends has bothered to even halfway keep in touch with me, and that's mostly just around Christmas. Three whole people from uni bother to keep up with either me or my beau, and only one of those interacts with us with any regularity. So, I never plan for people to stick, am always trying to guard against being used by others because I'm a bleeding heart and "no" is hardly present in my vocabulary, and people seem to be able to sniff out a creampuff like me from miles away. None of this is particularly conducive to friendly relations... I mean, I try to make things work, I really do! I'm just not a people person, and apparently an unwillingness to go out and do a lot of social things because I have a very limited reserve of energy for interactions with others makes me not worth the effort, or "uninvested" in relationships. But whatever, who needs people, right? I have my cats, and books, and my beau, and a few online friends, and that's enough for me. I've claimed to be an alien for years. >>; I've just... never been like other people, I've always been "other," so at some point I decided to just own it and call myself an alien stuck in human skin. I never got super into One Piece. I remember watching it air occasionally, but only because I didn't have any other choice for anime in its time slot. The anime was especially offensive to my tastes, the voices in the dub were... not great. The manga was less bad, but I could never get attached to most of the characters like I did with other series. And at this point, it's just kind of ehhhh, I have better things to watch and read than hundreds of episodes or chapters of a lukewarm plot. (Like Solo Leveling! I'm so excited for next winter when the animated adaptation is supposed to air.)
Oh, I love the smell of freshly brewed coffee... I can't drink it anymore, though, so I only get to experience the smell if I visit a coffeehouse, or my beau has time in the mornings to brew a carafe. We use a pour-over carafe (a Chemex), so even if only one cup gets made, our whole apartment smells like coffee. Sometimes even the hallway outside our apartment smells like our coffee. (I also occasionally use the spent grounds as fertilizer for my plants, which makes my room smell like coffee for days.) We had a Keurig for a while that only did one cup at a time, its aroma creation capacity left much to be desired. (I eventually ended up giving the thing to my mom, no sense keeping an expensive gadget that never gets used.)
Yeah, we never found a good solution for when my mom's female basset was in heat. We just swapped the male and the female between the crate so they'd each have time outside of it and put up with the noise in the end. And being hound dogs, there was a LOT of noise. In the end, there are really only two solutions that don't involve noise much; let them get knocked up, or get them spayed. And depending on finances and what programs are or are not available at the time, neither option may be particularly good. Perhaps someday someone will find an easier solution to the problem... We can hope, at least.
I enjoy TMNT, but I'm not particularly knowledgeable on it (we couldn't get the channels it aired on when I was younger, and then none of my younger cousins that we watched regularly were particularly into it, only my uncle's boy, and I only know that because I made a full set of turtle plushies for his birthday once). I do LOVE the old live action movies, though! My mom has all of them on DVD, we'd always trot them out when we got sick of watching the Transformers movies with my aunt's boys for the nth time in a row.
Oh, that sounds fun! I haven't done much drawing myself in AGES. I spend most of my time on handicrafts like crochet. I DO have a semi-recent piece of pencil art of the droid, BD-1, from Star Wars Jedi: Fallen Order, but that's the only thing I've done in... years. Probably since I did quick character references for my and my beau's D&D characters. I still have my digital tablets for digital art, but neither has seen much use since I left uni. I'm always thinking "I'll get back into it, draw my FFXIV characters," but then I get distracted by yarn or books or something. cat_sweatdrop
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