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I sadly think that the few people whom let their dogs run wild so much think that there is no issues for doing so, which is honestly shocking to me they still go and let their dogs run free so much without watching them even. (mostly for I am highly watchful of our dog if not forcing her into the harness and leash we found for her now and got, as there have been so many cases of the dogs running away from home to never return or even going into other yards and killing if not dying themselves to another dog for the two pups got aggressive about travel and territory.)

I am upset the school was such a bad place later on in the years, and honestly it turned me into the same kind of delinquent but my sad case was I didn't attack Fred whom needed attacked really for he was going down a huge hill of destruction to himself acting so him today some back then. (but he was my only ticket to seeing other friends as I couldn't drive & the school was being a d**k about allowing me to learn to drive as they wanted the one teacher whom bullied me and hated my guts to okay the papers that allowed me to learn which obviously never got to happen for the obvious reasons of she was being a huge B-word in all capital letters about it, and got highly pissed off with me when she retorted her mean comment of how she'll never let me drive cause I deserve to be dead in a ditch & I retorted back with a nasty "Well stop being such a c**t for even three seconds and allow me to learn to drive so I can find that ditch and die in it for you.") But moving onto the focus of how bad the school was they were bad at being a school in my personal view cause well... 1.) dealing with being a student whom lost lessons cause one kid kept talking in class., 2.) if the principal was also a jerk to a person it was all cool for everyone to be a jerk to that same person. {which is highly messed up to do to students let alone staff, and I can't wait to hear how many more peers of mine ended up in prison for behaving in that nasty mindset in the real world.), 3.) Teachers in the school taught us to spell tomorrow as tomarrow, missile as missle, & then would still proceed to listen to the schoolboard and mark them as wrong with no explanations as to why it was wrong then for writing test but was all good and dandy when we were just doing their assignments., & lastly 4.) Silver tongued "honestly the bad kind of demon" principal whom would be a complete arse to students he didn't care to like at all, but soon as anything that could stop his behavior was around he behaved like a saint or even talked the parent(s) of the student(s) whom did complain about his actions into thinking the student was the issue, and he would shove any student that was remotely close to stopping his actions into the heavy delinquent filled school. (which I was always so close to being sent to just for arguing with his actions a lot and taking some delinquent like actions against him since he was already seeing and treating me as one.)

I wont lie, I know I'm smart if not maybe even lower class genius in some departments of knowledge in a few things I been doing a lot in life (cause life skiils you get doing/dealing with things a lot.) but I've always thought of there being someone whom knows a lot more than I do is around someplace and over time with many bullies some being my own family members that wasn't close to me cause our family was weird I got the issue of being really extremely harsh to myself & I hate it highly for it effects some of my actions/thinking, and I feel even worse on the times I go over thinking things to make plans as I think of too many ideas I could try out (and when you got some jerkish like people like peers or a teacher whom will call you a retard, you fall into two cases. 1.) thinking way beforehand you accidently space some details out and they are kind of jerks for that making you wish you did two instead. & 2.) You don't even think you just act and if they get mad with you, than you just tell them to eff off or go eat/suck on something inappropriate from the grand cuckoo to some fecal matter of some living creature of choice if not combining the two with a solid "Whatever eff off and go suck on some smega covered horse cuckoo."



Sad bit is I would have highly loved up to all of my family members if they tried being around more and they didn't get all too "Jesus take the wheel of life for me." cause of just simply being myself, as I didn't have my mother for a long time after hitting five and witnessing her pass away in front of me & that highly messes up a child specially when they're young as five if not four heading into five years old. I wanted to know a lot about my mother growing up; her family side, her old living location before Emmett ID like myself and my father be it when she was a young adult or a child herself, her favorite food(s)/drink(s) anything really for being five and losing her so suddenly like that the most I recalled was vague things I recalled most about her, and sadly one detail of that got screwy as I was five and recalled her hair in the shade where it looked black over being dark brown like it was so in my head for the next like 24 nearly 25 whole years it was black hair she had, and then that crashes down the day I get handed her old state ID and read Dark Brunette for hair color.
All the same I also grew up hiding shows I watched with cousins I got to see if not my year older nephew and I would sneak watch some shows quietly on TV.
As for anime things I have just started up (on episode ten now) season one of stardust crusaders for part three JJBA, & for the recommendations of yours I want to rewatch Yuyu Hakusho (as it has been a while that I need a reminder/ for it's series.) and for Cromartie High I've seen it but nothing is stopping a rewatch of it as well. cat_xd {I'm that person whom will make a list of like twelve & always adding more to the list of anime and then proceed to try attempting to watch them all before the end of the year new or old. My list now is all of the JJBA parts for finally catching up on the missed years growing up/helping my father when he had Alzheimer's mixed together {and weirdly I'm excited to see part four mainly only because it has the character I started as my next to my complete "part three" Jotaro maining playing on the battle R game as Okuyasu Nijimura's fight style is great for hitting people compared to some characters whom are either too short/small to hit farther away in a game with longer arm hitting people, or the jerk (being kind with words) does a very short hit not fully extending their attack range out (which Jotaro "part three" does have a short kick but it's not like moving his foot half a inch and more kicks them with his foot moving at least four inches off the ground so it's still a decent attack.
{But being fair I'm also not able to play all of the characters yet due to needing the DLC, let alone I also have a good before the DLC about close to maybe 50 if not more in all characters to play. So honestly I'm still finding characters out to this day when I do play the game, so maybe I'll get about around four of five mains sometime soon if I keep messing around; Heck I still need to mess with Jotaro "part 4" more (I have picked him in a team group once but I beat the computer before it beat me unlocking me playing as him.) and see if he is a copy paste of part three or if they gave him a new fight style to represent being "part 4" Jotaro.}
But I'm a little weirdly excited for part four just to see how the character in the actual anime is (cause with fighting games they do not do characters justice at all for some of them, like Giorno Giovanna of part five my friend Amanda knows his special attack's name better than I do so I can't say the name even now talking about him but to sum it up out of the other characters I have played that got attacks actually happening Giorno Giovanna stabs his stand and himself with an arrow and sits there charging up for about a whole minute which if you're magically not struck within that minute he powers up and takes no damage to less damage depending the attack while causing more damage. idk what that even is I have not seen part five yet I'm on the best one to me as I caught Jotaro the most and I love Jotaro Kujo the most of all the Jojos mainly for I seen him the most of all even if was so broken due to over religious family stopping me or my father's health in the future cases but also I like his design the most of all the Jojo's I seen he inspires to attempt drawing until I do him justice if not go back in time and give younger me parts of his attire and say "Become the delinquent of justice, beat up Fred for it when he acts up badly, be sent to the "delinquent" school for I heard they're better at teaching kids there, and wear these cool things as much as you're allowed to." while I hand younger me the hat and the jacket for I want those both so badly in my life and I know I am not alone for I see many people lusting for the hat alone and even a few for the jacket as items they want irl themselves. (I want them for I'm a punk like person according to the few whom call it punk for liking long coats, chains, and enamel pins *cause the hat from ones I seen use enamel pins for the decorations on it.*)

But all the ones whom hate on my liked clothing styles are over religious Christianity family members which I've hit the point of being all "Well you can either like and love me for my decent actions over liking and loving me only for the style of my clothing that covers the important stuff. Or you can go not liking and loving me at all for it's all Punkish/Satanic to wear theese kinds of clothing items & lose me forever cause why would I want to be around a place that doesn't let me be just me that is still me and is only wearing some different clothing I wanted to wear." (So I may in future buy the hat and jacket for I have seen some around heck if I lose more weight as I have been and bulk myself up for it I'll just be a walking Jotaro cosplayer 24/7 to anger the few people that hate it cause they do not like my punk/satanic clothes while all the anime fans whom know know what it is and probably will start coming around to ask if I made or bought them if they push pass the being shy around new people bits of us all being human. *But I'm also a more introverted person for that kind of stuff >mainly due to growing up early 2000s liking anime was highly seen as cringe by others they bullied fans more than today's world for liking any kind of anime< so maybe I'm just assuming others are the same with being a little more too shy to openly run over and ask anything about it all if not scared to ask some questions cause also being early 2000s fans whom dealt with the groups whom mocked.)


Well I was going to say here that I turned thirty as of yesterday, but it hit midnight and passed when typing this all up some so now it's been two days as my birthday was the twenty-first of July. cat_sweatdrop I've had good fun birthday things my actual day was quiet and calm my kitten woke up me up with tiny bites for wanted her breakfast but then proceed to be a cuddling monster as she did not want to leave her cat dad much until Amanda came over to visit then she wanted to go hop inside her shoe best she could fit as she is a weird little cat whom loves to climb into everyone's shoes and relax inside if she can fits. (and due to Amanda returning and being a new person to her my cat loves the idea of newer shoes to fits and sleep in.)


When it comes to height I would not mind being a short person or a taller one even. (though tbh I think i'd pick shorter for the sheer fact of my home is not made for taller people as much as my tenants both with Nathan being a whole five inches taller at 5'10" and my year older nephew Travis the tallest at 6'5" & both can easily smack their heads on the door frames if not careful with most being Travis for the obvious reasons.) My actual biggest want is to lose my chunky self some more as I have been fighting to do so for ages now, I do not need to go from "Hey hey hey... It's Fat Albert!!!" to "Zoinks Scoob." size, much as I would love being a bean sprout in weight over being chunky Wario sized... I would be cool if I get Mario or even Luigi sized which I consider both as being slight pudgy but not too much pudgy you're the poor taste jokes of many that joke "If you fall down a skyscraper you wont die, you'll bounce cause you're so fat!", "If the 9/11 planes tried with you around we'd never lost the towers cause you'd either ate the planes or bounced them miles away." & just honestly being literally all the round fruits of the fruit rainbow of colors when I wear colors which is why I've become close to being full time mostly all black if not dark clothes 24/7 irl. (And now I prefer dark color clothing most of all cause I'm just over twenty years of wearing mostly dark greys and black only clothes guy, colors do not appeal as much to me. But I fight it with splashes of bright colors and darker tones of the brighter colors. Today I got on a dark green shirt that looks black if not dark blue in the shade but soon as light hits it, it shows up as green.)


Fred is honestly just one of the many reasons of what would cause me to go full Delinquent even with a heavy Christian family that could show up anytime causing big deals about it and possibly tossing me into things to "fix me" even if I was being the good guy kind of delinquent kid which I honestly see being what I would've been for most as my thing would be yelling at the talkers in class to stfu before I make them by making a big scene then proceeding to not hit a person at all but flip a desk over while exclaiming "Now can we please stfu some of us want to learn here!?" & for any actual fighting if not just beating up anyone it'd possibly be only a few kids whom acted up poorly any ways that they needed a peg knocked out to show them the world is not going to let them play main character whom gets away from being a P.O.S. for as you could guess I was already kind of there with a few over bound did just go delinquent attack when I had brass knuckles I taken from my father's old things he had around home as being bullied I would defend myself with them and for the ones whom weren't after me or friends at school but I knew they were jerks normally I just went attacking out of blue they got issues with me. cat_sweatdrop
(And for the messed up thing I was such a kind person normally that I got off Scott free for many times myself on some, attacking a jerk teacher/principal for being jerks though sweet vengeance feels amazing for like five seconds until the nerd bit of you hits and is all "oh s**t... oh s**t, s**t ,s**t!!! I attacked a teacher/principal!!!" you've attacked a teacher/principal after coming back to reality from an attack with that they give finally justified punishments over the normal just tossed you into ISS or detention cause they just hate you. And what's worse is even though I was big bodied & a townie kid every person thought me weak, I'm actually from a farmer family that has a member close to town that owns a farm where I worked for family moving things I got hidden muscles of teen me when angry at school would go out at recess and punch old Oaky the hard oak tree bare fist feeling no pain and damaging old Oaky to the point eventually when teachers seen it they started questioning some other kids about whom all is near the old oak tree most, so later on my thing was more I'd doodle on paper then later on school benches out of the way from the school, which later became the skipping school on bad days. SO... I can only guess how bad a hit from me swinging with a brass knuckle at a person would hurt, specially when actually gunning for a clunk with the inner for your hand to hold it in your fist bit.... Older me today now questions if I cracked some skulls with no knowledge as a teenager, but also recalls I put one bully in the hospital that later moved away as he was in fear of me when I was only thirteen which was way before the brass knuckles let alone the mass bullies outbreak in school life. Now me today sharing this thought is all Dear god I must have cracked at least one if not more unknowingly for I clearly forgot my own strength. cat_gonk )


Moving away from there before I start questioning how close to death I may have brought some bullies thinking too much on it. emotion_skull

School was bad with teaching people that our numbers of drop outs was massive and the school didn't help by kind of doing your school's thing but they got way too wild as it was "Senior project is 95% of your grade, so do a grand job on it you'll succeed in life." was our senior projects case. (hence why I felt no chance in Hell when the bully teacher was made my one and only judge for my senior project. And it upsets me a lot because I had put in three semestors of the four all into researching, made a great demonstration/game for my project so the younger students could have fun >As I chose finger printing I was going to bring a whole bag of 720 varieties mixed candy and have my own friends, the whole classroom before senior project and then one kid only reach in and touch the bag before all touch it and the game was to find the one kid's prints out of everyone there with the forensics science kit I actually borrowed from a real forensics detective for the day & even if the classroom of kids were wrong they'd got the candy anyway I was just gonna nerd out and explain it all any whom to them all. cat_lol ) < But soon as the bully of teacher to me was my judge for the senior project I got all "welp I wont get a true grade, she's marked me as failed for literally all my papers I started doing the thing of having seven papers inside with the message "YOU" "DO" "NOT" "READ" "MINE" "WHY" "TRY!?" in max size it took a whole page and there was no comments about doing so." & I got to thinking like I do at times knew my father had health issues and needed somebody watching him more which none of my older siblings where doing let alone his own paid to come to our home and nurse nurse I dropped out seeing as I was going to be 18 in July 2012 and I took care of him until the hospital then later senior nursing home did when I hit 25 (which was my worse birthday as nobody noticed it happened to be forgotten about as family was all focused on what is up with our father/grandpa, and my only present was finally hearing second out of all the other much older siblings my father had Alzheimer's since I was about eleven years old for Tina was the first to hear it and shared to me. Apart from that all D&D like games were dead for me as Fred 100% ditched me as my dad was in the hospital and only he went to play D&D with all the others and being horrible to all of them he got banned from playing with them all cause he was acting up a lot, then you know what all hit around 2020 when it comes to Fred stuff as I talk a lot about it for it was so cruel to do.)


All in all though I lived in life, got stronger for better or worse, grew a new personality trait of instead of being silent younger brother me I now will speak up to be heard if something is off or off putting so it can be hopefully resolved over festering into another case of Fred.

The Cancer side of me is hard shelled while keeping kind still to those whom earn it, and the Slytherin Snake side of me is filling up on loads of Chinese chomper cabbages and other resources of being a legal dangerous menace to the wizarding world things to attack the next fool crazy enough to try being the worse to me, my family or my friends.
(playing Hogwarts Legacy it was easy to see I was a Slytherin as I had way too much resources at the ready I was leaving my room of requirement with potions and plants still available to take as I was holding onto max numbers.)