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My one friend, let's call her Bird, lives in PA. My friend, let's call her Cat, and I live in NJ. This is no problem.
Cat's parents are SO F*CKING STRICT I CAN NO LONGER TAKE IT.
THEY NEVER GIVE HER ANY F*CKING FREEDOM.

It's my 17th birthday coming up on September 29th and I'm open pretty much any date. October 11th I have SAT but that's only in the morning.
CAT'S PARENTS BOOKED HER FOR COLLEGE VISTS EVERY F*CKING WEEKEND IN SEPTEMBER, KNOWING THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY MONTH. THEY EVEN BOOKED HER ALL OF OCTOBER. CAT CAYS THE ONLY AVAILABLE DATE IS F*CKING NOVEMBER. THAT'S NOT F*CKING GONNA HAPPEN. NOPE.
Oh another thing, Cat has work every weekend and God knows her parents wouldn't let her miss a precious f*cking day of work.
Part of me think it's because I couldn't make it to Cat's birthday (I forget why I think it was family stuff). I feel ridiculously guilty I couldn't go to Cat's birthday. Like overly ridiculous. I don't know if Cat's parents wanted me to be put in the same situation or not. Part of me think it could be, but part of me thinks also that her parents hate me, and it's like they don't want Cat to have any friends because they give her, literally, no freedom.
In by X time on a Sunday. No hanging out with friends after lunch on Sunday. They don't even give their kids the f*cking wifi password. F*cking seriously? SHE'S 18. HER BROTHER IS 21 (if I remember correctly. If not, 20 or 23) THEY'RE ADULTS THEY CAN MAKE THEIR OWN GOD DAMN DECISIONS.

I want to cry because I never see Bird and Cat and I hardly ever hang out and I just want them over for my birthday.

Oh, PS, Bird just said she pretty much has no dates available either.

THIS WHOLE THING HAPPENED LAST YEAR. IT HAPPENED A MONTH LATE AND I'M SO WILLING TO DO THAT BUT NOT TWO MONTHS. NO WAY.

I'm so furious. I hate talking to my friends this why because I love them unconditionally. We've been friends since 3rd grade, Bird and I, and probably since Kindergarden or 1st grade for Cat and I.

This all could come crashing down because Cat's parents won't let her skip one day of school, GOD FORBID. WAITING TWO MONTHS IS IDIOTIC.

I SWEAR IF CAT'S PARENTS ARE YELLING AT HER, I WILL CALL THEM UP AND LET LOSE HELL.

This doesn't seem to be planning out to be a very happy birthday.
I seriously might just cry.
I want to cry right now real badly.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm mad, I'm upset, I feel like I'm coming off like a b***h which I probably am, I'm trying to make this work for everyone, I feel selfish that I'm trying to make this about me which I despise.
And I'm wondering if I should say that to them. Or just leave them with the Skype message saying I'm typing for five minuets then erase it all and see what happens when they don't get anything.

My little brother is pissing me the f*ck off.

We were joking around about how I was cold but I kept sweating for some reason and I said "I'm not even hot," and laughed. But then he said "you've got that right!" And of course siblings shouldn't have feeling of attraction like that towards each other, but then I tried explaining to him how that can seriously lower self esteem and he says, "yah, your self esteem."

And Then I told him, "Yah, you know what? you're right. Don't you get it that girls cut themselves over comments like that? For not being "pretty" or "hot" to other people?"

And then he proceeds to call me a jerk and s**t because I'm "always mean to me" (which isn't really possible to always be mean to a person unless you're a terrorist or something) and I just want him to know how much that can hurt other people. But he's a narrow minded sod-head who needs to f*ck off and learn to shut his mouth before he hurts someone.