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Mom bought me chocolate-covered mint marshmallows. I--I had a sugar crash...

Fuzzy blankets are a gift to earth.

Trying to get your roleplay character to admit love for someone else is tricky, but I think it'd go well between these two. I want my roleplay character to eventually get married, even if it isn't to this person's character. It'd be cute.

If animals can't see all the colors we do, then what if they can also see colors that we can't?

Tonight while in the car with Dad:

"So... Mom explained to me that... you're trans," Dad said kindly.

I sighed, and nodded. "Yeah. I'm glad she did it for me. It's weird..."

Dad raised an eyebrow. "Why is it weird?"

"Because," I began. "Imagine trying to tell people that you aren't the thing you were born as." It's almost like saying an animal is a human or a human is an animal, I thought to myself. There, I braced for whatever was coming. A lecture? A heartfelt speech? I couldn't tell.

"But you're still a person," Dad suddenly told me. "You're still just as much a person as everyone else. And nobody should treat you different because we're all just... people!"

I smiled, and turned to look out the window. "But--it's still hard... I've been bullied a lot for it in the past, and it's--one of the many reasons why I have social anxiety. I'm scared to talk to people because I'm afraid of being judged like I always was. And I know it's TOTALLY irrational, and people don't even bother to think of who you are, rather just the things they want to tell you. But I still just can't help it but fear that, you know?"

"Well... what are some times where things like that happened?" Dad asked.

I began listing the many examples I vividly remembered. Times from when I was in elementary and middle school. And he just nodded along, and listened.

Dad took a deep breath. "Sometimes, people say things that they don't realize can hurt you. Like you said, they were kids, and they changed to be better. And kids always say things without knowing the impact they have on somebody."

"And that's what happened between me and Ryan (name changed here for reasons). My friend already admitted to me that he dislikes people who are gay, and now I know he feels the same way about trans people. He told me, 'Well technically, you're still a girl', and you just don't say that to a trans person. He even came in to school the day the president was elected and said, 'You're going to lose your rights'. He doesn't realize how much he's hurting me..."

Dad nodded. "And there will always be people like that. Just like during the times people were trying to get their rights as African Americans, people who are transgender, gay, and so on are also trying to get their rights today. And there will always be people who protest. That's just how it goes."

"And I accept that," I told him. "I just--I want Ryan to know..."

"Then you have to tell him flat-out that he's doing this, and that he's wrong to say the things he does, then leave him. He's clearly not any good for you."

"Exactly. And I'm trying," I said.

"You're still my child. I'll always love you.


I never expected my dad to understand. But he's come a very long way. He used to not understand a whole lot of stuff, but he tried, and he did a damn good job and I love him with all my heart and soul for it. He's done everything he can to make sure I'm loved and that he can listen to me and my problems and help. I just want to give him the greatest hug in the world, and tell him how much I love him. Dad, you're fantastic, I love you, and your words are the greatest bits of advice anyone could ever want to hear in their life. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I am going to lose my mind. My grandpa has been playing British dramas, British tour shows, cooking shows, and modern arts shows ALL! GODDAMN! DAY! (Save me cry ) I have NO PATIENCE for this stuff...

So my cat got back from the vet. She's hiding in the basement, but her tooth doesn't seem to be bothering her much at all, and she's being her cuddly fluffy self, purring away! We have to give her soft food for a while, but she'll be totally fine!! biggrin biggrin biggrin