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Allie had the feeling of being weightless for a few moments before feeling the couch under her body. Groaning she looked down and notice the bandaid on her thumb, thankful that the blood was taken care of. When she heard the dishes she called out that she would finish the dishes. She sat up and looked around for a moment, still feeling a little strange about this whole fight. If she had just asked, it would have been resolved, that portion of her fight would have been anyway. She should say she was sorry, but she wouldn't, would she? This was so confusing. Why couldn't he just understand that she couldn't break her word and have Avery go to that place? There was no way Allie would allow such a sweet little girl to go there.

Rolling onto her side she she covered her face with her hands, confused at why she was even crying. She never cried, they took care of that at the school. She didn't want to cry, couldn't cry in front of him. How weak he must think her, especially considering this was her second time. He just didn't understand. She couldn't get caught doing something like that, and she wasn't at all sneaky.

Wiping her eyes she breathed in shaky breaths, trying to keep herself quiet so he wouldn't notice. There wasn't any way he would comfort her right now anyway, not after that. He would more than likely mock her, so she kept herself silent, praying he didn't notice. Why was this happening to her, why was she becoming so emotiinal?

Allie wiped her tears quickly when he came over, not wanting him to see her cry. He must have thought her pathetic. When he explained who the blond, Kendall, was, she looked up at him, trying to keep her tears contained, not wanting to continue to cry when he had caught her. Blinking quickly she dried her eyes as best she could, not wanting to seem like she couldn't control her outbursts. "That you for explaining.. you didn't- I should ha- What I mean to say is-" She looked at him, not sure why she even cared, even if she said she was sorry it wouldn't make a difference with him. "I'm sorry I should have asked.. I guess I just didn't want to hear what the answer could have been.. I assumed she was a girl you were currently seeing." she whispered. It wasn't completely her fault, but this time she was more to blame than he was. If she had just asked him, then again, how would he have reacted. "I had assumed I would have gotten the truth I didn't want to hear.. or make you yell at me again for butting into your business." she said with a shrug.

Sitting up slowly she shook her head out, trying to clear the rest of the fog. Looking at him she shrugged and shook her head. "I think I just get upset because.. you can go on and live your life and be happy with whoever you want.. and I'm.. I'm stuck here, wishing for a happy life." she said. "I know you probably think it's stupid and spineless of me to keep my word from a legal contract but.. I just- I can't even risk them sending Avery there." she said, her eyes getting a faraway look and goose flesh covering her body as she thought about the school. He would never understand what it was like there, not until it was to late, and Avery would already be emotionally scared from the place. Allie just couldn't allow that, shaking her head she blinked, coming back to the present, trying to forget the memories she was reliving.

"I'm sorry you hate this.. I'm sorry you hate all of this.. but eventually.. once we need to start having children I can shift all of my focus and devotion to them. Right now though.. I don't have anything else.. Only you.. and you don't want my attention or devotion, and I honestly understand why." she whispered. "But it makes me feel.. abandoned.. which isn't your fault I know. I have no focus I have no compass. I have all these things I can do and want to do and nothing and no one to share them with." she said softly. Standing she shook her head. "I'm sorry I don't know why I'm telling you all this.. it doesn't matter anyway." she said, not meeting his gaze.

After their blow up, once everything had been on the table, everything went back to how it had been, her staying home and going back to her polite happy self. Now that they had gotten over what had happened, or at least gotten it all out of their systems for now. They had an understanding or sorts, he had least somewhat understood why she was keeping her word.

The next two weeks had gone better however, she had taken his advice and gotten a hobby, a couple actually. The only problem was that all her hobbies were solitary activities. She found she had a real knack for sewing clothes, and she had a great time designing them. Knitting was also a calming pass time. Allie actually got into playing video games as well, having gone to the mall and went into a game store. She had promptly come home with a new console as well as some games. Then she had promptly ordered the old school models, along with any game that seemed fun for that off the internet. They were solitary activities, but at least she had them, and paddle boarding as well obviously. It kept her from sitting there all day thinking about Rory. He hadn't mentioned her hobbies, and they had been more pleasant with one another.

Tonight however was turning out to be just fantastic. Allie had let it slip that today was her birthday, and Rory had decided it would be nice to take her out on a bar crawl for her twenty-first birthday. Allie was feeling a bit of a buzz, really enjoying herself when they started to walk past a karaoke bar. She begged and pleaded to go inside, saying she wanted to sing. When they got inside she went up to the stage and asked the rules. They were fairly simple. If you wanted to sing you had to wait in line, then you had to sing whatever song came up next in the order on the machine. If you were good they would ask for a second, and then you would be finished, unless you wanted to wait in line again. She gave the thumbs-up to Rory and then waited in line, of course drinking a free birthday drink as she waited, loosening her up of course.

When she got to the stage she looked out, a couple of guys giving her a cat calls. She wasn't dressed all that nice, but she had a tight skirt on and a beautiful top that showed off a hint of her perfect chest, along with some killer wedges. When she noticed the next song up 'Girl Crush' by Little Big Town, she felt a sense of awkwardness. It was a little close to home, but she sang the sexy ballad, really showing some talent, in fact, she was amazing. Clearly she had a real skill for singing, even if she normally was to shy about it. After she was finished everyone chanted for her to go again. Then the song 'Bang Bang' by Jesse J. Allie laughed as she sang the song, loving that she knew all of the words. It was her secret little pleasure. When she finished her song she laughed as she walked off her stage and then walked over and down to Rory, laughing as she stood next to him.

Allie laughed as she sat next to him and sipped on her drink. He looked so relaxed tonight, and she found she really enjoyed him when he wasn't stressed out about being forced to be with her. Grinning at his comment she shrugged kightly, "I don't know.. always I suppose. Smiling at him she thought about his next comment for a moment before giving him a very seductive look. "Rory.. you have no idea. I'd be the best lay you ever had. I could even prove it. she said in a sultry voice, giving him a slow sexy smile after she said it. The thought never crossed her mind that he would take her up on that offer, but as she thought about it she found she didn't really care all that much if he did want to act on it. They were adults.

Glancing at the next singer she looked back at Rory and sipped her drink innocently, as if she hadn't said anything at all suggestive. Though none of this contemplation was very deep considering her current state of drunkenness. Though she was vivid enough to consent or not, which was a plus at the moment. Thinking to add to the shock he was probably going through she decided to take it a step further. "Besides.. it would be a good present don't you think.. stud? "

Allison looked at Rory and smiled at him, sipping her drink again. "Why yes Riordan.. I am." she said with a smile, sipping her drink and then glancing to the dance floor. "Come.. dance with me while you think about it." she said with a smile. Grabbing his hand she pulled him along with her to the dance floor, diving through the throng of people to find a place of their own. Finally when she found a place they could both fit she turned and started to dance with him, her hips moving in an easy movement, her hand on his shoulder as she danced.

When she got pushed closer to him she just shrugged turning around and dancing against him, not minding that her bottom was rubbing against him easily. It was fun to dance, and she hadn't been out dancing in so long. Besides the fact that she could dance with him and not worry about who he was and what he would try and do to her. Finally turning back around she leaned up to whisper in his ear. "Come on Rory..what do you say?" she asked, her smile easy as she looked at him.

Allie let out a soft gasp as he pushed her up against the wall, though she was soon to involved in kissing him to think about anything else. When he started to play with the hem of her skin, his fingers grazing her skin in the most sensual of ways. Needing more of his hot skin against hers, once her hand was released, she went about pulling and tugging on his shirt. As she pulled at his shirt her head tipped to the side, giving him better access to the sensitive areas on her neck. After what seemed like an eternity, his shirt was off and floating to the floor. Reaching out and pulling herself closer to him once more she let out another sensual sigh when she felt the heat of him through her shirt. Her hands set about touching and rubbing everywhere they could reach, his skin smooth, soft, and warm, and enticing combination.

Feeling his pelvis pushed against hers, she lifted a leg and wrapped it around his, pulling him deliciously closer to her, her skirt hiking up as she rubbed her leg against his. Everything about him was so strong and overpowering, and she loved feeling small and controlled by him, at least in this moment.

Allie made a happy squeal when he lifted her up and started to carry her to his bedroom. In this moment they didn't have to think about anything. They didn't have to fight, they didn't have to think about being married. They could just be, and be together in the best way possible. When he kissed over her body, she returned the favor when possible. When he pulled her wedges off she wiggled her toes at him, happy to have her feet free. When he pulled her up by her waist, her body came up limp, her head the last thing to greet him. Kissing him she went about taking his clothes off him, her hands easily unbuttoning his pants before slipping them off down his body as far as she could reach. Looking up to his eyes she saw the desire there, and something else that she didn't understand. Either way, it sparked her own desire higher.



Allison woke slowly the next morning, her head pounding, and her mind confused about where she was. Wherever she was, she was warm, and slightly sore. Making a face, she nuzzled her face into her pillow more, only to realize it wasn't a pillow at all, but a big strong chest. Her eyes snapped open, remembering everything from the night before like like lightning had just struck her memory. Her face instantly flushed, though she didn't move, not wanting to wake him. Peaking him at him, she realized his arm was wrapped around her, cuddling her close in his sleep. Glancing at his face she smiled, he looked so peaceful in his sleep. A sudden thought hit her as she realized what they had done. Would he be upset to find out about her other little secret, or would he be pleased? Not that her first time had been much of anything when she was sixteen, but she knew some men didn't like that.

Then again, if he had minded, he hadn't mentioned as much last night, having reignited the passion many times. It seemed like every time she turned back to him during the night, she found him waiting and watching her. The look in his eyes had always sparked her own desire, making her ready for more. The thought of what they did was completely embarrassing to her. She had acted while and wanton, completely uninhibited with him. He probably thought she was some kind of whore, not that she was in the least. It wasn't her fault she lost all sense of thought when he kissed her or touched her. At least they had that going for them.

Allison just looked at his peaceful face as she tried to think of a way to move without waking him. The idea of him waking up, her wrapped in his arms didn't seem like the best idea to Allie. For some reason she assumed he would be upset. He hadn't wanted this marriage, and hadn't wanted her, so in her mind, he was going to be upset they finally did the deed.

Allison shifted when he finally woke up and moved away from her. She blushed, pulling the sheet to her chest to keep herself covered as he sat up and asked what time it was. She sat up slightly on one elbow, the other hand holding the sheet in place. She wasn't sure where her shyness was coming from, it certainly hadn't come into play last night. "Morning." she said back, looking at him. He didn't seem entirely upset, then again she never understood Rory completely. When he asked what time it was she blinked, rubbing her eyes and looking over at the clock her body was blocking from him. "Ten." she said, her voice husky and shy all at the same time. Just looking at him right now was making her desire swell again, why did he have to be so attractive, and so good in bed?

Looking at him she realized he wasn't embarrassed at all by his nudity, so why should she? They did what they did, nothing would change it, not that she wanted it to. "I'll go make some coffee and tea." she said, looking around. "I'll.. uh.. wash your sheets today while you're at work." she offered, shyness creeping back into her voice. Sitting up she was about to ask him to get off the sheet so she could take it with her, when she realized she was being silly. She had bared her whole body to him last night, what was the difference this morning? Tossing the covers off her in a smooth manner she stood, and stretched, her back to him as she arched up onto her toes. She let out a wakeful yawn and then proceeded to walk to the door. Glancing back at him she gave him a smile and then opened the door and headed to her own room, shyness be damned.

Once in her room she smiled at herself, it had felt good to do something shocking, and something she had always been told never to do. 'One wasn't supposed to walk around the house naked.' her mother had chided her after Allie had stripped off her bathing suit at seven only to run through the house to her room completely bare bottomed. Allie had been living by the stupid rule until now, and it felt good to break it. Thinking about it, she wondered if that was partly why Rory liked to break rules. Pulling on a tank top and a pair of shorts, she walked back into the kitchen and started a pot of coffee and a kettle for the tea, though she was already wincing at the thought of the sound it would make. Her head had a throb to it, and it hadn't helped she had spent most of last night not sleeping. With coffee and tea started, she set about making breakfast for them both, it was a regular morning ritual, her being a morning person anyway. Allie didn't want Rory to think anything had changed. She still understood where he stood on their marriage, but it was nice to know at least in some way they were compatible. That way when children needed to be had, at least they could enjoy the act of making one. The thought struck her suddenly and hard. Had he even used protection last night? Allison couldn't honestly remember, though she assumed he had, he hadn't been near as smashed as she had been.