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[JoY_AnGel]

Okay,three different poems. Try and decide whos saying them. Joy or Ella. though its obvious XD

The reason
Why is it when I hit you
you love me more
Why is your smile
worth killing for
Why is it painful
to think of you
Why is it
that I havn't deserted you
When Im most angry
its because of you
You fool,the beast inside me
is about to explode
Why is it you could
hold me so,like you hsould
tighter,tighter,every glance
and step you take
these feelings you make
this pain you create
Why is it
that you haven't given up on
the beast inside me
The blood I shed
those words you said
the pain that binds
Fate isn't kind
Why is it that I hate
you most
Why is it
that I want to kill you most
Why is it
that angers me so
When you cling to me
need me
cry for me
Why is it
that you waste my time
Why is it
that you dream of me
every night
Why is it
that I keep pushing you away
Why is it
no matter how far I run
you there to stay
Why is it
that your happy
to kill for me
Cruel Fate
Why is it
that these painful feelings
aren't actually hate??

********
Waiting in rain
Waiting,Waiting
What has you taking
nothing to stake
blood filled lake
My body shakes
As I keep waiting
my reason for staying
my point to be sane
your everything to make me insane
What person wil I not kill
to fill
the bordedom
that condemns you

Waiting,Waiting
coutning rain clouds
why are they so loud?
Why did you leave me
Why do you hate me
Please don't forsake
everything I've offered thee
my heart,my body
and everything in between
I've split so much blood
for my reason of waiting
the rain keeps on waning
I rather keep on staying
For the perosn that hates me most
And I pray you aren't lost
But I'll keep on waiting,staying forever.
No matter the cost.

******
Pain that binds
The Pain that binds us together
tigther,tighter,forever
You resist
I insist
For the tie that binds us
stop making such a big fuss
I can't stop my lust
I can't stop,your my must
You can cuss all you want
I'll smile at you still
because you make me feel
And for you I'll kill
Because love is a tragic thing
This aint no fling.

I'll wrap this world
in a big red bow
and present it to you just for show
how low I'll go.
Because the pain that binds
us together,
I'll cling to you forever
steal you lips,little sips
at nigth without your knowing
Your hate keeps showing

And you may leave me
Make me wait for an eternity
I'll search every city
but there you are
screaming at me
But when you are tamed
let me hold you,hold you
tigthly,you fight
with all your might
but i'll bury myself
into you still.
Let me taste you,need you,love you

And the ties that binds us
become stronger by
every pasisng day
The pain that binds us together
will never let my love for you
to be over.

Okay? heart  

[angeltrinity]

((sorry, I spotted a few spelling errors, but I was too lazy to fix them XP))

Farewell

I wake up early in the morning, the sun rising, the air still cold from last night. I look at my alarm clock which is annoyingly ringing in my ear. I quickly shut it off and swing my body out of bed. Suddenly I stop, sitting straight up on the side of my bed. I relize today is Friday, however this Friday isn't no ordinary Friday...it was the last day of school. "I should be happy" I tell myself, but there is something indside that is eating away at me...what could this feeling be? I quickly ignore the thought and I get ready to go to school.

All I bring is my yearbook, empty backpack, and some brownies that I promised someone a long time ago. Upon seeing my friends I smile. Just the thought of seeing them makes me want to scream out for joy. Today we had a special event for the last day of school. It was some kind of Sophomore award thing, I can't help but wonder if I myself might get an award for something. I just laugh at the thought and slowly look around the room filled with the crazed students. As my eyes wonder, I stop and remember all the good times I had as a sophomore this year. All the laughs I laughed, all the tears I cried, all the smiles that were passed on. Oh yes, this whole year has been a kodak moment for me. I then look down at the ground and start to think about the question I asked myself earlier "I should be happy". However there was something melencholy in the air, something that didn't seem right...but what. I sit at the end table all alone asking myself "Why am I not happy". I take a deep breath and look over at my friends. They seem to be caling me. I refused at first, but there constant nagging quickly changed my mind. "Picture" they said, now I really wasn't the person who liked taking pictures, but since it was the last day of school, I made an exception.

Suddenly before I knew it, the bell rang...it was finally over! I leap out of my seat and rush out the door. I looked up to the sky and inhaled a deep wiff of the summer air. I can't help but laugh...but then the question starts to haunt me once more. That question, it felt like a deadly trap. I wanted to know the answer, but if I found out, I would be sad. Suddenly I hear my friends calling me, and the question quickly escaped my mind. I look over to my friends and give them a bright shiny smile. They smiled back, but there faces spoke in a different language. "What's wrong?" I ask. All they seemed to do was just give out a cheesy laugh. "Nothing silly, we are just gonna miss you, thats all." they answered back. I just smiled and laughed at there answer. For some odd reason, my eyes started to swell up with moisture. Tiny crystal liquid droplets started to race down my face. Why, why was I crying...I would see my friends next year would't I? These tears, these tears aren't of joy, but they were composed of sadness and disbelief. I find myself spacing out and traveling into my own little world again. All that was around me was darkness. The question started to arise again "Why am I not happy." The question drove me insane, I couldn't take it anymore!! I ran, I ran away as far as I could, but no matter where I went, the question was there, ready to tell me the answer. I shut my eyes and collapsed on the floor, "I don't want to know!!" I shouted out loud...but it was too late, the answer soon came.

I wake up early in the morning, the sun rising, the air still cold from last night. I look at my alarm clock which is annoyingly ringing in my ear. I quickly shut it off and swing my body out of bed. I yawn a few times, and scratch my head. I then lazily walk over to my window and look out at the scenery. However, the scenery, it's different...why? I look around my room and relize that the structure is all different...Whats going. I then rub my head in confusion, when all of a sudden, the question sprung fiercely into my head. "Did, did I find out the answer." I asked myself. Pictures of familiar faces started to appear in my head...however there names are not to be remembered. I then look at my shaking hands, a crystal tear landing on my palm. "Was it....all in my mind...just a bunch of memories...a dream..." I relized that the answer was with me this whole time, but I was just to stubborn to accept it. However for me to obtain the answer, I had to trade away my memories...  

[Elpinoine]

phwee a new song ^^ (no title yet you can suggest them though!)

There's something
About the lamplight on the living room walls
The music playing and feeling so distant
That just pulls at your heart strings
And makes your heart scream

And then another thing
About the speckles on the ceiling
And the constant dying beating
Of your pulse pounding in your ears
It serves as a reminder of your fears

And I'm screaming
Trying to unlock this feeling
It's all an undiscovered mystery
Something's missing
Trapped within a night's dream
I can only feel it fading
And the worst part
(the worst part of it all)
Is that I don't know
(and I can't seem to recall)
Just what it is
It's lost to me

Did I mention?
The feeling I get when the phone rings
The way it jolts me from my seat
Because I'm waiting for a midlife crisis
But I'm barely seventeen?

And I'm screaming
Trying to unlock this feeling
It's all an undiscovered mystery
Something's missing
Trapped within a night's dream
I can only feel it fading
And the worst part
(the worst part of it all)
Is that I don't know
(and I can't seem to recall)
Just what it is
It's lost to me


Let's go back
Let's go back to square one
Back to the days when we were young
When tomorrow was only a day away

And I'm screaming
Trying to unlock this feeling
It's all an undiscovered mystery
Something's missing
Trapped within a night's dream
I can only feel it fading
And the worst part
(the worst part of it all)
Is that I don't know
(and I can't seem to recall)
Just what it is
It's lost to me  

[Sincerely Sunshine]

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[Varkyl]

My soul is wandering in great white mist, my thoughts are illusions, hopes like screams what no one heard.

Those who beg of lust, those who cry of fear. All thy we wander in this ending circle of death.
One who write the letter and no one aswered.
One who drowned to ones sorrow.
Those who fall in the maddness, to never ending torture of sea lies and truth. Oh, my sweet love, why does the gates of abyss feel like grace in this riddle of emptiness?

Is world just nightmare where no soul cannot wake up?

You should fear the time when you don't belive anything anymore.  

[Kaitae]

I can't fix a lost love,
I'm not even there.
No matter what words I speak,
They simply aren't there.
I'm just not there,
not where I want to be.
Can't connect by voices,
nothing but words.

And every time I try to make you smile,
there's always something in the mirror,
distorting what I want to say.
And everytime we go and laugh,
I want the moment to last forever.
But even though I know it won't,
why can't you cherish it when you're stuck in the dark?
And every time you're blue and weary,
why can't you just admit?
That maybe it's time to rest. To take a load off. To sleep away your worries again.

And maybe just everytime,
I just can't find the words to say.
And even if and when I can,
Will the meaning reach you? ( Chorus )

Sometimes things in life,
never just go as planned.
But if there's something good;
You never seem to see it clearly.
And maybe if I wipe the tears,
that never have really dried.
Maybe you'll spare me a smile,
Just be happy for a small while.

(chorus)

And maybe just everytime,
And when your smile turns to frown.
when I think about you,
Maybe just then I'll say,
"I'll hope you'll stay the night this time."
And maybe just every day.
When I think about you,
my heart can do leaps and turns.
maybe just fly away, fly away..

(chorus)

And maybe just every time...
That I might be without you;
have you ever wondered if
That I just might think about you. . .

(final chorus)
And maybe just every time.
I can't find the words to say,
but when and if I do,
Will I love you still?
Because,
everytime I sing a song,
or think a happy thought,
nostalgia overwhelms me,
until I can't stand it anymore.

And maybe just every time,
I try to think about you,
my heart just leaps and turns,
maybe it could fly away,
Maybe we could fly away.
Maybe we could fly away.
Maybe we could fly
Away  

[[Ai.shi.teru]]

A song that i was making up as i was forced to perform at that frickin talent show that i didn't even sign up for! stare

Are these just the three last words that you said before i heard you crashing down to the floor, knife in hand and all?

Are these just the three last words that made you cry over night when wind is rippling away your sorrowful tears.

And even if your heart is somewhere safe now, away from me, i can't help but think those three last words you said.

Even now your voice haunts my drumming ears, those three last words haunt me everyday.

I close my eyes to hear your voice again, never again will peace rein my mind, only sounds of your rippling tears, and those three last words i hear.

Now i am aimlessly wondering in circles as time past by, but you are still on the other side gigglying at my attempts at redemption.

Are these just the three last words that made my blood flow, but now has betrayed my heart forever...Aishiteru.  

[The Razz]

OLD OLD POEM I FOUND!!

xD

Should I Thank You?

Should I thank you for
Breaking my heart?
To cause me pain right
From the start?
Should I thank you for
Making me afraid?
For breaking all the
Promises you made?
Should I thank you for all
The times you would lie?
For all the reasons you
Made me cry?
Should I thank you for making
Me build up this hate?
For making me actually
Believe in Fate?

Or should I thank you for
Letting me know
That it wasn't really love,
Just way below.
Should I thank you for my
Clearer mind?
For the thoughts I now have
Are few of a kind.
Should I thank you for
Making me this way?
Of what I have become today?  

[xx - SHARKattack]

This is just a short story I did off a private RP.

"Hallow-what?"

"Halloween"

"Oh. Whats that?"

Azeri sighed. This was pointless. Tetsu stood nearby looking utterly confused as to what the younger vampire was saying. It was October 31 and the two vampires had just been visited by a little girl and her mother.
Said Girl kicked Tetsu in the shin for not having any candy and stormed off, thus leaving a very confused Tetsu behind. Azeri, who had seen the whole thing, had laughed and come over to ask him why he looked so confused.
Tetsu, being the Tetsu that he was, told him that he had no idea why some girl had knocked on his door demanding candy. In conclusion leaving poor Azeri to explain the whole thing.
"Its the day were a ton of Kids dress up and go from door to door saying trick or treat� and people give them candy" Azeri explained quickly.
"uh-huh" Tetsu nodded his head and then as if on cue, said the strangest thing ever. "Then why dont we go around doing that?"
Azeri was a little taken aback but answered, "Were not kids for one thing. We probably dont have any costumes, and people would think we are really weird"
Tetsu took this to thought then said with a smirk "Well then, Lets dress up and go around scaring people!"
Azeri just looked at him like he was some kind of idiot.
"What?" He asked innocently.
Entering the basement, the two immediantly covered their noses at the dust that lifted. "Bet we can find something here" Tetsu said and sifted through a ton of boxes while Azeri just watched him. Inwardly screaming 'IDIOT'
"HA!" Pulling out two costumes, the only now aware of Halloween vamp turned to show them "Youre the werewolf and Im; of course, the vampire"He stated and before Azeri could protest, shoved him up the stairs and into the first bathroom with the costume. Tetsu meanwhile, snickered and held up his own costume. "Oh this will be fun."

After changing (much to Azeris annoyance) the two set out to town. Azeri growled and adjusted his ears before taking a side glance at Tetsu who was smirking.
"Oh yeah! Fear my vampireness!" He said shooting a fist in the air. Looking around, he spotted a pair of kids and grinned maliciously.
Coming upon the pair of kids, Tetsu tapped one on the shoulder and, because of his already glowing red eyes, dilated pupils, evil maniac grin on his face, and tongue sticking out, said "Might want to watch out. I am craving for some blood tonight"
The kids ran away screaming.
"Smart" Azeri said and started to walk away.
"Hey were are you going!�" Tetsu asked running after him.
"Away from their unhappy parents"
Tetsu looked back to see an angry looking mom some distance away looking like she was about to murder him and holding a wooden spork in her hands. "Oh" He said stupidly and looked back at Azeri who was currently sucking on a lollipop he had stolen from some kid.

After more terrifying screams, overly loud cursing due to purses, sporks and angry moms, stealing of candy, and other events, Tetsu and Azeri walked through some scary park (not that it really mattered to them)
Tetsu looked around and sighed. Turning, he grinned at Azeri "Well this has been one hell of a night" he stated.
"Yeah" Azeri agreed, sucking on a jolly rancher.
Appearing back at their mansion, the two stepped onto their doorstep and Tetsu turned to Azeri. "Well now what do we say?"

"Uh..Happy halloween?" Azeri answered looking confused at him.

"Oh. Well then Azeri-chan, Happy Halloween!!"

Azeri just sighed and walked into the house, Tetsu following him.

"Promise me no Mistletoes at Christmas Tetsu. W will probably get in enough trouble as it is"

"Whats Christ-whatchamakalit??"

Azeri sighed once again. This was going to be a long night.

"Do you know anything about the bible?"

"Is it some sort of Dictionary?"

Groaning, Azeri just decided to give up and fell over a couch.  

[Sincerely Sunshine]

I'm Sorry
I started out, having fun
Never dreaming of the future.
I was so carefree back then,
I had no insecurities in mind.
But now, I am alone
My tears so visible,
My wounds are torn open.
I have so many fears,
And they're all coming true, and all can do...
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry...

I was so hyper with no cares,
And you were there to
Do the same as me.
I felt so safe, and I knew you
Were always there for me.
And I still remember those precious words,
But now all I hear is screams...
And pain...
And words of hate..

I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for the pain I've caused.
I'm sorry I've caused tears to shed.
I'm so sorry... So sorry it had to end this way.

I started out, having fun
Never dreaming of the future.
I was so carefree back then,
I had no insecurities in mind.
But now, I am alone
My tears so visible,
My wounds are torn open.
I have so many fears,
And they're all coming true, and all can do...
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry...

You flew away, and left me,
With scars.
My body bloody and immobilized,
With shock.
And I was so confused then,
All I've done for you,
It didn't matter.
All thos times I poured out my heart,
They didn't count.

I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for the pain I've caused.
I'm sorry I've caused tears to shed.
I'm so sorry... So sorry it had to end this way.

I started out, having fun
Never dreaming of the future.
I was so carefree back then,
I had no insecurities in mind.
But now, I am alone
My tears so visible,
My wounds are torn open.
I have so many fears,
And they're all coming true, and all can do...
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry...

My world came crashing down!
My heart was filled with so much pain!
I was feeling all the bad things that you were!
Apologizing doesn't count, but now...
Now all I can do is fade away from reality!
No friends, no love, no laughter and smiles.
I'm so alone, like a single shadow in light.

I started out, having fun
Never dreaming of the future.
I was so carefree back then,
I had no insecurities in mind.
But now, I am alone
My tears so visible,
My wounds are torn open.
I have so many fears,
And they're all coming true, and all can do...
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry...

But now that doesn't count,
Because you've already moved on,
And I must accept the fact that,
You're indifferent from me...
So indifferent from me...
So distant from me...
So unlike you, and so unlike me...
Please forgive my broken soul,
Because without you there by my side,
I cannot see, hear, breathe, feel, speak...
I am... A doll without you.

I started out, having fun
Never dreaming of the future.
I was so carefree back then,
I had no insecurities in mind.
But now, I am alone
My tears so visible,
My wounds are torn open.
I have so many fears,
And they're all coming true, and all can do...
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry...
I'm sorry!
I'm so sorry!!
So sorry!!
So sorry..
So...
Sorry...  

[PrincessRyoko]

Black Girl Mind

I should hate him I should.
He aint never nice ta me no he never been,
if he had, it done been a long time ago.
He just annoy the hell outta me he do!
Yellin’ and screamin' at me,
all the damn time.
He say things dim pretty words,
those words mens say
When they wanna make a lady feel good.
He act one way in front of me,
But, he be lookin’.
Lookin' at me when my back turned,
he think he slick though.
I wish I could slap him,
slap him black as coal
then I slap him white like a sheet.
He always get up my dander
Oh you just don't know.
I don't hate him
He too stupid to hate.  

[JoY_AnGel]

@Hime-chan-haha I like the ending alot. The hating him,but the feeling of pride mixed in.

okya. I was isnpired by Samurai Champloo fanfic,and so. This is like..fanfiction of ..my own characters. ..and Kurai thrown in. Really,this is not how it is but I judt liked the scenaroi of that fanfic alot..that I wanted to put a ria versoin.

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His eyes reminded her alot of him,yes him. The one that caused the event,which then caused her to come out and plague her for an eternity. But those red eyes,angry,furious,but playful and teasing.

Not childlike like hers,not brigth and shiney and glossy like her lime green eyes. She didn't notice for a hwile how she got lost in his eyes now. It hadn't been very long since she made him her toy.

She would sit in her chair,watching him read a book,talk with that pink haired android,and get touched and preened by that hyper neko. She didn't liek it when she touched him,she shoudln't let her dirty hands explore palces they didn't belong.

She started to hate her mroe and more,and while that want him more and more. She wanted to be the one to play with him. She wanted him to belong to herslef,not that girl. She wanted to be bonded by him,not her.

*********

She starts growing on you,as the days slowly went by. No,they went by too fast to him,he barly got to savour her smiles and her giggles,barly gets to drink in the sparkly and chippy look of her eyes. But even though she cuddeled him,hugged him,teased him. There was something lacking in her spirit.Like she wasn't all there,with him.

Those eyes were devlish and shone with michevoius plans,that involved him. He liked the thougth of her thinking about him,not in romantic way. But that her thoughts were on him at the momment. As he sat beside here,playing with her green locks,she looked so happy in her sleep. Dreaming of god knows what,proubly her,she infeccted her,in relaity,in imaginary world.

But those lime green eyes,that childish girl was different with her,she laugehd more,she looked so happy she migth drown in it.That evil damned b***h sitting in her chair,acting all controlling of her, liked she was a mere puppet. She lead her on all the time,she acted nice to her,but then slap her down.

He wanted to attack her every time,but he knew she would hate him if he did harm to her precious treasure,her precious reason. He was bodned to her by chains,he was caged by her. His soul,body was owned by her. But he gave his heart up freely for her possion.

***********

She dreamed of long straigth blood red hair,of pale skin. Her eyes always looked past her,she ntoiced slowly her eyes were on him. She would try to step in,but it seemed like she wans't even there.

She was boudned to her by pain,she clung to her tighly nto wanting to lose her. How did he,after all this time. Win her??

It couldn't be true,that those red eyes were directed at him,and only him. Only wanted him,only needed him. Why him,why not her?? Was she not the one who suffered so much for her..

She tossed in her sleeping,she dreamed of red lips denying her,and then pressing up against his isntead. A head turning back and forth,those eyes that hated her for so long,so long.

Lime green opened aburtly. O thank god it was a dream. She didn't love him,no it was impossible. After such a short peroid of time
Nonesense.
what a crazy dream..of him loving her,and her loving him,and she loving him.
....if only she hadn't dreamt reality.  

[PrincessRyoko]

@Joy: Aww thanks ^.^  

[JoY_AnGel]

hmm..obsession..over..little things. Because its the little things that turn into big things,and big htings lead to huge things..and then huge things lead to the wedding alter.

XD Or something like that.

*************

Her hands always caugth her attention,her fingers so long,graceful like an atrtist's. Except she wasn't really an artist,unless killing was an art then matybe she had a shot of being one. But o,she used those hands so beauitfully,so simply,not even noticing what she did with those hands. Such graceful strength,as she run her hands over that sybertooths fur,gently but those hands posseed something so great,it always lead her to believe she was going to rip off the cats head.

She was obssesed with her hands,yes with her entire being but she usually stared at her hands. And then her mouth,she likes it when its moving,its usually set in a frown or an evil smirk.

She usually purposselly starts trouble so she starts yelling at her. even yelling, her inner self would ooze,as her hands flayed about,or coming down to smack her. Anything,everything,to get her attention on her,and only her. And that hows she likes it.

This is her obsession,this is her fixation,this is her life.
********************

She kinda looked like some demented starfish,her lesg sprayled out this way,and her arms flyed out that way. She usually curled up into a tiny ball when in hte pressence of others,to keep the act of innocent cute neko girl. But no,she slept liek this usually,when hse wasn;t clinging to her.

And she admitted,she was staring at her hands. Pudgy,small,childish hands. That coudl be pictured at grabing at stuff,pulling tugging,grabing another mango or two. She wasn't really thinking about dirty stuff that used those hands,no no. Just bored like always,and her eyes happened to fall on her hands. She was tempted to poke at them,pick them them up and hold them. Maybe even lick and sniff at them,but she was too tired to.

But even from all way across the room,she smelt the intoixcating smell of mangos,she swore on hert own grave that every part of that girl smelt like mangos.As if she was sleeping on a bed of them and not the cold hard ground.

Those lips though,they had the color of candy. They weren't anything really specail not really small,but not pig and pouting. No,like a childs. Everything was childlike about her,her hair style,her eyes,her body. Except maybe her chest..she proubly got that from her. They were the same person,just not the spitting iage of the other. Finally she stood up and walked over silently,bending down she picked up one of her hands,running her thumb against her palm.

They were extremely soft,like a stuff animals fur. She then realized that that sybertooth was staring at her quite absurdly,not used to seeing this type of 'áffection''coming from her. She dropped hte hand and put her hands on her hips. "What the ******** are you looking at??What im bored..okay??Just bored..jesus.." Walking back she sat down in her chair,and as if she cared, without the gaint beast noticing she sniffed her hand momentairly. Yup,they smelled like mangos.